Disclaimer: I do not own any of the characters sadly they all belong to Stephanie Meyer though I would love nothing more for this Christmas than to own Jacob!

Storyline: This story begins with Bella coming back from Italy with Edward. She never asks Edward to take her to his family to vote if she could be turned into a vampire or not. They are just on their way back from the airport to her house.

Chapter 1

The ride back to Charlie's house was entirely quiet. The only sounds you could hear were coming from the car´s engine as he speeded up the road towards my house. The rain had stopped and I was admiring the brightness of the stars as I looked out my window. It was supposed to be one of those unforgettable moments especially if you are with that special someone. A memorable night if you think of the irony of me saving and immortal. In fact, it was supposed to make this moment so much more enjoyable as I was admiring the stars with my love again. And yet, though I was with him again, I felt different.

As Edward grabbed my hand I looked and him and smile a little hoping he would not notice where my thoughts were taking me. I felt a little uncomfortable even after everything we´ve been through.

"Are you okay?" – he asked.

"Yeah. I´m just feeling a little tired you know… running around almost the entire Italy to save you can tire people." – I answered looking at him as I smiled a little to hide my discomfort. Is not that I didn´t trust him, it was more the fact that I didn´t trust my emotions right now. I was a little tired and somewhat confuse. I knew there were some boundaries that were crossed with his decision of leaving but I never knew it would feel this way. I mean, it was as if we were close right now in the car but in reality an entire sea was separating us. Maybe if we talked about it everything would clear up and we could go back to normal, back to what we were before any of this happened.

"You know I´m glad you did." – he said as he kissed my hand and kept driving. I looked at him and turn to face the cloudless night again. After another half hour Charlie´s house came into view. After Edward parked in the sidewalk he got out of the car and walked around to open the door for me. "I´ll meet you in your room."

"Okay."

I walked towards the front door and opened it as slowly as possible. It was a quarter till 2:00 so by this time Charlie was probably sleeping in his room. I tried to get in as quietly as possible. I wasn´t in the mood of having a discussion with Charlie right now about my wereabouts tonight, much less tell him Edward was here. I closed the door as silently as I opened it and heard a light snore, probably coming from my father. I turn towards the sofa and there he was. I smiled and walked towards him. 'Sorry dad' as I tucked him a little before turning around and going up the stairs into my room. When I got in I started looking for him and there he was in the corner of my room looking outside my window. He turned, looked at me and smiled as I closed my door and walked towards my bed tiredly.

"Sleep. You look really tired. Don't worry, I'll be here when you wake."

I just nodded and started to get into bed. He started walking to me until he was in front of me and kneeled in front of me and touched my face with his right hand.

"Your father won't forgive me easily."

"It's not his choice to make. And even if he doesn't forgive you easily I know he'll forgive you eventually. Or more likely, will have to since I've chosen you."

He smiled.

"Sleep. We'll talk tomorrow." He said as he kissed my forehead and lay beside me.

~ O ~

The night was exactly as he expected it to be. As he walked down the seashore he stopped and looked at the sky. He was tired. He was exhausted but not physically. It was more a mental battle which he had tried to fight but lost miserable. H just couldn't accept what minutes ago had happened in his life. Everything changed from one moment to another. One day he woke up being someone happy, complete, and by the end of the night all he was left with was contemplating stars in the middle of the night alone.

"You knew there was a possibility that this would happen."

He sighed painfully.

"Do you think I don't know that?"

Sam sighed. He laid back into one of the rocks that were some feet away and looked straight at him. He knew that Jacob was hurting pretty badly. Specially after seeing the way he looked at her and how he used to relax every time she was over at his house. Or how he always tried to better himself just so that he could tell her how he managed everything. He tried so hard to make her see that he had changed and for what, so that at the end of the road she choose someone else. Someone who had abandoned her and had hurt her in the worst way possible.

"Jake, you need to forget her. There is nothing you can do. I know it hurts you, but believe me its better this way."

He looked back at Sam.

"How did you work that one out? Don't try to tell me that you understand what I'm going through right now. You have Emily." He spat a little angry. He turned to look at the ocean as he tried to calm himself down.

Sam took a deep breath.

"I don't have time for this. If you like to sulk here the entire night be my guess. Bottom line is she choose him. Deal with it. Though I'll let you know one thing… many decisions will have to be made after her choice. And we as a pack and as a family need you to be in your best judgment of mind to be able to make decisions based on what's best for our family."

Jacob sighed deeply and looked back at Sam.

"Don't worry. I know what's expected from me."

"Trust me… you have no idea." Sam said.

Jacob watched as Sam turned around into the forest and started walking slowly towards it.

'Great. What the hell was that about?' He sighed again and looked back into the ocean. 'He's right though. Even after everything that he did to her, she still chose him and there is absolutely nothing I can do. Worst is I know that I need to let her go but damn it, it hurts so much. Why Bella?'

He lay down in the sand and started thinking about the many things that had changed since Edward left. How she didn't even care about him when Edward was with her the first year and suddenly his disappearance had point her into his direction. How depressed she was when Edward left and she went to him to look for comfort. How he saw the sadness slowly leaving her eyes with each day that passed fixing those motorcycles. The way all her troubles disappeared from her eyes the moment she saw him.

'Why can't you notice what you've done to me? Or is it that you really don't care at all. Either way, this the last time my thoughts are wasted in these meaningless thoughts of you. Sam is right. If everything I did for you means nothing at all to you then it's not even worth thinking about you anymore. From now on I live for me and my family.' Jacob got up and started walking home knowing that tomorrow it would be a new beginning.

Authors Note: Well this is the end of the first chapter. I know it's a bit short but this is just the introduction. Let me know if you like it or if you don't. This is my first story ever so if you like it I'll keep updating. I promise it will get better soon!!