Title: The Pain Of Not Being Human
Rating: T
Summary: Sho's left and come back…what is going to happen now? Seeing as everyone is gone...and left them two alone.
Notes: Just a brainfart that I needed to get down. I shall carry on the other story asap

The Pain of not Being Human

Once again his eyelids drooped shut. This time it wasn't the case of no sleep; it wasn't sleep exhaustion wanting to drag him into the deep black abyss, which was labeled sleep. It was a different exhaustion, exhaustion only he had. He hoped it was only him. If there were more living things that felt this way he wouldn't be able to handle it. Blood. He hadn't drunk in so long. Like a man starved of water. Like a baby taken away from food. He needed this substance…to live. This wasn't the life he chose. No. This was given to him. Not what he wanted, he was prepared to die. He was full sure he would die. Then he woke up on a bed in the apartment.

Sho.

That was his name. His best friend had dragged him into the same life. With perfect intentions, or was Kei just selfish? Sho trusted Kei to look after Hana after he died in that run down place. Where he and Son dueled to the death. A vow bonding them to look after each other's family. Although with interference with Kei Son is the only one dead. Well theoretically they are both dead. Only Sho was the living dead.

Sighing Kei leant his forehead on the smooth glass in front of him. He was stood at the window of the Sho's and his apartment. Sho's and his…it could just be called Kei's apartment now due to the fact Hana had moved out and Sho. Well he didn't know where Sho had gone. After the transformation Sho disappeared. Disappeared into the night. Just like a true vampire even though Kei hated to admit it. They were both monsters. This time it was Kei's fault for bringing Sho into his nightmare. Something he swore he would never do. Sho's blood was let's just say like a forbidden fruit, like the apples on the apple tree in the Garden of Eden. Kei couldn't help himself. Seeing Sho on the ground, bleeding to death, struggling to breathe, it was like a dagger through his heart. His best friend was dying thinking he had nothing to live for…and he couldn't help but think it was his fault. He accepted that his actions were probably selfish but he couldn't bear to live on without Sho, his best friend, the child he raised, the child who saved him and gave him a reason to live. Kei looked death straight in the eyes when he was at the suns mercy in the abandoned hospital and this small child saved him. From that point on he didn't want death and promised he would take care of the kid. Now Kei felt horrible on how things had turned out, he went back on his promise of never hurting Sho and now he had lost Sho all together.

"Come on Sho…where are you." Whispered Kei his eyes reflecting the stars that danced outside in the velvet sky. The moon bathing the world in its peaceful glow.

Sighing Kei went and leant against the wall, wrapping his arms around himself, slowly sliding down the wall. Closing his eyes memories flashed through his mind. The first time he met Sho. The countless attacks they did on drug dealers and mafia groups. Fun times with Toshi. Meeting Son and Yi-che. Yi-che's exhibition, the goofing off afterwards, the prison, the tests, the deaths and the pain. Tears merged behind Kei's clenched shut eyelids threatening to fall. No he wouldn't, crying was a weakness. Oh but he hadn't cried in so long, surely it would do him good to let all of his emotions out but he didn't. He just clutched his knees tightly to his chest, cheek on his knee and slowly inhaling and exhaling softly.

Meanwhile outside a figure made his way up to the apartment block for the first time in so many years. Breathing softly Sho made his way up the steps and down the short corridor.

'What's brought me here? I shouldn't be here…no I should. There's no reason not to be. Why am I so scared? It's Kei. Yes it's…kei…' Thought Sho his tall frame stood outside the apartment door. He heard someone leaning against a wall in the apartment., next to the window to be precise. Sitting on the floor and gently breathing.

'Wait if that's Kei…he sounds like he's crying or he wants to cry but wont' These thoughts flooded Sho's mind his eyes wide open. What has gone on while he was away? Why does Kei feel so…sad? So empty. These new vampire senses helped him to indicate what a person was feeling. Gently Sho's fingertips rested on the doorknob, his emotions wrestling with himself one what to do. Surely Kei would have sensed him by now? Although was Kei on his starvation diet again like Sho was and his sense were dulled? There was only one way to find out and Sho still didn't know whether to carry on or run away like a dog with his tail between his legs. Memories invaded his vision…emotions and promises. It was then he made his final decision.

A soft click echoed around the room. The small sound bouncing off the walls. The room was so silent the sound flooded his ears 100 times louder then it normally would. Kei snapped his head up to see who the trespasser was…His eyes met icy blue. He swore his heart stopped.

Authors Note: Heyhey here's a small brainfart I think I may carry on with. No I haven't abandoned my other fic it was just I got inspiration and what better to do then write it down ne? Well please share thoughts and opinions and whether this should turn into a Kei/Sho thing or not? I'm itching to write a lemon teehee xD Well here we go and I hope ya's like.

Ja ne!