Warning: Short (pretty much a drabble, only longer). Somewhat lusty. The repetition of the words "I want" might get annoying. Oh, and Natsume's a bit of a stalker here, forgive me.

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What I Want

Natsume

I suppose being straight forward is always the easiest way when it comes to feelings. - Shattered Apocalypse

I want to have her.

The thought of me inside her never leaves. I'm not usually lustful, but it seems she is always an exception to everything I try to stand for. I ignore girls more than half of the time, yet it seems that no matter how hard I try, I can never fully ignore her. She grasps at my mind and permanently stays.

I want to ravish* her body, her mind, her heart, her soul. I want to etch myself into her, to see my engravings on her soft milky skin. I can't stop such sickening thoughts.

I want to kiss her in the rain... To hold her in my arms. I always wondered when I had become such a romantic... Or when I had begun to think in such a disastrous style. I might have been a bit of a trouble child but I never did anything tremendously serious... like fall in love.

I want to see her bright, dazzling smile... It always seems to put me in a better mood. She spreads her cheerfulness around all the time. Like a wildfire she engulfs everyone, only not in flame, but in happiness.

I want to kiss her rosy lips and hear her moan. ...I feel like vomiting whenever I have such feelings of want. It's repulsive to have such needs for a person that won't look at you as anything more than a friend.

I want to feel her breath against my neck. I'm a sick person to want her; even if there was a chance... I don't, and will never, deserve her...

I want to run my hand through her beautiful pale-brown hair. It's tempting and I can't help but want to touch it, to kiss it.

I want to get lost in those mesmerizing eyes of amber. So large and innocent, with ever changing emotion. Simply gorgeous and nothing less.

I want to touch her, feel her, love her endlessly. They're repelling thoughts I try to keep at bay as much as I can, yet they continue haunt my mind day and night.

I want to hold her small, elegant hand and hug her petite figure. I'd die before I would ever admit it. I shouldn't act like a lovesick fool.

I don't want to let her go...

But I'm stuck with this unrequited love and it's forever going to stay this way. She loves him, not me.

Nonetheless, I want her.

*In this case he means to 'seize' her everything... not rape her. If you get my meaning.

And there you have it: a very short one-shot with absolutely no plot behind it. I might make a second chapter from Mikan's POV if I get a lot of reviews and if people really want it.

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