Time seemed to pass unattainably slowly, every second on the clock seemed to be hours. Hours, in which she was in pain, I could here the screams from down the corridor. My foot tapped nervously on the linoleum floor. how long would this last? I was powerless just sat here being unable to help her or even be with her. True I had hated my sister this past year, but hearing her screams made me forget about our feud I just wanted to be with her right now.

'Bells calm down everything will be fine,' my father Charlie huffed.

Why now did he decide to be so optimistic about this, he was usually so pessimistic about life. Until that stupid back stabbing dog turned up and got my sister pregnant.

'It's been hours though, she shouldn't have even risked this stupid pregnancy.'

'Bella, get over it really. You need to understand that your sister is growing up and getting along with her life. You need to do the same and get over this aversion you have to Jacob. You used to be really good friends.'

We used to be more than good friends, I used to like Jacob more than a friend.

The screams stopped and they were replaced by the crying of a baby. Well at least there's no howling, I had convinced myself these last nine months that it was going come out all furry and dog shaped.

'CHARLIE, BELLA IT'S A GIRL,' Jacob shouted from the ended of the corridor.

'Congratulations son,' Charlie said as Jacob approached us.

'Can you believe it, I'm a dad,' Jacob said pulling me into a hug.

There was a time when I found his hugs comforting and full of warmth. Jacob was always my sun, my home port, but not now. I could never look at Jacob the same way anymore, he would never be my sun again.

'Get your filthy hands of me,' I hissed into Jacob's ear. I did it quietly so that Charlie wouldn't hear he would of course take Jacobs side, he always did. He quickly pulled away and shot me a tentative smile.

'Sorry old habits,' he said remorsefully.

'Can I go see Nessie now?' I asked.

'Sure, Sure do whatever you want. I'm headed to the nursery with Leah.' Jacob said.

Leah who on earth was Leah. Oh the pup of course.

'I would have thought you would have called it lassie or something.'

I wasn't usually so bitchy but Jacob just seemed to bring out the worst in me.

'Charlie why don't you go see how Nessie is getting on, I'm just going to speak with Bella really quickly.' Jacob said. He was good at hiding his anger, but I knew him I knew what to look for. The vain in his temple was throbbing but his body wasn't shaking yet I could push this a little further.

'Yeah sure will do,' Charlie said turning towards Nessie's room, 'Be nice Bells,' he said turning round to give me his best parental glare.

I scowled at his retreating back, why couldn't he take me side for once? Nessie was always the golden child the straight A student managing to juggle a university life and being pregnant all at the same time. Then there was me plain old Bella Swan, nearly good enough for university but not quite. Working in a shop to pass the time.

'Should we go outside?' Jacob asked.

Without waiting for an answer he started to head towards the exit.

'What so you can beat me up without witnesses, we all know what happens when you get angry. Get real mutt.'

'For fucks sake,' Jacob mumbled 'I've been sat in that damn hospital room all night I just want some air so are you coming or not.'

'Fine,' I huffed.

I followed Jacobs retreating form outside of the hospital. I took the opportunity to stare at him, he was looking just as sexy as always, perhaps even more so. Why did the universe seem to hate me, was it so much to ask for Jacob to have grown a beer belly?

Unsurprisingly it was raining as usual. Jacob always used to joke that the reason he ran away to England was that the weather was just the same as it was in La Push back in Washington.

Jacob was pacing up and down in front of me, he had a calculating expression on his face as if he was trying to figure out a difficult maths problem.

'Look…Bella….This isn't working…I mean you can't…awww fuck.'

As much as I was enjoying watching the normally so cock sure Jacob struggle for words I really did want this to be over with so that I could go and see my sister.

'Spit it out Jacob, I didn't come here to see you.'

'Bella you need to get your fucking act together seriously.'

'Excuse me,' I growled.

How dare he. How dare he comment on my behaviour after the shit he has put me through this past year.

'Bella I care about you don't get me wrong I do, but Nessie is my number one priority right now. You're hurting her Bells, I don't know how many times I've held her in my arms at night whilst she cried herself to sleep because you don't give a fuck. Either you want her in your life or you don't but don't keep stringing her along like this because you're going to lose her.'

Jacob's word stung me, I had tried my best. I was being the bigger person here I forgave Nessie when any normal person would have resented her for what she did. She hurt me so bad, but she just couldn't seem to understand. To her I was just the stupid kid who didn't know what she wanted.

'I think its best if you go home Bella.'

'No,' I cried out trying to not let the tears fall. 'You've just told me that I didn't give a fuck, but I'm here aren't I turned up to see your precious Leah being born. At least let my see her, please.'

'She's fine Bella, she was glad you turned up but I. don't. want. You. To. See. her.'

Jacob gave me one last regretful look before walking back into the hospital.

I walked out of the car park my tears mingling with the rain that seemed to be continually poring down on my life at the moment. Why was I the one who always felt alone and isolated from the family I was the fucking victim here. I needed a holiday badly, just a few days where I could forget about them all. A few days where I could drink my own weight in alcohol and not have to worry about Charlie's disapproving looks.

Work today was tedious as usual doing nothing to dispel the misery I felt from my encounter this morning. As I served my last customer of the day I noticed my best friend Angela walking through the door. I met Angela when I was sixteen she was studying the same A levels with me at college. We had got into an argument about the sex appeal of Heathcliff from Wuthering Heights, two years later and we were still arguing about that topic.

'So I hear congrats are in order,' she said annoyingly happy about the whole situation.

'How do you find out?' I huffed.

I certainly hadn't told her and as far as I was aware Angela and Nessie didn't talk that much.

'Silly Bella you are forgetting about the wonders of technology. Your dad put it on Facebook, seriously why on earth did you show him how to use it.'

'I didn't,' I sighed, removing my apron and placing it behind the counter.

'You know if you don't encourage him then he would get bored of it eventually,' I said.

I saw her nodding her head in approval.

'True but since your hardly tell me anything about your life lately it's the only way I can find out what's going on. I mean you're here for me all the time but you never really talk about what's going on in your life. I just want to be here for you'

I hadn't been that bad had I?

'I'm sorry…I just,' my apology fell weak there really was no excuse for my ignoring her.

'Don't worry bitch your just going to make it up to me.'

'What did you have in mind?' I asked as I linked my arms with hers and walked onto the busy high street.

'Well my dear I have just booked you and me a luxury holiday in a five star caravan at the one and only Blackpool.'

'NO WAY,' I screamed.

'Shut up Bella you're getting funny looks.' Angela laughed.

Looking round I did begin to notice the funny stares that my out burst seemed to be attracting.

'Sorry but I was just thinking this morning that we needed a holiday.'

'That we certainly do and you my dear need to get laid.'

'Only if you're offering gorgeous,' I said as I smacked her bum.

'Of course I am, now behave I don't won't to have to fuck you in Carlisle city centre.'

'Ha yeah the good citizens of Carlisle wouldn't be too pleased at that.' I replied.

'You know,' Angela said, 'most people would think we were lesbians.'

'What are you saying that were not,' I said mocking hurt, 'really Angela I thought we had something special.'

'Of course we do Bella, I continually think of you when me and Ben are having hot crazy sex.'

Angela's eyes glazed over as they did every time she thought of her boyfriend of four months Ben.

'Aww you two are so disgustingly cute,' I laughed.

'Thanks Bella, is it weird that I only like saw him this morning and a miss him.'

'Yes Angela,' I said nodding my head, 'yes it is.'

'Sorry he's just so cute and my god Bella his fingers are amazing.'

Eww gross that was seriously too much information for me.

'La la la. La la la. Not listening.' I sang childishly.

'Your just jealous,' she giggled pulling me into the pub.

It was our tradition that every Wednesday after Angela had finished classes and I had finished work that we would grab a meal and then go and watch a film.

'So I was thinking,' Angela said as she finished the last of her meal, 'that we should go the hospital tonight instead of going to see a film.'

I knew there was a reason that me and Angela were friends. I had been debating all day at work on the best way to ask her to come to the hospital. I needed Angela there to act as a buffer between me and Jacob.

'Thanks Angela, I really do love you,' I said seriously.

'Yeah well your getting the bill.'

'Ha why do you think I ordered the cheapest thing on the menu,' I joked.

'And why do you think I ordered the most expensive,' she quipped.

The hospital building loomed over me like and omen. I always seemed to end up walking out of this building in tears, not surprisingly Jacob was always the reason for said tears. Not this time though with Angela next to me I could deal with all of Jacobs fuckery.

'Come on Bella forget about him you're here for Nessie, she needs you right now.'

'I know Nessie right, fuck Jacob.' I said more cheerfully than I felt.

Walking into the hospital room I could see how truly happy Nessie looked. She was sat with little Leah cradled in her arms humming a lullaby.

'Damn sister you make cute babies.' I said.

I was hoping a joke would lighten the mood but the frown I saw on Nessie's face told me that it hadn't worked.

'Hey Angela, thanks for coming.'

Smooth Nessie really, ignoring me.

'She's cute Nessie, congratulations.'

'Thanks Angela, it's really great to get some female company round here Jake and Dad have been getting on my nerves with all the fussing.'

She would have had female company if her obnoxious guard dog hadn't of thrown me out of the hospital this morning.

Angela leant down to whisper something into Nessie's ear which made her scowl in frustration.

'Fine,' she huffed.

'Hello Isabella,' Nessie said looking in my direction to finally acknowledge me.

I don't know what had got her knickers in a twist of all a sudden, I thought we had worked through all of our problems.

'Why didn't you come and see me before, Dad said you went outside with Jake and never come back.'

I walked towards Nessie's bed and give my sister a hug being careful to avoid the little baby in her arms.

'Me and you were cool right, I know that what happened wasn't your fault you didn't know how much…how much.'

We were interrupted by the very person I was trying to talk about. Jake was leaning against the door smiling proudly at the sight of his little girl.

'Hey baby,' Jacob said looking towards Nessie.

In a few short steps his abnormally long legs had took him to the bed. He sat in the spot next to Nessie pushing in between us, almost knocking me off the bed.

'Do you mind I was trying to talk to my sister,' I hissed venomously.

'Bella just leave you had your chance to see me this morning and you didn't take it. I'm tired now, we'll talk when I get home,' Nessie hissed at me with just as much venom in her voice.

Angela smiled at me sadly whilst she led me out of the room.

'So I…'

'Really Angela it's fine, I've come to expect it now.'

'Even so it's not right for them to talk to you like that, they should be begging for your forgiveness.'

This is also what I had thought. Any normal person would have said fuck them and get on with her life. Nope not me I was a sucker for punishment. It would hurt Charlie to see me a Nessie not talking and I just couldn't do that to him. I would have to endure Jake living in the house until they could afford to move out.

'You going to be alright,' Angela said as we reached the bus stop.

'No Angela there's going to be an axe murder on the bus waiting to kill me in the whole ten steps it takes to get from the bus stop to my house,' I said sarcastically.

'Whatever bitch see you tomorrow.'

Angela gave me a quick hug before getting on the bus that would take her in the opposite direction to me.

The bus was crowed. It was full of cheering football fans returning from the recent Carlisle match in town. Now that I was alone and away from Angela's gaze I could allow the tears to fall freely. No matter how many times Jacobs cool rejections had hurt me they always seemed to surprise me and the pain never got duller with time. A soft velvet voice brought me out of depressing musings.

'Do you mind if I sit here?' he asked

'Go ahead,' I sighed not bothering to look up.

I warm honey suckle scent washed over me as he sat down, he angled his body so that he wasn't touching me but I could still feel his presence next to me. The hairs on the back of my neck were standing up warning me of some danger.

'Are you ok?' he asked.

'Huh…?' I replied.

'Your erm… your.'

'Oh right,' I said realising that he had noticed my tears.

I thought I had done a sufficient job of hiding my tears behind my curtain of hair, obviously not.

'Yeah I was listening to James Blunt,' I said not entirely lying. I had indeed been listening to James Blunt it just wasn't the reason I was upset.

'Ahh,' he chuckled, 'Listening to James Blunt would also make me upset he is incredibly awful.'

'Hey…' I said lifting my head up intending to defend my choice in music.

What I saw as I looked at his face stopped me in my tracks though. He was lanky but still had defined muscles, there was a crop of untamed bronze coloured hair on his head. His jaw was perfectly formed and his features flawless but of course they were all like that, to draw in their prey. Jacob's words floated into my head it had seemed a life time ago now since he had told me about the cold ones, the natural enemies to the wolf.

It had never seemed real to me that they existed I had never had reason to think about them before. Now though right here in front of me was tangible proof that they did exist that the vampires lived in this world along with the werewolves and god knows what else. His eyes were a different colour they were a beautiful deep gold instead of the blood red Jacob had described to me. I noticed that he was staring at me now, his gaze penetrating deep into me as if he was trying to reach into my soul. He was a vampire a lethal predator and here I was sat making small talk, I needed to get out of here now.

'I erm…' think Bella your continuing existence depends on the next sentence to come out of your mouth. You can't let him know you're onto him.

'You're GINGER,' I exclaimed quickly brushing past him to get of the bus at it waited at the stop.

Now that I was safe I allowed myself to laugh at the perplexed expression I saw on his face through the bus window as it sped down the street. The hilarity of the whole situation seemed to get to me in that moment I had just called a viscous vampire ginger and escaped with my life.

A.N So what do you think is it any good.

Just a few points

My story is set in England so even though Bella is eighteen she has left school and is allowed to drink. Good times :)

Also Edward was turned at ninteen in this story instead of at seventeen.