I remember the time when I saw you, and instantly fall for you.
Even if you wore that scowl, and shows as if nothing matters' to you.
But I knew, you aren't what they think. I know, what they say about you, what they think about you, but when I see you that way, nothing makes me say this, because I know that it's not the truth.
I know how you are so kind-hearted, so generous, and so important to me.
I don't see in you, what people call you.
We are almost the same….yet why?
People call me something that hurts me, blames me. But yes, it is true.
They say;
Because of me, my brother died.
Because of me, you risked your life.
How I am useless! I rely on you and others' for help. I know, I'm useless, I'm not strong, and I'm fragile.
I tried everything I could to change myself, to be strong, and to stand beside you just like Kuchiki-san.
Yes, Kuchiki Rukia.
I don't dislike her, but I hate it how she gets along with you, how you two end up smiling.
It's sometimes like, that place where I want to be: to stand right beside you isn't mine. It's of Kuchiki-san's.
I've never been jealous before, it's just that this thought never came across me. But now, when Kuchiki-san's here she brought you the smile that I couldn't.
She showed you the path, which was impossible for me.
I still love you for who you are.
I couldn't bear seeing you two together, but whenever I see you smiling, with her. These tears began rolling down through my eyes. Is that what I deserve?
I know, you deserve love, you deserve her. Not me.
And I shouldn't have the right to say that; I want you.
I need you.
I love you…
Should I always stay here, in this darkness? Will you ever come to save me? Would I still be relying on you? Can't I get strong? Can't I protect you for once? Can't I. . . . . can't I have the place where Kuchiki-san belongs now.