Disclaimer: I don't own TTIHAY or its characters; this is fiction from MY own mind….

This isn't anything like the movies

He isn't looking up at me, gleaming with pride, and that nod of recognition never came.

I looked at him, he didn't see me, I didn't get to smile at him and mouth an inside joke

He just left the arena with his other alpha's.

What I'm talking about is my brother's entry into VMI. Where they join their groups and walk off, and in any great movie there would be many things going on, but none of them happened here. My brother, Patrick Verona, has just signed a book that says something important, but apparently it's a big deal, so we're here.

Since my life has never been like the movies, and never will be, we take a four hour ride home, to Maryland, which becomes longer and longer because of traffic, and "potty breaks".

As soon as I get home I call Kat, she didn't get to come down with us because, go figure, her dad wouldn't let her. I tell her how awesome it was and that ill send her a video of it as soon as possible, then I get the question I thought wouldn't be asked. EVER.

"Lorelei, Did you cry?"

"Oh. Well. I don't know…"

"You don't know? Aren't you gunna miss him, aren't you afraid for him?"

" Afraid? What for? And miss him, maybe, but I don't know, maybe I did cry, but I honestly can't remember."

"Oh.. Well on that note I have to go, Bianca needs a ride to Cameron's place, I'll talk to you later." I could hear the sadness in her voice, as if she had just stopped crying and was about to start again. I could imagine her pale white face turning red, and the tough, introverted girl that I knew, turned into a blubbering mess.

"Yeah, later." I said, and for the rest of the day I was dazed and confused, thinking about if I did cry, if I should have, and watching the tape to listen for sobs, but nothing.

I'm baffled by all this and stay in my room for the next two days, rethinking my whole life. Like I said, my life isn't a movie, but I hope soon it will become one, only because in movies everything turns out okay, but in my life everything becomes corrupted.