Is it wrong, I wonder?

For me to feel this way?

Maybe it is. Maybe I'm just an idiot. But...I really don't care anymore.

I hated you at first, you know. You were in my way, and you kept spouting your stupid, naive ideals about helping people- ideals I'd given up on a long time ago- and it made me angry. I wanted to hurt you. I wanted to make you bleed, make you cry, beat you until you gave up those foolish ideals. So I did. I beat you down again and again, but you got back up every time. You never gave up, never lost that look of determination, and that only fueled my anger.

Right. At that time, I wanted to kill you.

Ah...

When did those feelings change, I wonder? When did disdain become sympathy? When did I begin to care?

Maybe it was when I saw your body lying there, lifeless, after your soul gem had been thrown away, your friend crying over you, begging you to wake up.

Or maybe it was when I was able to hear your thoughts personally- your thoughts about your wish, about being a mahou shoujo, about Kyuubei, even about myself...

I called you stupid and told you to stop moping, but I understood, you know. You really loved that guy, didn't you? So you made a wish for him...and yet, he didn't even appreciate it. Yeah, I understand. I understand your feelings very well, at least in that regard. That was why I took you there, to that place that only held painful memories for me, and I told you about my past.

I'd promised myself that I would never do anything for someone else's sake again. You made me break that promise. You made me think that maybe, just this one person...maybe they would be worth it. And so, I offered you my hand. But you didn't take it. You understood, I could see that, yet you rejected me, rejected my ideals- just like I had rejected yours. And then you walked away, without a single glance back. I was really angry then, but...but I actually really like that part of you, you know?

Everything around you was falling apart, collapsing on top of you. You refused to let anyone help you, insisted on holding everything up on your own, but in the end, it was too much for you, and you too collapsed under the weight, crushed and broken.

And though you never realized it, I was watching you the whole time. I could see you breaking. I...I was worried. I really was. That's why I went looking for you that night, and that's why I was so relieved when I found you, even if I didn't show it. Well, that feeling didn't last long, though. You showed me your soul gem, showed me how corrupted it had become, and I was horrified. And then you turned to me, with tears in your eyes and a broken expression, and I wanted to comfort you, to help you in any way I could, but before I could do anything, I was thrown back by the force of your transformation.

You became a witch.

Akemi Homura told me that there was no hope for you, but I didn't believe her. I refused to believe her. I couldn't just give up on you. The old me would've, but you changed me, so I couldn't just abandon you. And so I thought about how to save you.

I thought maybe that friend of yours could get through to you, so I brought her along. But it didn't work. Heh. Of course not. You can't hear me anymore, can you? Even so, I won't give up.

...

Ah, they're gone now.

...

Being alone sucks, doesn't it, Sayaka? But it's alright. You don't need to worry. I'll always be by your side.

I'll put all of my power into this last attack.

A blast powerful enough to destroy us both.

This way, neither of us will ever have to be alone again.