Disclaimer: I don't own LOST
A/N: I am horrible at story titles just to let you know. So I just had to write what I think Jack was thinking about after he saw Kate and Sawyer… . shudders not that I have anything against Kate or Sawyer.. I think they do make a good couple, but I feel so sorry for poor Jack. This chapter is what he is thinking about after he sees them and the next will be about after he finishes the surgery.
Jack willingly walked back to the aquarium and Ben locked the door behind him and left. Jack sat slowly on the table. He didn't know what to think anymore. He was confused, hurt, and angry all at once. What he did know was that he did want off this island for sure. Before when Ben had first offered it, he hadn't really given it much thought. If he was going to be let off the island, then he wanted to be able to get everyone else to come back too.
He wasn't stupid. He knew that Ben had purposely unlocked his door and Ben wanted him to go to that room and see Kate and Sawyer. When he had first spotted them up there, all cuddly with each other. He felt sick to his stomach. Now he realized that if Kate was happy with Sawyer, then he wanted her to be happy.
In order to make Kate happy, they would need to escape. Jack needed to come up with a plan. But it was hard to concentrate knowing that she was in Sawyer's arms.
That made him angry. Here he was feeling guilty because they were feeding him food and he was in this place and he just had this feeling that Kate and Sawyer were being treated worse, especially when he heard Sawyer screaming. But now he realized that he should have known better. Here the Others had actually allowed them to be together in those cages. And all Kate had cared about when she had come to see him was Sawyer. He didn't understand it. He didn't understand what Sawyer had that he didn't.
In Jack's eyes, Kate was the one for him. He felt differently than he had ever felt about anyone else. He had wanted to take it slow with her, he wanted to be cautious. He didn't want to be hurt again, and yet here he was, hurt. He loved her so much. So why didn't she feel the same? Was he just not the one for her? Maybe that was it. Maybe Jack hadn't been there for her like Sawyer had been. Not that he had ever thought Sawyer would be there for her. Maybe Jack wasn't good enough for her.
He hadn't really been treating her that well and he knew that. But if it hadn't been for Michael that one night, he would have kissed her, and now he wished he had. He had been concentrating so much on everyone else and on Michael that he hadn't paid much attention to Kate. It was all his fault. He was too controlling for her. He had pushed her away.
He sighed and he ran his head through his short hair. He stood up and began pacing. The least he could do now was give her a chance to escape. He began thinking of surgical ways that could delay the surgery and give the Others no option other than to let Kate go, and Jack knew that Kate wouldn't leave without Sawyer, so then they would be free. Then Jack stopped. He had it. He knew what he would do. It would give Sawyer and Kate enough time to run. He knew that messing with the surgery would probably spell death for him, but at this point he didn't care. He didn't have anything to live for. As long as Kate got free, then whatever else happened didn't matter.
Now the question was, would Sawyer treat Kate the way she deserved? Did Kate know about Ana? He just didn't get why she suddenly decided to go and play around with Sawyer. It was so sudden and out of the blue for him. They were captured. Weren't they afraid that the Others could come around at any point?
What really made him mad was that the Others probably had watched the whole thing, and that disgusted him. It made him hate the Others more than ever. He had to admit he had been a little attracted to Juliet, but he knew better than to trust her.
He was aware of Sawyer and his attraction to Kate, but apparently he had never picked up on Kate's attraction to Sawyer. To him the whole thing seemed ridiculous. But if Kate chose Sawyer, then that was her choice and Jack would respect it. But he couldn't help but think of what could have been.
A/N: The next chapter will have some dialogue. Please review!