I notice that my songfics are pretty much the thoughts of each character. I love them, definitely. Don't you see the similarities between Eponine and Fenris? Both loving someone, but their love cannot come true. How sad. So sad... Lea Salonga sang this beautifully. Don't know who wrote it, but he/she has rights to the wonderfully fluffy song.

On My Own

And now I'm all alone again
Nowhere to turn, no one to go to.
Without a home, without a friend
without a face to say hello to
But now the night is near
And I can make-believe he's here

That's how it's always been. I thought I could make him love me again, but I was naïve. He only loved me then, for he had to protect me. But now he has Iris to protect. I guess I have no place here.

Sometimes I walk alone at night
When everybody else is sleeping
I think of him and then I'm happy
With the company I'm keeping
The city goes to bed
And I can live inside my head

In my own little fantasy world, everything is perfect. But only in my dreams. I love him too much too bear. I need some time to think, I guess.

On my own
Pretending he's beside me
All alone
I walk with him 'til morning
Without him, I feel his arms around me
And when I lose my way, I close my eyes and he has found me

We'd be together again. I'd be so happy. I want him to find Balder in himself again. Find me. Tell me he loved me. But at what cost? My friends. They wouldn't understand. Chaos doesn't understand. Iris… She doesn't need my troubles burdening her. Loki…

In the rain
The pavement shines like silver
All the lights are misty in the river
In the darkness, the trees are full of starlight
And all I see is him and me forever and forever

In my mind, there is only Chaos. But what is it about Loki that troubles me so? His expression is unreadable, and his eyes are piercing. But still… Does he understand?

And I know it's only in my mind
That I'm talking to myself and not to him
And although I know that he is blind
Still I say there's a way for us

I hold on to the hope that he'll find his memories and love me again. But is this just wishful thinking? I've been pretending too long to know anymore. It's painful.

I love him
But when the night is over
He is gone
The river's just a river
Without him, the world around me changes
The trees are bare and everywhere the streets are full of strangers

My misery returns to me. When I saw how lovingly he held her, how happy he was with her, my heart broke. Reality dawned on me. We could never be together.

I love him
But every day I'm learning
All my life I've only been pretending
Without me, his world will go on turning
The world that's full of happiness that I have never known

Loki. He saved my life. I wish he could save me from this torment now. But that's next to impossible now. I love Chaos. I'll be alone for all my days. It's impossible for me to find what I'm looking for. It's impossible for me to find love again.

I love him
I love him
I love him...
But only on my own...

Isn't it?

No. It's not.


I bet you're wondering who said the last statement. You'll see in my second chapter. R&R plzzzz! I'm being more accepting of flames now, so go ahead, but I'll just use them to cook the chicken, so... :)