While writing this I had a specific plot going trough my head. I was writing this and i had my itunes on shuffle. Then a song came on that is literally this story in song form. it is called My Immortal by Evanescence. if you listen it matches up perfectly with my story... i guess i did it unconsciously.
BTW I DO NOT OWN D. GRAY-MAN... If I did it would be yullenized!
It has been many years since the battle ended. Many years since we defeated the Millennium Earl and the Noah clan. And just as many years since I saw him last. It had been horrible because I knew that I would never see him again. He was lost during that war. His last petal fell when he had hit the ground. And I couldn't save him.
These thoughts plague me everyday. It has been fifty years since then, but I can't forget him. He was my love. It may have been a rough relationship, but it was worth it. I know that he was the only one for me. I knew that he shared the same thought. I was his moyashi and his only. Yes we fought, but that was our way of expressing to each other.
I try to tell myself that he is gone but I still can't lose the feeling that he is still here. He has been for all of these years. Holding my hand. Urging me forward. It is the only reason that I am still in this life. He has kept me here. I would have ended my life, but I couldn't because his presence was there to stop me. My BaKanda had been there... now that I think of it he was probably scolding me for being sad over him.
I miss his attitude. Somedays it was the only thing that kept me moving forward. His cobalt eyes kept me on my feet. Whether he was glaring at me or not. It made no difference because I knew that they were on me. It didn't matter if he was yelling at me or just talking to me because I knew that his attention was on me. For me it was heaven to have him give me any form of his attention.
It of course had been better when we were behind closed doors. Because it was then that I got to see him with an actual smile on his face and not that frown, or his signature smirk. Even though I loved that smirk it was better to see a full smile on his face.
I loved how he was when he cut loose. He only did this when we were together. It was the only time that he would call me by my name. 'Aren' is what he would say. It was because of his accent. And oh how I loved that. It was exotic for me. It was one of the best qualities too. It only slipped when he did let loose. Oh how I loved the little things about him.
I am thinking of these things now because I know that my own time is near. It has been 68 years since I came into this life, and I only spent two of them with him. Yet they were the best two years of my life. But I can change that soon. I will finally get to see him again. And I will get to spend the rest of forever with him. I Allen Walker will get to see my love Yuu Kanda again.
I know that I am laying in my bed, but I no longer feel it. All I do feel is the weight of my chest getting heavier. My eyes are already closed. I haven't the strength to keep them open any more. I am not scared of death. This is only true because I feel him coming closer to me. Not like it has been for the past fifty years, but like he is actually walking up to me. I take one last breath and it goes out of me slowly.
With this I hear "Oi! Moyashi! You let me wait long enough. Open your eyes now." I do open my eyes and I'm not in my room any more. Looking up I see a pair of cobalt eyes staring down at me. "Come on Aren we may have it, but I'm not waiting forever for you lazy ass to wake up."