Chapter 1

At Fairy Tail- Lucy's POV

How long has it been? Two months? Yea... two months. Two months since I've gone to a mission with Team Natsu, much less have a decent conversation with them. I surely thought I was part of Team Natsu- one of the people that made Team Natsu what it is. Apparently not. I'm not trying to sound like a bitch, but Lisanna has really had her luck. Everyone's attention is on her, a-and I'm happy! For her and for everyone! Its not everyday that one of your childhood friends is proven to be actually alive and not dead 'cos she just went into a different world. But all since that happened, no one has really talked to me. Or treated me the same way before the Edolas incident happened.

I'm alone. It's really weird... because I'm alone in a guild full of mages partying their hearts out.

I'm alone. Sitting on a rickedy, wooden stool at a bar where everyone sat laughing and joking. With a beautiful barmaid on the other side of the counter, her smile glistening while happily seving booze and food to other mages. Team Natsu.. and Lisanna, no. Lisanna is practically the center of Team Natsu now. And Fairy Tail. They're sitting at the table by the entrance, having fun. Levy, Gajeel, Wendy, Charle and Phanterlily were sitting at the table next to them. Master, Laxus and the Raijinshu were on the second floor drinking to their heart's content. And all this while, I was alone.

I'm happy for them. I'm happy for everyone. I'm happy that everyone's happy. Yet... why can't I hold my tears back?... My heart hurts... so much... but I say that I'm happy. Its good... it really is.. that everyone is happy. But... I can't hold my tears back.

I didn't notice a tear slide down my left cheek until it touched my lips. Mira has passed by me on the other side of the counter many times, her glances and looks were not meant for me, her words were not meant for me, her laugh was not meant for me... and her smile was not meant for me. I doubt she even noticed me, silently crying. Even if she did, I doubt she cared. My strawerry milkshake isn't sweet anymore. What happened...?

"Miraaa~!", a high-pitched voice sounded beside me. I turned slightly to my right and found Wendy Marvell, her arms and chin resting on the counter that was just high enough for her to look over.

"What is it, Wendy?", the barmaid kindly replied.

"Can you come over to our table really quick? We have something to talk to you about!", Wendy grinned.

"Oh, okay. But its a little bit busy here so I'm going to have someone take over... hmmm... Wendy, give me a minute. I need to find someone to serve these hungry people."

I barely heard their conversation. My ears have automatically tuned out the world just a bit. I wanted to say that I'll help her, but I couldn't manage a single sound. I just continued to sit there, my chin resting on my right hand, eyes closed in a sad attempt to keep my tears back. I can't believe that I have to have to do this. I've always thought this was a guild were you can just randomly break down crying as much as you were able to randomly punch someone for the simple crime of stripping. But... I feel that if I cry now... they'll drift farther away from me. Far enough... to where my whole existence becomes nothing at all... I'm scared... of being broken. Being broken by the people I love most.

"Hm... oh!", Mira perked up. "Lisanna!"

At the sound of her name, my heart sank. I don't want to hate Lisanna, I know that she's kind and caring and that everyone loved her up until her very last moment- even after that. But hearing her name sent my heart into a panic attack.

"What is it, nee-san?", an angelic voice called out from the other side of the guild.

"I need you to cover me for a bit, I have some things I need to take care of!"

"Okay!"

I heard a series of footsteps, become louder and louder and another set of footsteps fading away behind me.

I wanted to run out of the guild. Right now. I wanted to go back to my home and wrap myself up in my fluffy comforter and sleep my problems away. I want to so bad. But I can't seem to move. I feel that, if I open my eyes, all the tears will just... come... and every single move I make, every single move I'm making, they're standing on the other side judging Lucy Heartfilia. I... I don't want to be Lucy Heartfilia. Not anymore.

"Lucy-san?", the same voice from before sounded in front of me. I slowly open my eyes, just a bit. Yes, the tears were there. On the very edge, threatening that if I open my eyes any more, they'll come in waterfalls. Through the blurry tears blocking my vision, I could make out a white ball, with two blue dots in the middle.

Lisanna.

"Lucy-san, are you okay?", Lisanna came closer. At this, I hear no other sound in the guild. Literally. Everyone stopped what they were doing and I could practically feel their stares drilling holes on my back. "Lucy-san?"

"Y-yea?", I whispered, in a shaky voice.

"A-are you okay?" My tears have dissolved and I could now, see clearer than before. Yes, Lisanna was in front of me. She wore a dark blue tanktop, her eyes just like her big sister's. She was in front of me, maybe a little too close, and her lips pursed into a thin line. "What's wrong?"

"N-nothing!", I laughed weakly. "N-no! I'm okay! I-I was just thinking.. about something.."

"Oh...", she smiled hesitately. "If there's anything thats bothering you, remember that you have your family always behind your back! And you can always come and talk to me!", she smiled, again, this time more warmly.

I stared at her for a little while before returning the smile. "Thank you. But really! I'm okay! Nothing could possibly be wrong!", I laughed more reassuringly. I saw her eyes widen a bit at that before she looked behind me. I followed her gaze and found Natsu staring back, concern filled their faces. I knew it... something... was definitely not right.

I sighed and went back to my strawberry milkshake. It was no longer sweet. People were no longer sweet. Smiles were no longer sweet. Something was wrong. But I was too tired. Too tired to work everything out right now. This has been happening for two month. So two months of pure suffocation and sadness, needs two months of recovery by isolation. Being alone, sounds like the best way to spend these days. I just want to sleep.

I heard some whispering behind me while Lisanna mouthed some words directed to Natsu, most likely. "O-oh, I need this.", Lisanna grabbed my strawberry milkshake out of my hands. I was too tired to give a crap. I stared up at her with a blank face. "S-someone wants a mango milkshake but we don't have enough glasses, s-so... yeah.", the Strauss teenager dumped my beverage down the drain before rinsing it.

Its fine. It really was. It wasn't sweet anymore, anyways. I felt my body rise from the stool and walk towards the entrance. Before I could reach the guild doors. I felt a person knock me off my feet.

I felt my body, falling on the ground, another body on top of me. "A-ah!", a deep, rough voice gasped. "O-oi! Natsu! What the hell did you do that for?!" I recognized that voice. It was Gray. Wasn't it?

"Y-you ate my food didn't you?!", Natsu screeched.

"What the hell ar-"

"Gray!" "Gray! Just go!" "Gray..!" Whispers and small shouts erupted from all over the guild. Gray, who was about to fight back, sighed.

"So what?!", Gray, in an attempt to sit up, accidentally elbowed me. Accidentally... I hope. "You weren't eating it anyways! Plus, you need to lose weight, burnt balls!"

"What did you call me?!", Natsu shouted back, I heard him pick something up and the sound of that object breaking through the air barrier- and my head- sounded throughout the guild. The object... was a communication lacrima.

But there was no way I could've found that out. All I knew, before the world turned black- was all the pent up tears silently sliding out and my first ever wish I wanted to see through; to die.

End to be continued

~anya! ʕ•ᴥ•ʔ~~ -monetts