Falling O.U.T

Funny... It's in love, like in pain and in shock. Ironic, I think...

People say you dream of the people you love...

But I love no monsters...

And they seem to haunt my dreams, through the night...

I don't know why I'm running...

Or really, even, why they're chasing...

I just know...

That I'm running away from something horrible...

In my dreams...

I sometimes reach the end...

I notice a yellow stretch of paper...

With a name printed on it...

I strain to read the name as I keep running...

I wish I had my glasses...

There it is...

It always says the same thing...

It says his name...

But I've fallen...

I hit the ground, in my dream world...

I hit the bottom of a pit...

He stands at the top, soft brown eyes looking into my cold blue ones...

And he walks away from me...

And all I can hear is his broken sobs...

And I wish I could go back to those days...

The days I played with my puppy, back before he and I changed...

But now...

What's happened to us, to me and to him?

I fell out...

I fell out of love...

And I felt like I fell out of the world.

I give up caring...

Even for Mokuba.

Even for myself.

I...

Fell...

O...Ordinarily this doesn't happen, does it God?

U...Unlikely that you will respond, God.

T...Time is so precious but precarious... why do we waste it?

....

O....Oh, no.. it's happening again.

F... Forever, must I dream this dream?

....

L...Likely, I will...

O...Of course, I deserve this...

V...Very much.. for hurting him.

E...Easily... So easily... I ripped him apart.

....

This is all my fault...