This was a conundrum, one where a caveat would have been nice in advance. It was such a shame that none had came to Killua's aid. His family still had yet to make an effort to even care about him, (He was starting to believe they were in the mindset of: "Fuck him! He's 16 years old he can care for himself.") When in reality Killua felt like he was losing control, like his life had completely hit rock bottom.
Like if rock bottom wasn't actually him gearing up to slam a homophobic asshole in the face, then he didn't know what was. Because currently Killua was about to do just that. He was gonna kill a homophobic mother fucker—then he was going to successfully finish off his date with Gon and confess his love to him.
Yeah, Killua was totally about to do just that. He was going to knock some sense into the man his pale fingers clinged around stretching the man's shirt. The crazy man steadily instigating even with Killua ready to break him.
The man chanted out, "Bet you won't hit me!" "BET YOU WONT HIT ME! BET YOU WONT HIT ME!" He was screaming really loudly forcing heads to turn and look at them unable to pull away.
"Why you... I'll kill you. Worst than a damn hit." Killua grit his teeth together. No longer was he willing to give this man a second shot. He was Killua fucking Zoldyck. The best assassin the world has ever seen and he could not let a transgression like this slide on his time.
"Somebody hit someone!" A random voice in the crowd called as they started to circle around them.
"Come on the worst type of fight is when people instigate and don't fight! So come on! I wanna see some blood!" Another called out only to throw in, "But 10 bucks on the gay one!"
Killua's mouth curled up into a crooked pissed off smirk, "Oh so… I'm just the gay one? Do any of you imbalanced uncultured foolish swines actually know who I am?"
"Mmm..." A smaller boy pushed through the crowd, he was strong enough to shove a few people out the way. As his spiky black hair and cute voice set him apart from the rest of them rowdy out of control crowd of hypocrites. Gon yelled out, "Killua! Don't! They'll kick us out of the juice bar."
A pissed off woman who looked like she ran the joint rolled her eyes. She quipped, "I'm putting you both out anyway. REGARDLESS.. In fact, I'm putting everyone around this fight out! Gay, straight, man, woman, genderfluid nonbinary, I don't give a fuck! You're all getting the hell out of here. This is an openly accepting place for everyone who wants to have a good time. Not make a mess."
Angrily Killua easily punched the living shit out of the man. He cursed, "Fuck you. FUCK YOU!" He gave a few more punches to the man's face watching the blood fly all out of his nose, "Fuck you very very much. You look like you sold all your everything just to attend Trump's inauguration. And we don't even live in America. But you were just that much of a fucking asshole to your wife and kids.."
"Oooo! Roast his ass!" The crowd erupted enjoying and clapping as if witnessing a blow out fight was the highlight of all their days on earth.
Gon grit his teeth. He looked down at his hands and wet stained clothes still moist from just minutes earlier. "Damn it." He murmured, "Aren't I supposed to be the one with the attitude?"
The owner clapped her hands together attempting to get everyone to settle down as she started barking at them, "GET THE HELL OUT! GET THE HELL OUT ALL OF YOU! I'M GONNA CALL THE POPO!"
It was like the magical word was 'Popo' because no one wanted 12 to run up and bust their ass for trying to be a shady sneak disser. Slowly the crowd started to disperse, allowing Gon to slip in and grab his best friend. Surprisingly Killua didn't fight back, the other 16 year old just let out some more curses.
The sour outburst of a fight had killed any romantic tension between them. (If there was ever any in the first place that is.) Disappointingly, Gon had to once more push his way through the boatload of people exiting the juice bar, (most of them probably leaving before the cops came so they wouldn't get busted for not paying child support.) Killua dragged behind him purposely snarling at anyone who looked at him or his blood covered hand strangely.
When a streak of daylight hit Gon's face he felt more relieved than anything as he stood on the sidewalk. He placed his hands on his hips sticking his lips out in a pucker face, "What the hell was that?" He demanded as if he never registered that Killua would ever be bold enough to randomly jump on a person like that.
"The asshole idiotic moron dumped his drink on you!" Killua exclaimed as if his actions were justified. He figured that if he killed the man he'd do the world a favor anyway. Why should homophobes and racist exist just to hate people? Killua figure he should be honored right now. He was ready for the people from the show, 'What would you do?' to bust in with the cameras, all happy congratulating him and clapping. He'd get a standing ovation for being such a good quality person and standing up for the helpless in society.
"You can't go around killing people! Or.. threatening to kill them.." Gon scolded as if such common knowledge should be known by now. "How are you ever going to get your Hunter's license if you keep acting like this Killua?"
Nonchalantly Killua shrugged carelessly, "Maybe I don't need it. Maybe it's just not meant to be." Then he screwed up an eyebrow at Gon telling him, "I mean, I don't mean to brag but I'm pretty chill and good at this assassin trade."
"You joke." Gon's eyes went wide for a second, he blinked blankly his mind unable to come up with a proper response. He shook his head, turning it to avoid looking Killua in them as he focused his sight on the ground. Swallowing numbly he repeated the words this time a bit more softly, "Please, tell me you're joking."
There was no clear response from Killua. The taller male just scooped up his best friend's hand, he squeezed it as he walked down to the street corner. It was almost like the setting sun was omen for things still yet to come with them. Their footsteps were slow and hearts were heavy and the silence was slowly eating away at the both of them. However the results of Killua's blow off mood set Gon on edge even more.
Gon spoke out weakly, "Please, Killua. Please don't tell me that you only asked me out here just to screw with my mind and tell me you don't wanna be…" His voice cracked sadly as he felt his heart throb full of sadness, "A Hunter."
"Listen, Gon. I've thought long and hard about this." Killua murmured his head starting to spin upon hearing Gon get all somber. He hated when his friend got sad and upset, it rattled his soul and made him feel empty and angry too.
"Well you better think AGAIN! YOU BETTER GO BACK TO THE DRAWING BOARD AND THINK LONG AND HARD BECAUSE-! Gon paused his rant, his face flustering red as Killua cupped his face. The taller male pressed Gon's cheeks together endearingly almost teasing him for still having such a baby face. A rare slick smile landed on Killua's face which was mirrored by Gon who found himself smiling confused out of mostly torment of not wanting to feel so discombobulated all of a sudden.
Killua took advantage of this moment, "I thought about us. I thought about us having a future together." His smile spread as he let a spark of blue flare up in his eyes. He invited Gon, "You do want to have a future with me, right?" Shyly Killua tucked his voice down barely above a whisper as his face turned cherry red. "I want one with you, sunshine. I want to be with you all the time."
Gon looked so thrown off by the sudden declaration that his jaw slacked down slightly, "You like me? Like.. like.. LIKE ME? LIKE ME. More than best friends?"
"I've been flirting with you for the past oh.. I don't know. We met at 12 right? So 4 years? I've done it nonstop."
"I… I.. I thought you were just doing that to be modest! Heck, I would have dated you years ago."
"You WOULD HAVE?"
"Yeah! Why didn't you tell me?"
"Well, just being with you… just being by your side has always been enough." Killua confessed tenderly. He licked his lips hungrily as he dropped his hands from Gon's face, allowing them to snake their way around his waist, "But I can't contain my desire for you anymore, baby boy." He whispered lightly in Gon's ear feeling the smaller male squirm in his arms.
"WHOA!" Gon squeaked out loudly. Not like he wasn't enjoying it, just the sudden change of atmosphere between them was driving his mind wild. A part of him felt like Killua was playing him for a sappy sucker. It was too perfect-the moment!
The way Killua's hands rested on Gon's sides, and the soft loving expression that graced over his scarlet red face. Then the gentle breeze that wrapped itself around them making Gon press his body more closer to Killua from warmth due to his warm clothes. Gon snuggled his head in Killua's chest his hands finding their way to running through fluffy white hair. Sounds of their hearts beating so loudly they were sure that each other could hear and feel their nervousness.
"Are you scared?" Killua asked. He delicately traced his fingers up Gon's sides, "I mean, I really wanna take the next step."
"Is this just because you're anxious the police is going to come and lock you up for getting into a juice bar fight and threatening a person?" Gon configured connecting the dots quickly in his mind to why Killua would want to speed along so quickly.
"If by that you mean arrest me on multiple charges of first degree murder and attempted assault, then yes."
"They can probably get you on more things too."
"Look… look.. Baby boy. That doesn't matter. Fuck the police. The police probably killed more people than I ever will. I was doing the right thing..." Killua let out some more curses before catching his breath. A happy expression shining on his face he promoted, "You're all that matters to me right now. I asked you out to tell you about our future together. If you choose to accept it, that is?"
Gon's face melted into pure delight as he ushered out the words, "Yes." Then before Killua could press their lips together. He pulled away slightly explaining, "But we should go and do all this at my house first. Aunt Mito won't be back home till late, so it's empty now."
Killua grinned promoting, "I can never get enough of the way ya think, ya know that?" His lips fell on top of Gon's head.
Such actions made Gon smile more like the sun drop he was. He squeezed Killua's hand relaxingly their finger sending glee through both their bones. Both of them knowing what's coming next, awaiting for them in Gon's bedroom.
"My god, you're so tense," Killua whispered his hands roaming up and down Gon's body. They tucked on his belt loop playfully, "You desperately need to get laid."
"Are you offering?" Gon replied, rolling his hips.
"I'll claiming it." Killua growled almost sexily as he thrust himself onto Gon.
"Mmm…" Gon trembled to his touch barely able to fight back a moan as he could barely complain. "You… you don't even have condoms, Killua." His jaw shook as he confessed his nervousness about the whole thing.
"It'll be okay, baby boy." Killua coached moving his hips to get on time with Gon's squirming. "Whatever sickness or disease either of us have guess we'll die together."
"WHAT? Aahh—!" Gon choked out the rest of his words. Instead he drowned out everything by chanting out, "So.. ssoo good. Feels so good."
"I know." Delicious voltage shot down both their bones as Killua worked his skillful fingers over Gon's shirt. "That's why I have to take you."
The first kiss came like honey, trickling warm through Gon's bones until he melted on the bed in hazy bliss. He at first didn't even process the motion, since they came sporadically. Killua gently mashing his lips on top of Gon's as if he'd been storing up that kiss especially for him. It was met by wet cracked lips who didn't know how to react accept kiss back because after this,
All remaining feelings of friendship were put the window and replaced with something much more.
"Look at me," Gon breathed out soon as their lips pulled apart. He laced his fingers up to comb through Killua's hair pulling him on top of his smaller body more. "Like I'm your future husband, Killua." He smiled a bit as he saw a flash of greed appear in those lovely ocean blue eyes.
Killua licked his lips, "I already have been for the past years." He moved his hands up and down Gon's shirt enjoying all his fluffy fired up reactions. How the smaller male bumped around and jumped when Killua touched him just right.
"Mmaa—dff.." Gon shifted his body around ready to fall victim to desire he felt hot and stuffy in his clothes. Killua's cold touch couldn't ease the burning feeling in his belly for relief. As his cheeks pink toned to roses, his breathing became more staggered.
The second kiss they shared had been a graceless, eager thing. Full of stifled groans because it seemed impossible that something so simple as lips on lips could feel like this. Only this time Gon shuffled even closer to deepen the kiss. He'd thought a kiss would leave him satisfied, but now he found himself wanting Killua more than ever.
"T-take me." Gon begged. At first his voice cracked slightly deeming his unsure nature a crime. His black hair ruffled cupping his peach face giving the illusion of a delicious cupcake if one stared hard enough.
A fresh baked peach cupcake covered in strawberry icing because his face was just that red and his brown eyes now hazy and lustful. For Killua. His wide thighs spread open slightly as he allowed the taller male to slip in between them dantley.
Killua took his time because he wasn't going to do anything Gon didn't want him to. Killua wasn't gonna mess this thing up and push too far. Not after he'd achieved so much. So he moved his finger around for control uttering out, "I want you too. And I'll have you. I promise, I'll indulge in you tonight."
The roar of outside felt suddenly distant, as if the rest of the world could have vanished. All that was left was the sound of breathing, of hearts pounding, of the cold of the fingers that cupped the back of Gon's neck, to contrast warm lips locking.
It was pure blissful sin. Becoming their little secret done in the darkness. Only witnesses to their deed would be themselves and any confession said here would stay in this bedroom forever.
Killua kissed Gon, again, again, again, again, again.
Until the moonlight was pouring in through the windows, where he could drink up the sight of him. Lips juicy, pupils blown, hair rustled up and body so sensitive to everything. Gon lovingly with lips and careful touch gently patting his head. Then Killua kissed Gon again - just because he was beautiful.
"You're everything I couldn't be. Everything I want but cannot have." Killua spoke the words huskily into Gon's ear. Maybe he accidentally nibbled on the tips longing for the taste of sugar and chocolate chip cookies to fill his mouth. The flavor of sweetness dancing on his tongue as it tangled upwards getting caught in licking the inside of Gon's earlobe.
The smaller male flinched slightly it was hard to believe a kiss could kick start so many bottled up emotions. Gon was heavenly overwhelmed. He cooed, "Let me be your world then. Then once you have me you'll have it all." His senses heightened and his heart spilling out love from his head to his toes.
Killua kissed Gon in darkness, where the world pared down to the heat of contact, the slide of his pale hands along Gon's rib cage. It was one LONG slow kiss, their tongues ran over the roofs of their mouths, fingers woven through hair and hearts beating in unison.
The words murmured just between the two of them, "I love you."
Neither of them knows if they really said it or if it was possibly a dream they both had at the same time of those deadly 3 words being spoken between them. All they were aware of was the loss of clothes came next.
Kissing down Gon's chest to his cute little belly button Killua striped Gon bare. In that moment he memorized every inch of him blind. A part of him scared that in the light the force of want and adoration would simply be too strong. In darkness, it would only ever be them and that was more than enough.
When Killua rolled beside Gon, all Gon could think about was how that had actually just happened. Killua had just became Gon's first and for some strange reason Gon had no regrets. Just love for the sexy male resting before him. The rise and fall of Killua's chest and his broken breathing.
The sight of how red Killua's body actually was made Gon let out a slight laugh. It was actually more like a giggle as he pressed a hand on Killua's burning cheeks. "You're really hot like this." He complimented.
"I am?" Killua chuckled. He leaned his lips down to press kisses on Gon's wrist. The kisses were light and airy, "I hope so. I'd hate for this experience to suck for both of us."
"I want to relive this moment forever."
"Nothing is forever. If it last forever it wouldn't be special."
Gon cocked his head. He looked at Killua as a flood of confusion washed over his face,with eyebrows knotting together and his brown eyes shimmering . Those cute pink swollen lips that Killua had been kissing for so long questioned, "Even when it comes to love?" The question rolled out of Gon's mouth so innocently.
"Hmm.." Killua grew silent as if the thought troubled him. So he started to elaborate, "It is sorta like me and when taking the Hunter exam. My dream died out because it wasn't special to me and somethings were more important."
"But.." Gon chewed on his bottom lip. Nervously he rocked his body, "What does that have to do in anyway shape or form with you not wanting to be a Hunter?" He still seemed slightly lost. Charmed, happy and completely on board with the idea, yet lost.
"I refuse to comply to the rules of someone else's game, Gon. I'm done obeying a system, that isn't geared towards peace giving." Killua said abruptly. He shook his head choosing to rebel and make it clear, "This isn't about my parent's wishes. I'm NOT doing this for them. This choice is MINE. I don't wanna be a Hunter. But if I can keep on being an assassin and hunting down and killing those who wronged others, then I….we can change the world."
"Are you… saying the Hunter's association is broken?" Gon snarled out huskily. He yanked himself away from the taller male snapping, "If you imply a single hint of that.. YOU ARE! You don't know what you're talking about." his eyebrows scrunched up as he fired off, "Listen to me, I'm right Killua. I'm always right. All the time."
"No." Killua corrected, "You always make selfless decisions all the time."
"Now you're insulting me?"
"No. no… I am explaining to you."
"Sounds like you're getting fresh!"
"What smart ass thing did I even say?"
"You said that the Hunter's association doesn't work to benefit all people."
Killua closed his eyes and shoved his hands into his pockets. Calmly he muttered, "I can't apologize for saying that. It's true. It's true and you know it, Gon. Plus didn't your so-called-father leave you to be a Hunter anyway? How could you defend so loyally such a facade put up by a place like that?"
Gon felt his head start to spin, pounding as his thought bubbled up with anger. He blinked at Killua staring at him completely awestruck that he had the audacity to go there. Gritting his teeth down he held back a long upset rant as his brown eyes glared at Killua. But he found himself unable to say a single word. He knew if he spoke he would end up damning himself and all of his and Killua's relationship that they had built up so far.
That was okay, because Killua didn't need to get an answer from Gon right now. Currently Killua had what he wanted and if this was going to be their secret relationship between them, it was going to take cooperation. Killua wouldn't ever push Gon for an answer, he couldn't give. So instead Killua backed off humming, as he reached out to tenderly stroke his finger through soft black hair.
"When you're ready, baby boy." Killua spoke out huskily in the frazzled air between them, "You know how to contact me. If you need anything shoot me a text. But I'll tell you, I plan to marry you, then run off with you, if you'll have me. So please, think about it. Think about us."
Thank you so much for reading. Idk, what this is actually. It's like crack, but it has a plot. This is my attempt at satire in all honesty. I know this is more like a prologue. Lol, next will be about a short time skip of a few weeks. Prepare for some more tension and feels. This story is set in HxH cannon verse.
My last story got deleted for too much smut. So look-I kept it clean. Just kissing and a few touches. To stay safe this time, I'm keeping it T for teen. Well it's actually borderline, but ya know, we'll see how it goes. Comments inspire me to write more and follows/favs do me good as well.
Disclaimer: I don't own Hunter x Hunter. if I did Gon and Killua would have gotten married by now. have they done that? Well there is your answer.
Thank you again for reading. Have an awesome day full of Gon's sunshine! :) If anything concerns you or if you want me to write smut for this book and publish an unabridged on ao3 let me know so I can arrange something. My DM is always open. ~Mel