Author's Note: I got inspired after listening to NO Air by Jordan Sparks and Chris Brown. The song does not belong to me and neither does the characters. The characters belong to Stephanie Meyer. Hope you enjoy thanks!
Bella's Point of View:
I know that Edward is always trying to protect me. He consistently tries to protect me from other vampires thirsting for my blood, the hazards of everyday living and even from himself. I feel nothing but love and gratitude for most of the things he has done repeatedly to make sure that I am alive and happy.
I find his overprotective nature appealing but sometimes he over thinks things too much. The one example of this forever tattooed in my memories is when he decided he had to leave me.
He thinks that I don't get it but frankly, I do. I know that he is a vampire. I know he can kill me at a second's notice. It is natural for him to use his sharp teeth to puncture me, just as me using my teeth to eat a hamburger. I know that with him I am always in danger. I know his entire vampire family could one day not be able to control themselves and they too could kill me. Hell, my blood is alluring more so than other humans, so any vampire at any time could take my life. I had more than enough instances of it.
It would be so much easier just for me to have my true love be a human. I could have children, I could still be close to my parents, I would not have to endure loneliness while the Cullen's go on their "camping trips". I could be with my love in any way I want and not have to worry about him hurting me. Life would be easier, so much easier.
So easy, that it would be boring. I love Edward and while I know all the risks that could very well lead to my death…I don't care! I need Edward and that was proven when he left me. The radio is on, and the words of this song strike so much emotion. Making my conviction stronger of how much I need Edward in my life.
Tell me how I am supposed to breathe with no air
If I should die before I wake its cause you took my breath way
Losing you is like living in a world with no air
When he left, I was nothing…the world was gray, devoid of any color or any happiness. I was breathing but to me it didn't matter, I did not feel alive without him.
Do you expect me to live alone with just me?
Cause my world revolves around you
It's so hard for me to breathe
Maybe Edward skewered in his thinking thought that I would be better off without him. We both are aware of the dangers that are always near me. He is my world and hopefully now he knows that without his existence all I am is a hollow shell of my former self.
Tell me how I am supposed to breathe with no air
Cant live cant breath with no air
That's how I feel whenever you aint there
Theres no air, no air
Ha…to think that I did crazy stunts to endanger my life more when he left me is funnier. Him leaving me only made things worse, I craved him so much that I would do things that are so unlike me just to hear his voice.
But somehow I'm still alive inside
You took my breath and I survived
I don't know how or I don't even care
I survived his leaving just barely and I thank Jacob for that. I thank all that tried to help me like Angela or even Charlie in his own way. However, I know and Edward must learn that I cannot live without him. If he leaves again that would be the end of me.
If you ain't here I just can't breathe
There's no air, no air….