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In my world Ianto is in love with Jack, the kiss meant something in Cyberwoman and the reason Jack reacted so badly was because his lover lied ok?

Who Do I Love Most?

Chapter One;

Ianto was alone upstairs in the cover shop as always, reading a book he'd got from the local library when the tall man came in, hands in the pockets of his brown trench style coat. His hair was brown, long and styled up into a messy fashion that suited him well and made him look like an over grown teenager as well. His smile was both kind and nervous at the same time.

"Is this the entrance to Torchwood?" he asked quietly. Ianto, trained in the art of keeping the hidden organisation hidden when people got lucky guesses didn't even blink out of sink, just put the bookmark in his book and stood. His suit hung about him easily, similar to how the pinstriped suit hung on the man. "If so can I speak to Jack Harkness, I'm an old friend." The door automatically shut itself with a click.

"What's your name?" Ianto asked, crossing his arms. There were not many people who could truly claim to be old friends of Jack's as he didn't know many people but many who wanted their secrets claimed to be so.

"The Doctor." Ianto raised his eyebrows and picked up the phone on the desk, the one linked internally to the Hub below him.

"Jack? There's a man up here claiming to be the Doctor. No he's got lots of hair and small ears," Ianto said quietly. He hummed a yes and then turned to the Doctor, pressing the phone to his chest. "He says he doesn't know you."

"I've regenerated since we last met so I look different to how he remembers. Ask him for a question only I could answer," the man, 'The Doctor' said calmly. Ianto sighed before putting the phone back up to the side of his head.

"He says he's regenerated and looks different. Also suggested that you give him a question only he could answer," Ianto spoke to Jack louder than before. "Right, ok," the phone was then held out so as to pick up 'the Doctors' answer. "Your question is this, what did Jack first call you when you met?" The man frowned and then grinned slightly.

"Rose told him my name was Mr Spock, I wasn't too impressed by him. In fact I switched his blaster with a banana," the Doctor answered with a laugh.

"Did you hear that? Jack? Jack?" Ianto asked puzzled, frowning into thin air for a few moments before putting the phone down. He was about to speak again when the hidden door opened and Jack ran out at full pelt, breathless.

"Doc?" he asked, his voice shaking. The man's hands left his pockets slowly as he nodded. "You've changed."

"That's how it works with us Time Lords but you haven't Jack," the Doctor said slowly, seeming to have trouble speaking. "It took me so long to find you."

"That's ok but where's Rose?" Jack asked. The doctor winced slightly.

"She died. At Canary Wolf." There was silence in which Ianto looked between the two men in sadness he tried to hide, so he was the Doctor that Jack dreamt about, obsessed about, the Doctor Jack loved. And the reason why Ianto knew his relationship with Jack was over.

"I'll leave you two alone," his voice sounded slightly choked as he spoke.

"Ianto…"

"It's alright Jack. You two-you two have lots of catching up to do," Ianto nodded to his captain and lover and then retreated to his office, picking up his book on the way. It was only once he was in the small office that he let the tears fall. The two men he left alone looked after him for a few moments before the Doctor pulled Jack into one of the fiercest hug either of them had ever felt.

"I have missed you so much Jack, even when Rose was still with me. Now she's gone I-I can't be alone any more," the Doctor said quietly, pressing his face in to Jack's strong shoulder.

"Then stay here with us, you could help us," Jack suggested eagerly.

"Stay? Jack I've never stayed in one place in all my long life, I don't know if I can stay still," the Doctor said sadly.

"Just for a little while then, I've got questions Doc that need answers, the important ones being how am I alive once more and why can't I die?" Jacks voice was loud but not angry. The Doctor seemed to freeze in place, staring at Jack.

"You can't die?" he asked at last.

"No, it seems not. When you meet her ask Gwen, she saw me shot in the head. Yet I'm still here," Jack said sadly, "I hoped you'd have the answers." The Doctor sighed and looked down.

"There's one plausible possibility as an answer to both of your questions," he said slowly. "Rose." Jack frowned and tilted his head to one side, reminding the Doctor for one quick moment of Jamie, the Empty Child from 1941.

"Rose?" Jack asked confused.

"To save me she looked into the heart of the TARDIS."

"That sounds bad. Isn't that what turned the Mayor of Cardiff into an egg?" Jack asked, his head tilting the other way as the Doctor nodded.

"She was possessed for lack of a better word by the TARDIS, glowing and everything. She turned the Daleks to dust with a flick of her hand and she said something about bringing life," the Doctor said quietly, "She was amazing but it was killing her so I took it from her into me and technically it killed me. That's when I became this form. I think it might have been you she talked about when she spoke of bringing life." Jack blinked a couple of times and then looked away from the Doctor at the wall.

"Rose," was all breathed with a small smile. "Did you think I was dead?"

"Yes and I'd love to know how you got here Jack, back in time and everything," the Doctor said with a small laugh. Jack didn't answer his question, rather posing some more of his own.

"So how did you know I wasn't? Dead I mean. How did you know I was here?" Jack asked with a confused frown now on his face.

"I decided to pop in to see how Earth was coping after the battle, you're doing quite well. But I tried to land in London. TARDIS wasn't having any of it and landed right on that same spot in Cardiff. She can be quite stubborn can the TARDIS, found that out a few times." The Doctor grinned at Jack and then gently stroked the American's cheek with his finger tips. "But this time I'm glad she did."

"Me too, although I've never experienced a stubborn TARDIS," Jack said with a laugh. "That must be a fun experience."

"Oh definitely, up there with that time I was stuck on a planet falling into a black hall with no idea where the TARDIS was, great day," the doctor said with a small laugh, hands returning to his pockets.

"Shall we go down to the Hub and we can catch up and talk. Oh and I'll introduce you to the team," Jack suggested, reaching over the desk to push the button. The door which had closed automatically after him opened slowly. The Doctor nodded and followed Jack, the door clanging shut behind them. It was only then, when they were both gone that Ianto emerged from the office, his eyes and cheeks red from his tears. Jack's Doctor had returned, there was no place for Ianto now.

A/N There we go, what do you think? Good or bad?