"Why would you want something like that?" Akaito stared, mouth agape at Kaito as if he were an alien, clearly distraught. The bluenette in question looked like he was regretting even bringing the topic up, fidgeting with the end of his scarf and breaking eye contact with his lover.

"I don't know," Kaito tried to avoid explaining his thoughts fully, now that the initial reaction was so bad. "I guess... it's just... something I've been thinking about for a while now. If it makes you uncomfortable then-"

"It does," Akaito cut in, frowning, growing more upset and not understanding where this was coming from. "I love you. I would never want to do something like that to hurt you. Don't you understand how important you are to me?"

"It's not like that!" Kaito glanced up, distressed. He wasn't communicating himself clearly enough, and Akaito wasn't understanding. "I don't want it like that, where I'm being hurt. It's /because/ I trust you. I guess... sometimes, I just... feel really insecure. The idea of you... of you wanting me so much that you won't stop loving me, even if I don't tell you you can... even if I tell you to stop... for you to take the control, and force me to rely on you... To not... let me do anything else. That I don't have to be afraid you will stop wanting me, even if I scream for you to stop... I don't know. It's a bad idea. You don't like it, either. I'm sorry for bringing it up."

Akaito smeared his face with his long, red-tipped fingers as if he could massage the stress away and gain some comprehension. Kaito was essentially asking him to rape him. He didn't understand it at all. Wasn't his normal love enough? Didn't Kaito feel how much he cared for and cherished the sweet, beautiful bluenette? Was there something wrong with his boyfriend, that Kaito would ask for that kind of thing? The silence grew and Kaito lowered his head slowly again, as if being defeated.

"Listen. Forget it, it was just a thought. Let's just enjoy our vacation together, okay, Akai?" Raising his head with a small, trepid smile, but masked unhappiness in his clear blue eyes, Kaito offered up the weak hope of resolving the unintended conflict. "How about we try the beach? The water looked like it'd be beautiful, and we have the whole place to ourselves. We can play as much as we want and not disturb anyone."

Akaito peeked through his fingers dubiously but tried to shake off the unpleasant feelings and stress the conversation had produced. Kaito had said to forget it. And it was true- the waves had looked awesome on the way in. Maybe the solution was to just put this whole unpleasant mess behind them. Maybe he didn't need to worry about this, and Kaito's request was just some passing, crazy statement. A niggling anxiety that had raised its head in the back of the redhead's heart was forcefully attempted to be ignored as Akaito slowly nodded and lowered his hand.

"...Yeah. Maybe we can have ice cream tonight... after we check it out?" Hoping to distract his lover further from the argument, Akaito's face grew a tiny but genuine smile of its own as the beloved bluenette's eyes widened and grew more of an honest sparkle to them. Kaito flashed his straight, white teeth in a happier proximity of a grin at the promise of his favourite treat. Nodding quickly in an adorable manner that made Akaito crack a real smile of his own, Kaito held out his hand to reach for his lover's and tugged him towards the doorway, leaving their vacation bedroom behind.

"Wait, wait!" Akaito said in surprise and laughed a little, "We still need our swimsuits!"

"What swimsuits?" Kaito grinned the naughtiest smile Akaito had ever seen and winked shamelessly, tossing one end of his scarf over his shoulder as if to express the response with just a little bit of added flair.

The redhead laughed and lengthened his stride to catch up as the bluenette continued to pull him along.