I was asked to write some more Deeks/Callen. Oh so cute! This is going to be fun. ^_^
Warnings: Sex, Violence. I don't really know exactly what is going to happen yet.
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Taking a deep breath Callen put his pen down with a frown. He might love his job but paperwork was a bitch. Especially since he was technically the head of their little team. Which meant they had all gone home already. Well, that's what it usually meant.
Then there were nights like this. When he looked up from what he was working on and saw that Deeks was bent over his desk working away. He was so tense that the agents was actually a little afraid to say anything and startle him.
A different part of him though wanted to go and take the pen from his hand forcing him to go home. It was weird to think, but Deeks was one of the hardest working people that he knew. Even with all the time he spent making sure that all of them laughed at least once a day.
Callen couldn't help but smile at that. When the younger man had joined the team he had had no idea what to think of him. The only thing that he had to go on was the fact that Hetty wanted him there. So he sat back and watched as he worked.
The more he watched the more impressed and confused he got. Deeks was… He still had no idea how he was supposed to describe the man. It was as if every rule he had learned had been thrown out the window and he had to lean a whole new language.
It had been so long since he had felt that. Since he had truly wanted to learn another person. The detective had gotten under his skin though and nothing that he did would wash that away. Not that he had really tried to get away from the man.
As much as it scared him to admit it he wanted the younger man. In every way that he could think of. And he was almost positive that he was wanted as well. It was always hard to tell with someone like Deeks. Someone so open in every was that didn't matter.
Callen could honestly say that he had fallen for a man that he knew almost nothing about. That shouldn't have made his heart race as much as it did. He had such an easy time figuring people out though. At least he had an easy time figuring out who they were at the core.
After that he usually was forced to walk away. Okay, so he usually forced himself to walk away. That was just who he was. Unless he was pushed he was perfectly fine being on his own. He had survived that way and he would have stayed that way.
His team had kept at him though. Every time he walked away from them he could find them right there when he turned around. They decided he was family and refused to let go. Deeks was different. Callen was going after him all on his own. Sort of.
In truth, he had yet to actually say anything to Deeks. He wasn't sure what he wanted to say and even if he did know he wasn't sure what the man would do. The last thing he wanted to do was lose a friend because he had made a stupid mistake.
He had never been one to live in fear though. He was stronger than that. Anyway, he was almost completely positive that no matter the answer this wouldn't come between them. Deeks just wasn't that type of guy to walkaway from someone.
With all of that in his mind Callen stood up and started to walk to the younger man. He didn't get further than a few steps before he changed course and started up the stairs to Ops. A new curse fell from his lips with every step that he took. He was so stupid.
Why couldn't he face Deeks? They knew each other so it wasn't as if he hadn't talked to the man before. It was just a different kind of talk. One that would hopefully lead to a date and then to something more. How he wanted something more from the man.
Not in the way he normally thought either. The agent was not the type of person that thought about the future. Those kind of dreams were for children in his eyes. There was no point in it. No matter what you wanted or what you planned something would come to tear it down.
He had thought that thinking like that had kept him safe. Now he wasn't so sure. He had a chance to have everything that he had never had and he was running away. That made absolutely no sense in his mind. Shouldn't he want himself to be happy?
Shaking his head he moved so he was at the guard railing overlooking the floor below. A handful of agents were walking around downstairs all lost in their own little worlds, but he was still focused on the detective. He was always focused on the detective.
And he had come full circle. Why hadn't he just gone over and asked the man out? Was he really such a glutton for punishment that he was going to sit there pining instead of doing something? Damn it all. He really wanted to hit himself for doing this or not doing this. Whichever was better.
"Hey, Callen," Eric greeted bouncing up to him a smile on his face, "Oh, am I interrupting your Deeks watching? I should..."
"I'm not watching Deeks," Callen denied instantly standing up a little straighter, "Why would you think I was watching Deeks?"
"Because you do it a lot? I mean, you're not a subtle person about it. Which is weird since your job is to be subtle. I think the only person that doesn't know is Deeks. Though I can't be completely sure of that. Not after last night."
Callen's head snapped to the computer tech at that. What did he mean 'last night'? Did they spend the night together? Did they have some kind of friends with benefits thing going on or was it something more? Were the two in a relationship and keeping it a secret? Was he too late?
Swallowing roughly he turned his gaze back to Deeks. He couldn't believe that he had been too slow, too afraid, to go after what he wanted. He had let the man slip through his fingers and he hadn't even realized. How blind could he be?
Without saying a word he turned and started to walk away. He didn't want to stand there fantasizing about a world that he would never have. It would be easier if he walked away and forgot about everything that he felt towards the younger man.
"Woah, wait," Eric scrambled out grabbing his shoulder, "Where are you going? Deeks is that way."
"Why would I go to Deeks?" Callen asked trying not to let himself sound hurt.
"To ask him out?"
Staring at the man the agent tried to figure out what the hell was going on. Replaying their conversation in his head he wondered what exactly it was that he missed. Unless Eric was a lot kinkier than he had thought and he was trying for a threesome.
"What?" Callen questioned shaking that image from his head.
"I thought you were going to ask him out."
"You thought I was going to ask him out?"
"Yeah, he likes you, you like him. Plus you're both single. Unless you're not single and that's why you haven't asked him out. You are single, right, Callen?"
Callen felt as if his head was going to explode. Nothing that the younger man was saying made any sense. All he wanted to do was figure out what the deal was between Eric and Deeks without having his heart break.
"Eric," Callen ground out putting his full attention on the man, "Why were you and Deeks together last night?"
"Oh, I bought a new couch and needed help moving things around. I was going to ask you and Sam to help as well, but then Nell offered so it was just the three of us. We ended up telling ghost stories in my living room and then crashing."
"Then how do you know he likes me?"
That was when a dark blush came to the techs cheeks. He looked away from Callen and to what he could only guess was Deeks causing the blush to get darker. Clearing his throat his eyes quickly darted back to the agent as he squirmed slightly.
"He talks in his sleep," Eric finally offered staring at the ground, "Look, just go ask him out. He'll say yes."
"It's not the simple," Callen shook his head.
"It's as simple as you want it to be. Come on, Callen. I've seen you watching him when you think no one can see I know you're in love with him already. You two could be so happy together. If one of you would just make a move."
Eric almost sounded like he was pleading with Callen. Maybe he was. Turning back to face the desks the agent found himself staring in to ocean blue eyes. They looked away a second later as Deeks continued to pack his things for the night.
Callen found himself moving without thinking. He was already outside calling for Deeks before his mind came back to him. What was it about the detective that had him acting like he was a teenager with his first crush again?
"Hey, Callen," Deeks greeted with a grin, "Please, tell me that this isn't you coming to tell me Eric told you we have a case. Because right now all I want is a shower and bed."
The pleasant image of a still wet and completely naked Deeks climbing into bed filled Callen's mind. He knew that the man had an amazing body and that he wasn't ashamed to flaunt it. They could have so much fun with that trait of his.
More than that though it made him think of simply being able to hold him. Deeks was like the sun. He was always so warm. No matter how cold and alone Callen would feel sometimes he knew that feeling the other man against him would be enough.
"Callen?" Deeks questioned taking a step closer looking concerned.
"Sorry," the agent apologized clearing his throat, "No, there's no case."
"Alright, what's going on then?"
Opening his mouth to finally ask the younger man out Callen felt himself freeze once more. There was no reason for it. Eric had just told him that Deeks wanted him as well. It wasn't that hard to figure out what was supposed to come next.
Still, there was a lot he could lose. At least there was in his mind. If he did this than he would have to finally open up to someone. He couldn't hide things away like he did with Sam and Kensi. He'd be in an honest to God relationship with someone he loved. Someone that knew him.
He wasn't sure that he was ready for that kind of risk. If this all failed than he would be left alone in the dark once more. Though it wasn't as if he was truly in the light as it was. He still held himself away from all that it could be.
"Okay, you're really starting to freak me out," Deeks said hiking his bag up his shoulder, "What's going on?"
"I was just thinking," Callen sighed giving a self-deprecating smile, "Nevermind. Have a good night, Deeks."
The agent began to turn away already telling himself off for being a coward. He was this close to letting himself have some happiness and all of that was not enough to make him act. No, he was just too damn stupid for that.
"Hey, Callen," Deeks called causing the older man to freeze.
"Yeah?" Callen responded not bothering to turn around.
"Why don't you pick me up at eight tomorrow night? Oh, and don't think this lets you off the hook. You are definitely paying."