She had known it was going to be a bad day. From the moment that she had woken up, everything had felt off. It wasn't just the fact that she had awoken to a ringing cell, asking for a lift from her partner from a park far from his place. Or that her apartment was empty except for her. She was use to those two things. Getting up, Kensi had even used the wrong side of the bed, but considering the mess of clothes on her usual one, there was nothing she could do about it.
Now, as she stood as still as she could in a room filled with explosive-triggered invisible lasers, she couldn't help but wonder whether the saying was true. Did getting up on the wrong side of the bed cause everything else to happen, and therefore leading her to that moment? It was possible. With the way things were going, there was nothing else for her to do but contemplate the reasoning.
Going into the bank and driving away, being the decoy, was nothing short of a daily job for her. She didn't regret doing it. Of course, if she died, she most probably would. But it would be more for those she left behind than herself. Kensi knew too well what guilt could do to a person, and she had no doubt that everyone single person on her team would feel it deeply if she didn't make it out of there. It was the only thing that was keeping her standing. That, and the camera that she had long ago spotted when doing a look around of the room. If there was a camera, then she knew that her team would be watching her right then. She couldn't do anything stupid like killing herself in front of their eyes. It wasn't humane.
Hours must have passed, but time all melded together in the small, white room. The only thing that kept her from giving in and sitting down and trying her luck that there would be no laser near her was the blinking red light of the camera telling her that it was still transmitting. And if it was transmitting, then she had no doubt it was being watched on the other side by someone at OSP. Anybody else, she'd have been the one keeping one eye on the feed whilst out trying to find them. But with it being her, it would probably be Eric. And he was way too innocent to watch her die.
The others would be the ones trying to find her, using that little book as a bargaining tool. In her mind it was much more valuable than her life, but she knew noone else would see it like that. Especially not their team leader, who was more than just that to her. If anything, he'd be the first one to suggest it and the last one to back down until everyone else agreed. But she doubted anyone else would have any objections. If she could actually talk to them, she'd tell them to take a minute and think about it. Although, the last time she ever tried to tell G Callen to do anything when he was hellbent on the opposite, she had lost. Horribly. Though, it hadn't been that bad of a lesson to learn when she thought about it.
Kensi wasn't sure how long it had been before the door opened and in walked, or rather skidded, her partner. He tried to near her, as she assumed anyone else would, before she stopped him and showed him why exactly she wasn't moving. As he pulled out a special little gadget to get them out of there, she couldn't help but to wonder why it had been Deeks who had come to get her and not Callem. Surely, if she was in a dangerous situation, he must have known that she would believe him when he told her she'd be ok. Because Deeks' fancy toy wasn't helping her morale much. But she accepted it and went along because there was no other way out. And if it went wrong, at least she'd have tried. She just hoped it didn't hurt anyone else.
The first few hadn't been too tricky once the odd laser had been eliminated, but the nearer she got to the door, the harder it got. Finally, there was nothing left to do but run. The only question was whether she trusted him enough to get her out of there or not. After what she had just endured, she couldn't say that she didn't. With nothing left to lose and nowhere else to go, she placed her hands in his offered ones and let him count them down.
Her legs had slowly been turning into jelly after standing for so long, and she had no idea where the energy to suddenly run had come from. She assumed adrenaline; the same reason why she didn't feel any pain from being thrown forward by the explosion. At least, she hoped it was that. If not, then the only other reasoning would be that she was dead. After all she had just done, she would not be happy with that.
When the smoked had cleared, both from around her and in her mind, Kensi realised that the reason she hadn't hurt herself much was because she had landed on someone else. Immediately pushing herself up to elevate the weight of herself, she paused for a moment to get her head around what had happened. She didn't get a second before she was sharing some light banter with Deeks. She wouldn't ever take the ability to talk freely with someone without the pressure of imminent death ever again.
Feeling the adrenaline start to wear off, she began to push herself up more, using gentle movements so to examine if there was anything broken or not. But she didn't get so far with her partner's arms still holding her close. Thinking that ther bantering session wasn't over yet, she gave him a smirk, opening his mouth to tease him how the other two might get the wrong idea if they came to check on them when he did something that she had definately not expected.
He kissed her.
It took a moment for her to realise what was happening, frozen in her palce by shock. As soon as she got over it, she pulled herself away, finally managing to get out of his grip on her and sit back. Uh-oh, was the first thing that ran through her mind. "Deeks-" she began to say, only for him to cut her off as he sat up too.
"Sorry. I didn't mean to..." she trailed off with a flimsy shrug whilst avoiding her eyes.
"Why-?" Kensi began again, this time cutting herself off as she tried to think straight, "Did I do-?" she broke off aggain, not sure if she wanted to know the answer to that one. If she had led him on, right then, after almost dying, was not the time that she wanted to get into it. "I'm married, Deeks. You can't just ki-"
He cut her off again. "I know that. I'm sorry. It was a momentous thing."
She raised a skeptical eyebrow at his chosen words. "Momentous?"
"As in, in the moment." Kensi nodded, happy that he was now looking at her. "We almost died. I saved you. I had to do something stupid after that. Balance things out." she nodded once again, not entirely believing him and his calmness about it. "Just forget it happened. I have."
"Done." she assured him. He didn't say anything back as his facial expression suddenly changed to one on guard that confused her until she noticed that he was getting something through on his earpeice. After telling them they were fine, he stood up and offered a hand out to her. Pushing aside her pride for a second, Kensi accepted it as she didn't really have the energy to do it herself. The fading of the adrenaline was leaving her very weak.
They began walking down towards where Deeks had said the cars were parked. Only halfway down the stairs, he stopped and waited for her to catchup the two steps in difference. He stayed in step with her this time and she got the feeling he wanted to say something. "Let's keep it between us, yeah?"
Kensi frowned. "Keep what?" he looked at her with a knowing look before nodding back. With everything that had happened, and her sudden tiredness, the events of recent were ebbing in and out of the front of her mind. She didn't want to think about it, and agreeing to forget about it was the best way about that. Instead, he brought it up again. "Yeah, sure." she agreed.
"Cool." he replied before shooting her his goofy grin. "This way, I don't have to keep looking over my shoulder for a pissed off agent." he laughed, and she put on a smile for his benefit. Truth was, by keeping it a secret made it feel like she would be lying. And by lying, she would feel guilty. And by feeling guilty, it would be like the kiss had been something significant. Which it hadn't, at least on her part. But a promise was a promise, even if they hadn't said that specific word. Right?
Don't worry - this will not turn into a romantic Deeks/Kensi fic. But it's based on their partnership/friendship/trust and all that jazz, mixed with my shippers heart. Please leave me even the tiniest of reviews. I take good and bad. First fic ever so all comments are appreciated.