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As Trick walked away she could hear the accusatory voices in her head return, telling her that she was brain-washed, possessed, someone else was in control? Why couldn't they understand? Why couldn't her family understand that she had found her destiny? That she had found someone she loved with all her heart.

So then why did her heart feel hollow and dark? Like something was missing or wrong? Why? Bo sighed and shook her head, there was nothing wrong with her heart, nothing wrong with what she was feeling, she was simply recovering from being reunited with her lover.

Lauren.

Why of all things did her mind leap there? Sighing she walked over to her dresser, to where she kept her jewelry. When she got there she pulled out a fox and note that she had found at Lauren's place so long ago.

For giving me the freedom to love.

And I do. Forever

-Lauren

Without even thinking about it she opened the envelope and read them for what seemed like the thousandth time. She smiled slightly at the words before she shook her head. If Lauren loved her then why couldn't she…

She was assaulted by a short seemingly insignificant memory from the train ride. Just before she had awoken she could have sworn she had heard Lauren's voice that day but. What had she…

Bo I remember.

She awakened on the train that day; it had not been the group getting their memory back of her? But that was what Rainer… it was Lauren's voice? The one who echoed amongst the others, and it was Lauren who had been the reason she had awakened after her memories had been sealed.

That made no sense. Rainer had told her that when the compass was broken when all of them remembered she would awaken without any of them wondering where she was, driven to find her plane and then she had to find her way back her way to free him.

But of all of them why had it been Lauren's voice that had awakened her that day. How had she even been able to hear her echo in her head? Then again she was on a mystical train, echoing voices should not be a huge surprise to her should they?

Souls screaming in agony. The sounds of… the damned souls on his train.

What the hell? Where had that come from? Why would Rainer's train have been carrying souls of the damned? That made no sense. He said he had been banished to that plane although why and for what he had still not remembered.

When she gently set the note down next to her she reached her hand out to pick up the necklace that at one time had meant so much to her, but she had never worn it. Why?

Because her subconscious had remembered that her true love was Rainer? Was that the reason? But for some reason she felt nothing when she thought of him, a vague general happiness, but little else.

No. It was because she had wanted Lauren to be the one to give this to her, she wanted Lauren to be the one to put it… light.

For a few moments all she could see and feel was light. Something was… what the hell. She needed to get out of here; she needed to run away from here. Whatever it was there was something seriously wrong with her.

She had killed the Una Mens. She had killed someone who was begging for her life in front of her eyes.

She could feel the urge to be sick rising up. What had she done? What kind of powers could she have unleashed?

More importantly what did Rainer actually want with her and with them? She reached out to grab the necklace and the note quickly shoving it into the pocket of her kimono, wandering around the room she pulled on the clothing that she had been wearing earlier. Whatever the hell was going on she knew she needed to run.

She needed to find Lauren, she needed to find Kenzi, even Dyson at this point. She needed to find someone that she could trust. Because she could feel something was wrong with her, something was very wrong with her. She felt sick.

What had she done?

Trick's words kept echoing in her head telling her not to kill the Una Mens or else their powers would gather in one final seed, but that was what she had already done hadn't she. She needed to find a way to fix this, and to get away from Rainer because whatever he was doing to her she barely recognized herself anymore.

Quickly she glanced around the room before she started to walk away, she stopped for a moment to reach for her phone before she walked out of the room. Once she was in the hallway she climbed the stairs to Kenzi's attic room, it would give her a chance to call someone and hopefully it would take Rainer a little more time to find this room.

When she unlocked the phone to make the call she hesitated for a moment. Her friends already thought she was insane, what were the odds they would even listen to her? And how could she know that this wasn't just some paranoia left over from the train and from having her memories taken away and restored.

Maybe she just needed a little time to process, a little more time to let the memories settle and to let her emotions sort themselves out. To get used to the idea that she could finally settle down with a man… who had none of the qualities she wanted in a long-term partner. She felt hollow when she thought of him; she couldn't feel anything for him beyond a dulling of her other emotions followed by what seemed like happiness. That was not love.

This was someone or something messing with her emotions, her mind, and her memories. Some of them made no sense if she tried to recall them now. Everything to do with Lauren, she could remember the bad, but she had a much harder time remembering the good, was there ever even any good? The same thing with Dyson and with Kenzi, she felt distant from all of them. She knew what she felt for them, she knew she felt strongly for them but she could not remember why.

And she had not realized this until now. How? Gaps, huge gaps, memories that made no sense given the people she knew. No happy memories of her life here, beyond the ones she had made more recently. Everything that tied her to them had been erased or replaced with memories that were similar but not quite right.

The only exception was Lauren, because of how their relationship had worked more memories remained. The sad ones, but because of that she also remembered some precious moments. Mostly the first time they made love, when she asked Lauren out, and the first time they said I love you to each other, but also a thousand more small moments in between, when she had gotten her heart torn out, but also a few times it got repaired.

Without thinking Bo pressed the call button followed by one on her speed dial. She brought the phone to her ear and for the first time in years found herself praying that Lauren would pick up the phone. After a few rings she began to pace only to realize that it would give away her position, she instead she sat down on Kenzi's bed.

"Dr. Lewis." She heard Lauren finally answer when she picked up the phone.

"Lauren."

"Bo?!"

"Yeah Lauren it's me. Look I have to make this quick, but I think something's wrong with me, like majorly wrong with me." Bo paused for a moment before she continued. "Something feels off and it has for a long time, but please I need to get out of here where are you guys?"

"Dyson's place." Bo nodded quickly before she brought the phone away from her ear. When she looked up she could see Rainer looking at her curiously, a benevolent smile on his face. Bo narrowed her eyes slightly but she could feel relaxed again.

Why was she trying to… "Bo? Bo are you still there?"

Lauren. Her voice of course it was her voice. She needed to get out of here, she had already promised Rainer things and well… why did she feel torn? This should be… an easy.

"Honey come back. Just come back Bo. Whatever is happening come back to us. Come on Bo." Bo shook her head and reached down to tap the phone onto speaker. When she looked up she could see Rainer looking down at her, confusion written on his face.

"Lo? Thanks." Bo shouted out the old nickname as she stood up in front of Rainer. She could see him staring at her a questioning look in his eye, glancing between her and the phone for a few moments before she saw his eyes widen.

"The doctor of course. Should have guessed she would have that power, of all of them the human is the least suspicious. Humanity is a weird and infectious thing is it not Bo?" She heard Rainer ask her as he shifted his look up towards her.

Bo smirked before she shook her head. Levy had been right she used Lauren's humanity as a shield and as protection. Of course she did. Because really Lauren grounded her, she always had.

Just blind and stupid as per usual. Wow that seemed to be her modus operand lately wasn't it. Blind and stupid. Bo looked up at Rainer who was smiling back at her before he offered his hand to pull her up.

Bo looked up at him for a few minutes torn. The man she knew was kind, caring, generous and really the exact opposite of what she had been told about him. But at the same time she what Tamsin had said about him kept echoing in her head, that she hadn't meet pure evil until she had meet him.

He had already made her slaughter the Una Mens, she had already killed on person begging for her life. How many more? How many people would they conquer and slay on this path?

Did she want to become what she was told her darkness, the darkest part of her always said. Did she want to rule over all? To vanquish light and dark and leave the only thing left as her and Rainer? What would that leave them with? So much power she could become her grandfather? A corrupt ruler?

She knew what her answer would have been a few minutes ago. Yes because it was keeping her and her grandfather apart, her and her birth mother, it kept her from being able to interact with her adoptive family. But at the same time was it right to go about it this way? To stage massacre after massacre?

No. Everything inside of her screamed no.

She had already done Rainer's dirty work once to slaughter the Una Mens. Because of Trick she knew just how much of a mistake that had been. Now she had to deal with whatever the fallout from that would be. When she looked up at Rainer she could see him smiling back at her patiently.

She had promised him she would kill him if he turned out to be an evil maniac, but she had a feeling he already was. And as she had seen with him, going up against him was insane because of his foresight.

But she had to try, if she could end him here and now in Kenzi's bedroom then hopefully she would be able to stop whatever kind of hell plan he was orchestrating. She had no idea what was happening or what was going on other then on a hunch.

But she had always trusted her gut, and she knew that she could die doing this, but still. She had always been someone who rebelled against her destiny, never accepted it, not like she had here for some reason. So complacent and so naïve. She really did suck at reading people.

She stood up and walked towards him. When she got a closer look at him she could see something was off about his face, about his looks, it was almost as if there was a shimmer there. Why had she never noticed before? Bo reached down to pick up her phone.

"Lauren? Am I on speaker?"

"Yes." She quickly tapped the speaker off button and brought the phone to her ear as she stood there. She could see Rainer looking at her a curious expression on his face. She was not fighting him and she had made no moves to battle yet so hopefully untl she did it would not allow him access to foresight.

"I love you all and I am so sorry." She murmured into the phone. "Lauren you be you, smart and sciency okay, and I am so proud of the person you're becoming. You deserve to be free, and I'm sorry I forgot that. Nobody own you, nobody ever has and nobody ever will. And be happy okay, live your life however you chose, but make sure you stay happy okay. Thank-you for being my anchor and my light, for always being there to bring me back. I love you so much and I'm so sorry I'm such an idiot for not realizing it soon."

"Bo why…?"

"Dyson you take care of Kenzi for me okay? I know that you're training her to be… something. So keep doing that. And please try and find a way to move on, you deserve to be happy. I'm sorry that I used you and that I did what I did to you. You're the best wolf friend a succubus could ask for." Bo mumbled into the phone a sad smile crossing her face.

"Bo…"

"Kenz?"

"Right here Bo."

"You be the Kenziest Kenzi ever okay? You were the sister I never knew I wanted and the best friend I could ask for. I'm so glad I saved you that day and I'm so thankful that you've been with me for all of this. Thank-you for being there for me through the break-ups the heartbreaks, the everything, and you take care of yourself okay? I love you so much little sister."

"Bo why does it sound like you're saying goodbye? Like you're about to die?"

Bo smiled as her eyes watered. "Tell Trick I loved him okay and that I'm sorry I couldn't listen to his warning? And if you ever see Aife and she is sane enough please tell her that I would have loved to get to know her better and that I wish I could know her as my mother and as a fellow succubus. But despite it all I love her because she's still my mother in a way."

Bo took a final breath. "Tell Tamsin that I never hated her and that this is not her fault. I made my own choice and I chose my own destiny right until the very end. I never hated her, and I hope that she finds herself. And tell her that her wings are beautiful, she'll understand what I mean. Tell her to be happy and to take care of herself."

"Dyson, Lauren?" She murmured into the phone, she could feel the tears starting to fall down her cheeks as she said good-bye to the people she loved most in the world and telling them to say goodbye to everyone else she loved.

"We're here Bo." She heard Lauren say into the phone. Bo smiled sadly at her lover's voice. She could hear the quiver in it, she knew Lauren well enough to know that she was fighting back tears.

"Make sure you threaten Hale for me please, I never got to fulfill my responsibility as best friend and big sister okay? Take care of Kenzi and yourselves." Bo took a shuddering breath before she looked breathed into the phone. "I love you all and I will never forget what you've done for me. I love you and I'm so sorry that this is goodbye. Bo brought the phone away and pressed the call end button, allowing it to fall away onto the bed.

When she looked up at Rainer she could see him smiling at her. "So you've chosen to sever ties from your friends? Why?"

Bo looked up at him smiling slightly as she reached for her thigh holster, pulling out the dagger. "That was not an I'm leaving you, that was a good-bye to my loved ones. My lover, my friends. The memories I can't remember because you took them and the memories that I still have and how distant I feel from them."

She could see Rainer look at her in confusion for a moment before he blinked looking up at her with a confused expression on his face. "I've been used and manipulated by to many people for far to long. It's time I seize control of my life again, and it's time I put you to rest. I will not walk down a path that puts me in a position that compromises who am I am and will make me become what I fear most, that I will surrender to my darkness."

Bo drew the dagger out from here its holder and brought it up in front of her, she could see him take a step backwards and she took a deep breath. "Your intentions are noble Rainer, but your method is wrong, and my grandfather may have been a tyrant but if these are your methods, then your no better then he is. I will not stoop to massacring people."

"You don't want to do this Bo." She heard Rainer say. And when she looked up at him and smiled her eyes watering.

"Your right I don't. But what I feel for you is nothing; it's dull and lifeless. And what I feel when I'm around you is a dullness and a vague happiness. I can't live like that and I can't risk you getting to hurt this world, getting to hurt my friends and family. So if I have to take you with me to do it, so be it."

Bo could see Rainer drawing the sword that was strapped to his side. She could see him turning away from her and that was the moment she took the opportunity, driving her dagger through his chest and into his ribcage, before pulling it out again moments later. She was gong to turn it away from him. A few moments later she could feel a sword drive through her stomach.

Just like she thought. She could see Rainer stumbling backward, a smirk on his face as he shook his head. "You figured it out." She saw him cough up blood a few moments later as the blood started to run down his chest.

She could see him staring down at her eyes widening as he stared at the blood running from his chest and soaking through his shirt. She could see his eyes roll into the back of his head as she collapsed.

Bo sighed as she allowed herself to fall onto her knees before she curled in on herself in excruciating pain. It felt like something was eating her from the inside out. Bo looked over at Rainer and saw that his chest had stopped rising and falling. She smiled and closed her eyes, curling in on herself as the pain started to fade.

She knew that she was dying and she knew that. In a way she wished that she could do something to heal herself, but she had known when she had started this there would be no source of Chi when she stabbed him.

She hadn't thought this through really had she?

Just like usual she hadn't thought it through.

Bo sighed as she curled in on herself, bringing her hand to press over the wound. The pain that she was feeling was excruciating but it was fading.

She could feel herself getting cold.

"Lauren, I love you and I'm sorry I'm an idiot." She murmured allowed as she reached into her pocket to clutch the necklace that had given her so much hope and had helped her to break this stagnation she had been caught in.

Even if the moment and the way forward was in death. She knew that she was starting to fade away.

"Please… Bo!" Bo smiled slightly as she allowed her eyes to close. It was funny that the last thing she thought she heard was Lauren screaming out her name.

She had hung up the phone to prevent this.

Bo opened her eyes and looked around the room, taking in Kenzi and the room for one last time. She would miss her best friend, her little sister.

She needed to let Kenzi be able to sleep. She did not want to die here in Kenzi's room.

With effort she stood, pressing her hand to the wound as she slowly but surely staggered down the stairs, she nearly fell more then once. But she wanted to get to her own room, and to be in a space she was comfortable.

Bo smiled when she stumbled into her room. She smiled when she looked around before she staggered over to the bed and collapsing on top of it.

She knew she was fading and she knew that she would die here.

It was funny but she almost could swear that she felt warm arms wrap around her, and something lifting her up, a hand coming to rest against her throat.

"I love you so much… please baby hang on." Bo smiled as she curled into the imaginary warmth and allowing herself to drift off, fading away as she felt herself fade.

Hopefully she had stopped the worst of it before it had happened.

Everything faded.