~The End of Us~
I hid my eyes from the light,
But then I saw you.
I tried to keep you out,
What more could I do?
You irritated me and pissed me off,
You distracted me from my reading and choked me 'till I coughed.
No matter how many times I snapped,
It took no more than a day, and you would come back.
Slowly, I let you in. No one else could ever come through,
Not through the walls I built,
But there was one exception,
You.
There was a time you stopped me from taking a mere life of another,
I expected you to see it then,
See that I was a monster like no other.
But instead you asked me a simple question,
You asked why I hid,
I gave you a simple answer,
That's all I ever did.
Despite our relationship and the brutal fights we had,
Looking back on it now,
I only treasure what we had.
I remembered when you asked me to stay by your side,
As an equal,
As a friend,
As the other half of your life.
I declined for a second, only to pester you.
But deep down inside, we both really knew.
If I could turn back time,
Believe me, I would.
I would save you a thousand times over,
Don't doubt me, I could.
The last real time we spoke,
It was just a petty fight.
I threw things,
You dodged most,
But it was still a stupid fight.
I admit that I was wrong,
I should never have kept things from you,
At the time I was afraid of what you might do.
I kept things a secret,
Only for your sake.
But there's no need for apologies,
It's all so too late.
Believe me when I say,
That I wanted to tell you,
I wanted to say how much I owe you.
You saved me after all,
You're my 'Holy knight', so to speak.
I wanted to tell you,
But I was just too weak.
And now I seem to be losing myself in the dark,
No matter what I do,
Your absence tears me apart.
I wanted to hold you,
To tell you that I care.
But when I woke up,
You were no longer there.
A body,
A smile,
A noble in blood.
I broke down beside you,
Screamed loud from my lungs.
If only I knew that night would be your last.
I would never have left your side.
If only I could change the past.