If only.

Song; Hoobastank – If only. (haven't used all of the lyrics.)

Notes; Sequel to 'Save room for my life'. An idea popped into my head for another PaigeCole story. Because I don't like Phoebe and I love Cole and Paige I decided that Cole and Paige should get together, if Brad Kern doesn't do it then I will.

Summary; PaigeCole. After their dreams, Cole and Paige are starting to warm up more to each other. More than they ever thought they would, but Cole is with Phoebe. Then he's starting to doubt. Is Phoebe really the one for him?

Disclaimer; I think it's obvious that I don't own Charmed.

'Prologue'

If Only.

''I'm off to work baby. Sleep in a little longer if you want no-one will be home today except for Paige.'' Phoebe's voice rang through Cole Turner's head as he just started to wake. He felt her soft lips place a light kiss on his forehead and he let his eyelids flutter open only to close them again when the sun bore into them brutally. ''How long will you be gone?'' he whispered, his voice worn with fatigue. He was still tired from last night and he had only slept for 3 hours.

''Until 4:00pm I think, but make yourself at home. I love you.''

Phoebe picked her bag up and waited for a response to come from Cole. ''I love you too.'' He replied and he reopened his eyes, flashing her a small smile. Phoebe smiled back happy with her answer and she made her way out of the room.

The minute Cole heard the sound of Phoebe's heels die away he sat up, shivering when the cold sheets slid down his body. He didn't like winter. Never had and never would, even though he was meant to be cold-blooded. The only good thing about winter was Christmas, which it would be in 2 weeks. And I call myself a demon. I like christmas. He pulled a face and pushed his legs off the bed, the cold air in the bedroom now hitting his full body. I really should start wearing a T-shirt in bed. Cole thought to himself as he got to his feet and started to collect his clothes. For once they weren't scattered throughout the room, but they were neatly draped over one of the chairs in the room.

//I thought it wasn't wrong
To hide from you
The simple truth
I was scared
I've felt it all along
But it hurt to much for me to share//

Paige closed her eyes as she moved her arms to wash the shampoo out of her hair. A hot shower in the morning. Best way to wake up. It was the only thing that really could wake her up these days. Everytime her alarmclock would start beeping she wanted to turn over and sleep in. But she couldn't. She had too much things to do, like preparing the potions Piper had asked for. I wish I had discovered that I was a witch earlier. Piper wouldn't be giving me this much homework. She knew that Piper and Phoebe were only trying to make her a better witch and she probably shouldn't complain. But that was just her.

As the warm water trickled down her back she opened her mouth and started singing. Normally she wouldn't do that, but there was no-one home today anyway. '' So close no matter how far. Couldn't be much more from the heart. Forever trusting who you are. 'Cause nothing else..-''

She was startled when someone knocked on the bathroom door loudly and her eyes snapped open. ''No. Crap.'' She squeezed them shut tightly when her shampoo trickled into her eyes. ''Damn it.''

''Paige are you okay?'' A heavy male voice asked. What was Cole doing here? Phoebe never said he was staying over again. But that meant she'd be alone with him. She quickly turned the taps off, her eyes still closed and she reached past the showercurtain for a towel. Her hand hit the wall. There was no towel. Can this day get any worse? ''Paige..?''

''I'm fine Cole. Go take your shower in Piper's bathroom I'm sure she'll be okay with it. Oh and could you get me a towel please.'' She rubbed her eyes and then opened them carefully. Her vision was still a bit blurry.

Cole let out a slight laugh and shook his head. ''In your room?'' he asked gently, doing all he could trying not to think of the fact that she was probably naked behind that door. He wasn't meant to think of his girlfriend's sister like that, besides he hated Paige just as much as she hated him.

//If only I had been this blind
I'd have someone to hold on to
If only I could change your mind
If only I had known
If only I had you//

''Yes. The big white one.'' Her voice replied. Cole shrugged slightly and turned around, making his way into her bedroom. He looked around and then spotted a large soft towel neatly folded on the bed. She wasn't as messy as he thought she was. This was only the second time that he saw her bedroom and it was typical Paige. For as far as he knew her anyway. He picked the towel up and walked back to the bathroom. ''Got your towel. Open the door.'' He said.

Seconds later he heard the door unlock and it opened slightly. Paige made sure that he wouldn't see anything she didn't want him to see. She stuck her pale, in water drops covered arm through the small opening. Cole placed the towel in her hand, their hands brushing briefly. Paige felt her heart flutter at the feeling over his rough skin touching hers and then realised that he already had given her the towel. ''Yeah. Um thanks.'' She closed the door quickly and closed her eyes while wrapping the towel around her body. Why did he do that? Why did he give her that feeling. And since when?

She knew since when. Since she had been having that dream about them. She had had it a few times this week and she couldn't stop thinking about it either. Cole was amazing. His kisses were amazing, his body was amazing and his..- Her thoughts were interuppted by Cole's deep voice. ''I'll shower in Piper's room then. Think you could make me some coffee when you're downstairs?''

//I finally understand
Why things that happen
And how it all could go so wrong
Will this may ever end
Cause I don't think I can carry on//

Paige drew in a deep breath and nodded her head. ''Yeah. Black right?'' Just like she liked it. They had much more in common than they thought. ''Uh-huh.'' Was Cole's reply before she heard him walking off.

Paige bit her lower lip gently and made her way over to the mirror. This was wrong. After Shane had broken up with her she had told herself that she would take a break from boyfriends, because she had more important things to focus on. And that had worked. More or less. Apart from a few one-night stands. She hadn't felt anything for a guy anyway, but now suddenly Cole was in her head 24/7. If he walked into a room she couldn't help but checking him out, after making sure he didn't notice though. At several occasions she couldv'e sworn that he was checking her out as well.

And there was this tension between them. Not like the tension of hate. More like a..like a sexual tension. Paige shook her head to get rid off her thoughts. ''I do not fancy Cole Turner.'' She said out loud. ''Do not.'' She looked into the mirror. Yeah I do. How can you not? He's got a great body. And his smile..

Damn the ever stubborn voice in her head. Always telling her the opposite of what she wanted to hear or do. She didn't want to fancy Cole Turner, but that voice told her she did. Her heart told her she did. From experience she knew it wasn't a good sign if her heart wanted something, or someone for that matter. She wouldn't give up before she had what she wanted, but Cole and Phoebe were engaged. She couldn't think of him like that. No she wouldn't think of him like that. If only he hadn't been with Phoebe..

//If only I had been this blind
I'd have someone to hang on to
If only I could have spoke my mind
If only it were true ( We could start brand new)
I'd know I'd make it through
If only I had you... if only I had you..
If only I had you.//

Notes; So what do you think? Like or not? What should happen next? I'm open to suggestions, leave them in a review! xxx