Hey guys, I was watching charmed and just has some inspiration to write, unfortunately it was not for my other stories but I had the idea for this little one shot.

It's a Paige centric from the episode in season 5 Baby's First Demon. It takes place just after Paige finds she is not in the family tree and goes upstairs to get the crystals to protect the baby.

Disclaimer: I do not own Paige or any other charmed characters mentioned in this short one shot. All credit goes to the creator of charmed Aaron Spelling.

Paige's Diary.

Dear Diary.

Hey again. I haven't written in you for a while.

Okay that's a lie.

I write in you every day. Whenever I feel need to let out my emotions, to tell someone how I feel.

Right now I feel left out, because it happened again. They don't mean to do it. I know that, but I can't help but feel...unwanted.

So you're probably wondering what happened right?

Well after we talked on the sofas about the family tree, a piece of paper that apparently means nothing, I went upstairs to get the crystals as instructed.

Only I haven't gone back down yet. I can't face it yet; just being around them makes me feel like I'm nothing.

So here I am writing to you, about these feelings that I tell you of daily, these little things my sisters do, but don't understand how much pain it really causes me.

They have always felt wanted, needed, loved...Home. I've never had that sense of belonging; I've never felt that not really. Even though I try to kid myself, tell myself it's not true...I know it is deep down inside.

And that's when I come to you, my friend. The only person who knows the true Paige Matthews. I just wish they could see too, my family that is. I can't tell them you know that, I can't tell anyone.

So I write, and I cry when no one's around, when no one can see...No one can see the little girl that lives inside me, wanting to be held and told everything is okay.

If only that would happen. But I know it won't.

So you know what I'm going to do?

I'm going to go back down those stairs and take these crystals in my hands. Put my fake smile on and pretend everything is peachy as usual. Like I always do.

It's just the story of my life.

Paige the people pleaser.

Pleasing everyone but herself.

So then what did you guys think, I have never written anything like this before so feedback would be good :) please!