Yes I know completely suckish and short, just had an urge. Funny thing is I'm not a huge Creva fan! Enjoy x
It's not like I was jealous or anything. I was sat in the helicopter, returning to the nightmare I had just encountered. Three people were be for me, Josh, he took me on and made me what I am today, he's like a brother to me. Chris Redfield, I cannot seem to sum up my feelings for him at the minute. And Jill Valentine, his maybe more than (old) partner.
First met him only three days ago, yet being in close proximity can change your feelings. If he wasn't there I would have been dead by now, by the first encounter. Without Chris I wouldn't know what to do, and most likely I would have been one of the infected, what a waste of my life that would have been, not that most of it wasn't a waste anyway.
Chris, Chris, Chris, where do I start? It was that first night, that's what it was. After fighting what we so learnt to be a Ndesu , when Chris shouted at me. I wasn't right to say I was going to leave. Was it when he said about Jill in the data file which alarmed me? Me being jealous? I think it was then I realized I didn't have a chance with Chris Redfield. He seemed very protective and loyal towards her. Sure in the end I decided to go with him, I'm glad I did, otherwise he would be dead and I would be living with the guilt of leaving him to his death. Yeah it would have been selfish of me to leave him, he was unfamiliar with the area and…. Who am I kidding. I didn't leave; because I was afraid I'd never see him again, for better or worse. No, fate is fate and I stayed that night, I couldn't 'turn my back and walk away', they were my people, Chris was only half the reason. It can blind people, that's why I never showed any emotion I know all the stories, when love can easily blind.
When Chris eventually found a brainwashed Jill and his mortal enemy Wesker, Chris was mortified that Jill was actually alive, but taken over by Wesker. He forever kept screaming at me not to shoot her by accident, the way he said it he was mistaken by a man who was most likely in love. I didn't want to believe it but although when we resurrected Jill to her normal stage; even seeing Chris cradle her in his arms, nor one said that they love one another. It still ripped my heart out seeing these two. The final glance between him and Jill, you could see Chris loved her. I don't even see why he didn't confess, there was every possibility that he could die, but I do think love was one of the last things on his mind when he turned his back, then, we needed to stop Wesker.
Wesker. That name will be in my head for eternity. Everything he had done, all the lives he had cost, Including nearly my own, when I was hanging on to that pillar on the plane, I looked a Chris knowing full well the time had come for me. I looked at him while I let go. The last thing I looked at had to be good. But the all of a sudden Chris came to my rescue.
I came back to myself after another series of flashbacks. I looked at Chris, he was asleep with his head on top of Jill's, who was resting on Chris shoulder. Chris then took a deep breath and opened his eyes slightly. I met his eyes with mine as I brought my face up. He winked then went back to sleeping.
It no longer bothers me. Yes, I think I am in love with Chris Redfield, but seeing him happy makes me happy. His heart has already paired up, mine will be out there somewhere waiting for me. I can want but never get but I can safely say, I'm in love with Chris, for how long I do not know.