What are the chances of finding 'it'?
No, I shouldn't say it like that because it feels wrong, it sounds wrong. Because to wish or to search for "it", means you're obsessed with an idea and nothing more. Just an ideal and nothing more.
Since long time ago, two questions have been dancing on my mind.
Do you decide to have a relationship because you love someone?
Or do you decide to love someone because you have a relationship?
In almost every love story, there is always something that stands out, 'The idea of falling in love'. Should it be more accurate to call it, 'the dream of falling in love'? The character that wants to find their happy ending, almost always associating it with the idea of romance.
Love.
Yes, I call it the idea of love because it is described that way, you could say they are in love with the idea of 'love'. Now, I'm not looking down on the idea itself, but the drive that's behind it.
Because if someone is in love with the idea of 'love', no matter how hard you want to deny it. There will always be an inside voice that tells you something is wrong. As small as it can be, you'll start to imagine them thinking 'whoever is fine as long it makes me feel love' or maybe 'love begins after getting to know each other better'.
How people can shut down those thoughts I'll never know. For me, it seems like they are more interested in the idea of 'love' than the person itself.
But of course who doesn't want to connect? To find the person you can tell your deepest secrets. Not to reveal your whole self, that's not possible, not with humans at least, we need that little privacy we have in our minds after all.
And if by such idea, some people are able to get it, then it's definitely not something wrong. Yet, I don't want to love the idea of 'love'. I want to connect, in reality not dreams, not ideals either. I want to choose.
Yes choose, as egoist as it sounds. I want to say I want this person because they are like no one else. The one I've been searching for, the one I managed to find and the one that managed to find me in all the billions of humans existing in this world.
And because I want to choose, my answer will always be:
To be in a relationship because I found the one I love, the one I choose and chose me.
Phantom notes:
Hi there! (ﾉ◕ヮ◕)ﾉ*:･ﾟ✧
This is an Eliumi Playwright x Violinist AU.
It should be obvious who is who but yeah… Umi is the playwright ´ ▽ ` )ﾉ
Thanks for reading.
Special thanks to my Beta Reader : Raine1o1. For giving me tips and revising the intro.
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