DISCLAIMER: I DO NOT OWN VAMPIRE KNIGHT, OR ITS CHARACTERS.
I love Yuuki. I've always loved Yuuki. Ever since we were kids she has been nothing but kind. When I would hurt myself, she was there fixing me. When I was in pain, she was there to make it all right. Even when I was dropping to level E, she offered me her blood. When I'm with her, I feel whole. I feel as if I can go on.
When I found out she was a pureblood, my heart shattered. I despise purebloods. They're selfish, manipulative, vain, and murderers. But I don't hate Yuuki. I still love her. So, so much. Every time I look at her, I can feel my heart swell, and start to beat faster. But then I feel pain, as I remember I can't have her.
On the roof, after she saved me during that fight; I willed myself to shoot her. I had made a promise to myself to kill all purebloods. I felt my hate growing inside me, as I looked at her blood red eyes, and long hair. I couldn't do it. I kept seeing her as the little human girl, who always wore a smile for me. I did the only thing I could do; I kissed her. I had never felt so whole before. When our lips connected, we were one; all wounds and aches were healed. Though when the kiss finally ended, the pain was worse than it had been before. I swore the next time I saw her, I would kill her. And she was okay with it.
Even now, as I point the bloody rose at her head, she does not run, or fight. It's the same gun that I gave to her to shoot me with if I ever hurt her. Oh how I want her to fight.
It takes every fiber of my being to cock the gun. When I do, she closes her beautiful eyes, as if telling me it's okay. I feel my lips start to tremble, and it becomes unbearably hard to breath. I almost break down when I see the tear rolling down her face. Tears threaten my eyes; they haven't done so in a long time. All of my memories of her flood into my mind; her laugh, her smile, her encouraging rants, the feel of her skin, and breath like she was actually holding me still.
I put my finger on the trigger, and right as I'm about to pull it she takes in a shaky breath and says,
"I love you Zero, and I'm sorry." My eyes widen and tears finally spill over. All I feel is love and desire. I then realize what's happening.
I can't stop my finger as it finishes the pull on the trigger. When the bullet jams through her head, we both lose our minds.
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Zero watches in horror as Yuuki drops to the ground, her last words laying frozen on her lips. Her limp body hits the ground and blood pools around her, staining her angelic beauty.
He falls to his knees and hunches over her. Zero holds her in his arms, and kisses her lips, hair and neck.
"It's okay Yuuki. It's okay." he mutters into her ear. "You'll be fine. Head master will send you to the infirmary, so you can get better. Then we can go on patrol together. I'll try not to be late. Maybe we can talk about homework, or horses, or kitties." The Kiryu boy lets out a laugh as he talks to her.
Zero continues to talk sweet words to his love. His mind configuring her answers through old memories. He stays out in the woods with the dead girl in his arms for a long time, not caring how much time has passed, if he even knows time is passing. Zero lost all sanity when the bloody rose did what it was made to do, kill a vampire. This vampire just happened to be the only thing keeping him sane and living. So when her brain blew, and her heart stopped; he to lost his mind and his life. For she was his life. All he's doing now is existing.