It's been 35 months 14 days and 12 hours since I left the only place I could ever call home. In that time I learned more about life then I had ever, living the life I lived, alone in a new city, with no family and no friends, it was hard at first but having a daughter it made me grow up fast.
I haven't heard from him, in the same amount of time, he's tried calling, writing, emailing but eventually he stopped, as did everyone else. That doesn't mean I haven't seen him, he's on every music channel, even here in little old North Carolina, he's everywhere. We all knew from the start he'd be a rock star, but who knew he's blow up so fast, it's good I suppose he didn't know, having a child would have only held him back.
"Mama!" Mimi's two and a half year old daughter squealed from her bedroom, bringing Mimi back to reality.
"Yes baby" Mimi answered, walking into her daughter's room.
It was amazing how much Melany reminded Mimi of Matt, she had his bright blue eyes, his pale skin, his nose, his dimples, the only thing she got from Mimi was her strawberry blonde hair and even that was mix between hers and Matt's, that and the cute little light freckles around her nose.
"Can I watch my wil pony pweeze?" She asked, pouting out her lower lip.
"Sweetie it's past 9, you know what time it is" Mimi smiled, holding her daughter in her arms.
"Bed?" She asked unhappily.
"Tomorrow princess okay?" Mimi negotiated, putting Melany in her bed.
"Fine, I wuv you" Melany yawned.
"I love you too baby" Mimi said kissing her forehead and turning out the lamp.
"If I get scayawd can I come in yo bed?" She asked sleepily.
"Yes" Mimi answered, exiting the room.
Mimi it didn't have work tomorrow so she decided to turn on the TV for a bit, maybe there was a good movie on or something.
The T.V turned on to the news.
"This here is the exact spot where the rock band Teenage Wolves lead singer Matt Ishida's private jet crashed merely two hour ago, no word yet on how the young rock star is doing, back to you Jim" T.V personality Holly Hunt said on the channel 4 news.
Mimi felt as though she couldn't breathe, her chest was caving in and her lungs felt constricted.
"Matt oh god Matt!" Mimi said panickedly under her breath, feverishly looking through her cell phone for the number of anyone I Odaiba.
"Sora, sora sora, pick up please" Mimi mumbled as the bell kept going.
"Hello" A female voice answered, that was when Mimi felt as though she made a big mistake.
"Hello?" She said again.
"Yea it's me" Mimi said, summoning all the courage she had.
"I'm not a mind reader whoever this is I'm not in the- wait Mimi!" Sora exclaimed.
"Yea it's me Sora, I missed you" Mimi said, tears immediately springing up in her eyes.
"After two years and some change you call now Mimi!" She exclaimed in disbelief.
"I'm sorry Sora for bothering you, I just it's I saw on the news that Matt, his plane crashed is he, is he okay" Mimi said, full out bawling now.
"It's okay Mimi, calm down, me and Tai are flying out to see him right now, he's somewhere in North Carolina or something, Tai knows or something…
He's here, in North Carolina! He's here, oh god, he's here…
"Hello? Mimi you there?" Sora asked her voice soft again.
"Yea I am Sora, I just really missed you" Mimi sniffed.
"I missed you too, I lost my best friend for two years it's great to hear from you, where are you?" Sora asked.
"In North Carolina" Mimi sighed.
"Really? You're serious?" Sora asked, not even able to believe what she was hearing.
"Yea it's a long story, come see me when you come to see Matt, we can catch up, this is my new cell number by the way" Mimi said.
"Okay I will, so why'd you leave?" Sora asked bitterly.
"It's a complicated I'll just-
Mimi was interrupted by loud crying and lots of cries for Mommy.
"Who is that? Are you babysitting?" Sora asked confusedly.
"Sora that's that's my two year old, Melany, the reason I left" Mimi said a bit ashamedly, running into Melany's room.
"Mimi! Are you kidding?! You have a daughter?" Sora asked, blown away by this information, she was definitely caught off guard.
"No Sora, I'm not, let me call you back though" Mimi said seriously.
"Sure but make sure you do okay?" Sora said sternly.
"Will do" Mimi replied, sitting on Melany's bed and stroking her hair.
"And wait Mimi, she's Matt's isn't she?" Sora asked.
There was a pause.
"Yea" Mimi answered.
"Okay, Bye" Sora said; as Mimi flipped shut her phone.
"What's the matter baby? Why are you crying?" Mimi asked softly, holding Melany in her lap.
"I, I had a bad dweam" She sobbed.
"Awh my baby, its fine it was just a dream, come here" Mimi said soothingly, holding her close.
"You wanna come sleep with mama?" Mimi asked, getting up and holding her in her arms.
"Yea" She nodded sleepily.
"Okay" Mimi smiled, heading into her room.
Laying Melany down next to her, Mimi got into bed.
"Sweet dreams angel" Mimi whispered, kissing her daughter's cheek before going to sleep herself.
Matt Ishida was laying in a hospital bed, extremely annoyed.
"Since when does two broken ribs become grounds for complete bed rest!" He exclaimed aggravatedly to no one in particular.
Flipping through the channels he finally stopped on one, it wasn't a show he liked too much but it was the best thing, however this didn't stop his mind from wandering.
He began thinking about his friends back home and about Tk who were all coming to see him, then all of a sudden with out warning his mind became consumed with thoughts about Mimi.
Why'd she leave with out saying good bye? Why'd she leave without telling him where she was going? Why'd she leave?
He laughed dryly at himself, after two and a half years he was still in love with her. He had millions of girls throwing themselves at him, wishing beyond anything that they could spend a mere hour with him and still the only one he could think about was her. She was still the only one who could make him feel like that. Wondering where she was now Matt drifted off to sleep.
Mimi woke up to the sound of banging on her front door, loud banging at that and muffled voices.
Dressed in nothing but pink flannel shorts and a white tank top Mimi grudgingly headed towards the front door of her two bedroom apartment.
"Even on a Saturday I have to wake up and 7" She mumbled grumpily.
She opened her front door and got the shock of a life time.
"What are you doing here!?" Mimi exclaimed, hugging her best friend, who she hadn't seen in two years.
"I had to come see you" Sora said hugging back.
"Oh my god come in, come in" Mimi beamed, closing the door behind her.
"You want coffee?" She asked.
"No let's just talk" Sora answered, sitting on Mimi's couch.
"Okay so 1, how'd you find out where I lived?" Mimi asked.
"Well, when you called, it said the name of your city on the caller I.d so once I got here I realized that this was a very tiny community, I found out where you worked and the told me your address, it wasn't that hard" Sora said simply, Mimi however was sitting there with her mouth open.
"Well regardless, it's so great to see you" Mimi smiled.
"It's great to see you too, now can I ask you a couple questions?" Sora asked.
"I guess so" Mimi sighed.
"Alright so why'd you leave Meems, didn't you think we'd understand?" Sora asked.
"I panicked Sora, I was sixteen and pregnant, I just knew that telling Matt would effect him negatively and I knew that telling you guys meant telling him, then my parents, I just couldn't do it Sora, and in a way I'm glad I didn't tell anyone" Mimi explained.
"Why?" Sora demanded.
"If I had Sora, Matt wouldn't be where he's at right now, he'd be working at some mini mart bagging groceries, we'd both be unhappy" Mimi said uneasily.
"He would've stuck by you Meems, that's the kind of guy he is" Sora said softly.
"I know, I dated him for three years Sora, I knew Matt would never abandon me which is why I had to leave, I couldn't defer Matt from his dreams" Mimi said, looking down at her wooden floor.
"I guess I can understand that, but why not tell me?" Sora asked hurtly.
"Honey, there were days where I repeatedly kicked myself for not telling you, but in the end I knew that if I had told you, you would've convinced me to stay and I just couldn't do that" Mimi said apologetically.
"By the way where's Tai? You guys are still dating right?" Mimi asked.
"He's here, yea we're still together, I didn't think you wanted me to tell him so I told him I was visiting a friend, Tai's a little dense so he never really questioned what friend I could possibly have in North Carolina" Sora said, laughing lightly, Mimi joined too.
"He's a great guy though, one in a million" Mimi smiled.
"Yea my doofus" Sora said.
"So oh my god! Where is she?" Sora asked all of a sudden.
"Who?" Mimi asked confusedly.
"Your daughter silly" Sora said.
"Oh Melany, she's sleeping" Mimi answered.
"I wanna see her" Sora said.
"She'll be up soon, how long are you in for by the way?" Mimi asked.
"Only two days, we just want to see how Matt's doing" Sora answered.
"So you guys can stay with me" Mimi suggested excitedly.
"Oh no Mimi we couldn't-
"No way I won't hear it, you guys are staying with me" Mimi said dismissively.
"But that would mean-
"Telling Tai, I know, it's okay he can know I trust him" Mimi decided.
"When do you plan on telling Matt? He has a right to know" Sora asked, seriously.
"Probably never, really Sora, I don't think he needs to know, he's a big time rock star now, I'm his past I doubt he even remembers my name now" Mimi sighed sadly.
"That's just what you think, he never stops thinking about you Meems, ever, he doesn't say out loud but I can tell, he hasn't even seriously dated anyone since you left" Sora said truthfully, rubbing Mimi's back.
"I, wait, really?" Mimi asked, there was a tiny pull at her heart, He cared even if it was just a little.
"Really, he needs to know Mimi, he has a kid" Sora persisted.
"I wanted to go see him anyway, maybe I'll tell him" Mimi sighed.
"Mommy!" A tiny voice called, running into the room in her pink footsie pajamas.
"In here baby" Mimi called.
Melany ran into the living room, where she confusedly looked at Sora, before jumping onto Mimi's lap.
"Melany this is my best friend Sora, you can call her Antie Sora" Mimi introduced.
"Hi Melany" Sora smiled, taking her in.
"She's gorgeous Meems" Sora complimented.
"Thanks" Mimi said kissing the top of Melany's head.
"Why don't you go watch Dora the Explorer Melly, I'll be there in a bit" Mimi suggested.
"Okay" She said happily, running back into her mom's room and turning on the TV.
"She looks a lot like Matt, she even has his dimples" Sora commented.
"I know, she reminds me so much of him" Mimi sighed.
"Her personality however, is exactly like yours I can already tell" Sora said.
"I love her, she's basically my world now" Mimi said honestly.
"How do you work anyway?" Sora asked.
"Um by showing up at a certain place at a certain time" Mimi laughed.
"No I mean like do you take Melany with you to work?" Sora asked.
"Oh no, I drop her off at the day care that's right across from my job" Mimi answered.
"So what do you do? I went into the building but they never told me what you did exactly" Sora pressed.
"Well I'm a secretary for this guy who's the assistant to the producer of One Tree Hill" Mimi answered.
"I love that show!" Sora exclaimed.
"Yea me too, I got to meet Chad the other day actually" Mimi said excitedly.
"Really, tell me more" Sora said enthusiastically.
"Nothing happened, he told me I was really hot though and oh my god, Melly loved him, she couldn't stop staring at him at first and then well I thought she wouldn't want to come home with me after how much she played with him" Mimi laughed.
"That's so cool!" Sora said.
"Yea I hate my job though, I mean I always thought I'd be like a singer or a fashion designer, never a secretary" Mimi sighed in contempt.
"But hey I'm not complained, I'll take any job I can get" She added.
"Oh Meems, it's so unfair you have to do this on your own, seriously tell Matt, if anything at lease it'll help you out financially-
"I don't want his money Sora, I've never been like that, I've survived this long with out anyone, I still don't need anyone, especially not him" Mimi said a bit angrily.
"I think you should tell him, and I don't mean just for his money but because I know he loves you and he deserves it Mimi, you walked out on him, he never did anything that bad to hurt you" Sora said seriously.
"Sora he cheated on me, while we were together" Mimi blurted out in frustration.
"What!?" Sora said loudly.
"With that Jessica girl that was in our school, he had sex with her" Mimi said, tears welling up in her eyes.
"I guess he was drunk or something because there were Hennessey bottles everywhere, but that was the night I found out that I was pregnant and I went over to see him and I found him and her in his bed, I just Sora I couldn't" Mimi said, her tears cascading down her cheeks, remembering how much it had hurt.
"Oh my god Mimi, I'm so sorry, I can't believe, oh honey why didn't you tell me?" Sora asked, hugging Mimi.
"It's the past, it doesn't matter" Mimi said stubbornly, furiously wiping away her tears.
"Tell him Mimi, if not for you then for Melany, Matt was a jerk but I know how he felt and still feels about you, he's still fully in love with you and I know if Matt was in his right mind he would never have done something like that" Sora tried.
"I can't face him Sora, it's so painful" Mimi said, barely above a whisper.
"You're such a strong person Meems, I know you can do it, and do it for your daughter" Sora said.
"I know, I will, when I go to see him" Mimi said decisively.
"Good, do you want me to come with you?" Sora asked.
"No I better do it alone, I'll be fine thanks Sora" Mimi smiled weakly,
"Okay then let me go I wanna go see Matt real quick" Sora smiled.
"Make sure you come back here okay" Mimi said firmly.
"Don't worry we will" Sora smiled, hugging Mimi.
"And hey do you want to tell Tai all this yourself?" Sora asked, as they headed for the door.
"No you tell him, spare him the boring details though" Mimi winked, hugging her back.
"I will hun, I'll see you in a bit" Sora said, leaving.
Mimi closed the door behind her, a wave of relief and a little bit of pain hit her, that was her old life, a life she thought, she would never live again, people she thought she would never see again, the father of her daughter who she imagined she would only see through the TV screen.
Getting up from the couch, Mimi went into her room.
"Baby you hungry?" Mimi asked.
"Um no" Melany said distractedly.
"No sorry, let me rephrase that, Melany you have to eat something" Mimi said sternly, grabbing Melany and tickling her.
"Okay okay" She said between giggles.
"So you want cereal honey?" Mimi asked.
"Yea, Lucky Chawms!" She said happily.
"Okay" Mimi smiled, walking out of the room.
Slowly Mimi walked into the kitchen, she took out Melany's princess bowl and began washing it.
He still loves you, he deserves to know…Sora's voice echoed through her head, could she tell Matt, would he understand? Would he be upset with her? Would he even want to get to know her, the new her, her daughter?
Reaching for the house phone, Mimi absentmindedly dialed Sora's number.
"Hello?" Sora answered.
"Sora, it's me, where are you?" Mimi asked, cradling the phone between her ear and her shoulder.
"I dragger Tai with me to the mall, I'm shopping" Sora said over all the noise.
"Did you go see him?" Mimi asked, pouring the cereal.
"Yea, he's doing okay Meems, you should go see him, he asked about you, you know" Sora half whispered.
"Really?" Mimi asked, a bit shocked.
"He asked if I had heard from you, but then he always asks that, it's one of the first things he asks me actually" Sora said truthfully.
"I really don't know if I can do this" Mimi sighed, pouring the milk.
"Mimi, you should, really I think you need to" Sora told her.
"I just, I know Melany has a right to know her father, but what if she gets attached Sora? And her has to leave, because let's face it he has to leave, he's a rock star, and where are we going to end up? Melany's gonna be hurt and I'm going to be in the same position I was 2 and half years ago" Mimi vented.
"Mimi you have to know by now that Matt's not like that, he's in love with you Mimi, he would do anything for you" Sora contradicted.
"Fine, okay I'll go but I'm not promising anything, me and Matt we've always had really bad timing, so don't expect some Kodak moment picture perfect family" Mimi said, grabbing a spoon and heading into her room.
"Okay, okay" Sora said.
"Alright give me the name of the hospital, I'll go in like an hour" Mimi said seriously.
"It's Cedar Bay Medical Facility" Sora informed her.
"Oh that's like fifteen minutes away" Mimi mumbled.
"Yea I know, funny how all of the cities in North Carolina he came to little old Cedar Bay" Sora grinned.
"It's fate Mimi" She added.
"Yea yea, I'll call you later , make sure you come stay with me Sora!" Mimi exclaimed.
"I will, call me after the whole thing with Matt happens" Sora said.
"Yea I will" Mimi agreed, hanging up the phone.
"Here Melly" Mimi said, handing her daughter the bowl of cereal.
"Thank you mama" Melany said, not removing her eyes from the television.
"Your welcome baby, listen after you finish we have to go see someone okay?" Mimi explained.
"Yea" She said, not really paying too much attention.
Mimi went over to her closet and looked through it.
"Why can't I find anything to wear! I'm great looking 19 year old woman why is this such a big deal!?" Mimi mumbled frustratedly.
Because you're seeing the estranged father of your daughter after two and a half years! A voice screamed in her head.
Finally deciding on a dark denim mid thigh mini skirt and a pink strapless top. She took it out and went into the bathroom, so she could shower.
Removing her clothes, Mimi warmed the water before getting in, letting the droplets hit her, she closed her eyes.
Thoughts about Matt came swirling her into her head, memories of the two of them while they were together, things they did together, and for the first time Mimi let herself think about him.
Do I love him? Can I love him?
Tears rolled down her cheeks, she couldn't help herself, she just couldn't stop crying, falling to the bottom of the porcelain tub Mimi put her face in her hands and bawled.
Finally calming down, Mimi pulled herself together.
"I can't do this, I can't I have my daughter to think about, I can't let myself get this emotional over him" Mimi decided to herself, taking a deep breath and finishing her shower.
"Melly! Baby, come in here please!" Mimi called from her daughter's room.
Little footsteps came closer and closer, as Melany ran into the room.
"Yes Mommy?" She asked.
"Come here baby, let me change you we gotta leave" Mimi said, taking out a red tank top and blue denim shorts for her.
After changing Melany's clothes and diaper, Mimi let her go play while she did her hair, Mimi straightened her hair and curled the ends, she looked hot, a little too hot just to be visiting an old flame at the hospital. She put on a dab of lip gloss, a little mascara and some light pink eye shadow, looking herself over in the full length mirror one more time, Mimi decided she looked good.
Grabbing her purse and baby bag, Mimi turned out the lights before going to get Melany.
"Come on sweetie, turn off the TV" Mimi smiled.
"Where awe we goin Mama?" She asked confusedly, nonetheless doing what her mom told her.
"Mommy has to go see someone, you'll like him I promise" Mimi told her, picking her up in her arms and turning out the lights.
"Can we go to get Ice cweam after?" She asked.
"If you be a good girl for Mommy" Mimi said bargained.
"Otay" Melany nodded.
Mimi went over to her Nissan Ultima and strapped Melany in her car seat before getting into the driver's seat.
"Mommy, who is yo fwend?" Melany asked innocently.
"Oh well you'll see him baby" Mimi said uneasily.
"Fine" Melany said.
Mimi turned on the radio, music always allowed her to just not think about anything but the song.
Mimi walked into the hospital, with Melany on her hip, finally spotting the reception desk Mimi went over to it.
"Hi, I would like Matt Ishida's room" Mimi requested.
"Don't they all, sorry unless you've got direct relation to Mr.Ishida you can't see him" The reception's lady said rudely.
"I need to-
"Mimi! Mimi is that you!" A male voice called behind her.
"Tk!" Mimi exclaimed, her initial emotion was complete and utter happiness.
"Where have you been? How have you been? What are you doing here? And wait who's this?" Tk asked, one after another.
"Okay, I'll explain everything, in the waiting room, just tell this rude lady to let me see Matt" Mimi said, glaring at the reception lady.
"Yo, Jane she's okay, she's with me" Tk said, leading Mimi into the exclusive waiting room.
"Oh okay Mr. Takaishi I'm so sorry Ms. I didn't know-
"Yea whatever" Mimi interrupted.
Sitting on the blue plastic seat Mimi took a deep breath.
"Mimi, is this your daughter?" Tk asked, putting two and two together.
"Yea this is Melany" Mimi introduced.
"Oh god, and this is why you left?" Tk asked.
"More or less yea" Mimi answered.
"And she looks almost exactly like Matt so I can assume?" Tk asked.
"Yea you can" Mimi sighed.
"Mama, is this the pewson you had to see?" Melany asked.
"Um no baby" Mimi answered, sitting Melany next to her.
"She's really cute" Tk commented.
"I know" Mimi agreed.
"Kari's here too by the way" Tk informed her.
"Really?" Mimi asked.
"Yea we're uh-
"Together! Finally!" Mimi squealed, hugging Tk.
"Thanks, I think" Tk said hugging back.
"Hey look don't be mad at me, I left because I really needed to Tk, not because I wanted to" Mimi said, trying to defend her actions.
"Didn't you think we'd understand? Mimi none of us would have turned our backs on you" Tk said in defiance.
"I just couldn't Tk, you have to understand, I was sixteen and I panicked" Mimi said honestly.
"I guess that makes sense" Tk nodded.
Melany jumped off the seat and began to walk towards the pay phone.
"Melly please stay here" Mimi called, Melany came back to her mom.
"So are you here to see him?" Tk asked, looking over to the white door.
"Yea, I was now I'm not so sure" Mimi sighed.
"Go, he should know about her" Tk smiled.
"Yea I guess, is anyone with him?" Mimi asked.
"Not at the moment no, Kari ran to the bathroom, I have no idea where she is right now" Tk answered.
"Could you just watch Melany until I'm ready to well ambush him" Mimi said, cracking a smile.
"Sure" Tk said.
"Melly I'm going to leave you with uncle Tk for a couple of minutes be good okay?" Mimi said, crouching on her knees.
"Okay, the ice cweam?" Melany asked.
"Yea" Mimi smiled, kissing her cheek.
"Here goes nothing" Mimi murmured, taking a deep breath before slowly walking towards the door. Hesitating as she reached for the door knob, Mimi looked back.
Do it for Melany, Do it for Melany.
Finally she opened the door, and there he was lying there , Matt, her Matt, he was frustratedly messing with the bed options, as restless as ever.
He was shirtless and there were bandages wrapped around the lower half of his abdomen, his chiseled body was as sexy as she remembered as old memories came flooding back.
Looking up at the sudden movement in his room, Matt looked at the woman standing in his doorway.
"You can't be here" Matt said his eyes wide, he pulse racing.
"This was a bad idea" Mimi mumbled, heading for the door.
"Stop, you owe me an explanation" Matt said forcefully.
Mimi took a deep breath, and tried to suppress the tears that were threatening to spring up in her eyes.
"Matt, please, don't do this" Mimi pleaded, turning to face him, finally meeting his gaze.
The moment she said his name Matt felt his whole façade melt away, looking into her hazel eyes Matt couldn't believe she was actually here standing in front of him. He took a moment just to take her in, in all of her beauty, after almost three years apart she still had the same effect on him.
"Come here, there are things I need to know Mimi" Matt said, trying to keep the same uncaring force in his voice, but failing to do so.
Slowly Mimi walked over to him, each step she took she felt herself falling deeper and deeper into what she felt was the past. Finally reaching the chair next to him Mimi sat down.
"What do you want to know?" She asked barely above a whisper.
"Why'd you go Mimi? Why'd you leave me?" He asked his voice so full of emotion he didn't even bother masking it.
"I had to Matt! I didn't by choice, I needed to go! And I saw you with her and I just I couldn't tell you!" Mimi sobbed incoherently.
"What?" Matt asked, not able to understand what she was saying.
She fell against him, her body racked with sobs as he slowly wrapped his arms around her.
"There wasn't a day where I didn't think about you, please believe me, I just convinced myself it was better for you and your career that you didn't know" Mimi said in between sobs.
"Tell me what?" Matt asked confusedly.
Just then the door opened and Melany walked in.
"Mama!" She exclaimed, running to her mother.
The word that came out of the beautiful little girl's mouth shocked Matt into a state of barely consciousness.
"Meet your daughter Matt, Melany Isabelle Ishida" Mimi said picking Melany up in her arms.
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A/N: CLIFFHANGER!!! Dun Dun Dun dun!!! What's going to happen? How's Matt going to react? Give me at least three reviews to find out!!!!