Nick's POV

It's been a year since I last saw the eyes that made me melt and heard the voice that made me fly so pure and so beautiful. It's unbearable to know I'm the reason her eyes don't shine anymore and that her wonderful laughter has faded. I never wanted to make an angel cry and that's what she was and still is to me an angel with broken wings and crushed dreams. She was my world and I let her go because I was too afraid of being in love at such a young age. Finding your soul mate at 13 is unheard of and I couldn't believe that we had beaten the odds. So… I did what any cowardly young boy would do I ran, far away from the world and left her sobbing on her knees. Not a day goes by that I don't regret it. I miss her I miss everything we had but it's too late and I'm entirely to blame. The angel did nothing wrong. The angel… my girl… Miley…was the victim of a seemingly victimless crime one I had so shamefully committed.

Today is December 19th 2008 and still even now the pain and regret I feel remains just as strong. How could I be such a fool and let the best thing that's ever happened to me go? Have you ever made a decision without any thought that altered your life completely in the most horrible way? I have… and nothing hurts more than knowing that I can't turn back time and have a chance to make it right again. The fact of the matter is I can't maybe one day I'll have the courage to tell her how I feel, but even then would she want me? Does she hate me? Will I ever hold her in my arms again and kiss the lips I ache for? These were the questions that haunted me ones I don't have answers for.

My thoughts were interrupted by a pressure on my shoulder that repeatedly occurred breaking me out of my trance. "Nicholas we're here we have to go" I heard my mother whisper trying to grab my attention. It was then I realized that though I was frozen in place wondering and hoping; the world kept on turning without me. People were counting on me and it was my mission now not to let anyone else down. I had already hurt my angel and that was enough to bring me to my knees in tears. I have always been considered the sensitive one but I tried to put on a brave face for my family and all my loving devoted fans. I was living the dream so it seemed but my dreams were so empty without her.

Miley's POV

I glanced at the calendar hanging over my desk. My eyes widened at the sight. It's strange how a number a mere day can send someone into shock and launch them into painful memories. Exactly a year ago today my first and only love walked out of my life.

Flashback

The rain was pouring hard outside. Falling like shattered glass against the window pane.

Miley looked through the transparent shield watching the storm unfold. It was violent and loud.

"Hey Miles" a timid voice pierced the silence. She turned to see her boyfriend of two years standing in the doorway of her dressing room. She smiled sweetly at him and replied. "Hey Nicky what's up?" He greeted her with a warm tight hug which scared her she could sense tension in the air. She slowly backed away from him enough to look at his angelic face. She ran a hand through his messy brown curls. While looking into his eyes she noticed how red they were and slightly puffy as if he'd been crying. "What's wrong baby?" He looked back into her bright blue eyes with hesitation, love, guilt and passion. Miley was terrified she had never seen nick so distraught. Before she could further question the possibilities she felt herself being pulled into an aggressive needy passionate kiss that caused electricity to surge through her entire body. Nick held her close leaving no visible space between them. Miley entangled her fingers into his curly locks scratching his scalp fervently. He felt selfish kissing her but he needed this one last kiss, touch, and embrace. Nick was sure that he had found his missing piece and it frightened him that at the mere age of 15 he was deep in love. He pulled away feeling the guilt consume him. It wasn't fair to lead her on like this. Nick grabbed her hand leading her to the couch and sat down beside her. He was preparing himself for the worst. Meanwhile Miley stared at him in confusion and concern. She had to ask. "Nick your scaring me tell me what's wrong."

"Mi…I-I…"he stuttered barely able to make the words out.

"tell me!"she pressed.

"You know I love you right?" he gripped her hand tighter making his confession.

Her breath became uneven she could feel the tears brimming in her eyes as she faced the inevitable. She nodded knowing what he said is true. Out of habit he reached to wipe a tear falling down her cheek with the pad of his thumb. She flinched at the contact.

"Don-don't you think were too young?"

She stared at him in disbelief. "What- are- you- say-ing?" she managed to choke out.

"I'm saying that- maybe-maybe we should…"

"You're breaking up with me!!!" she yelled rising to her feet, yanking her hand away.

"Miles we're too young to feel this way maybe when we're older and we have time…For-"he tried reasoning with her but there was no logic in his words.

"I can't believe you!" she raised her voice even louder. Nick reached to caress her face he really loved her but he was too scared of such a commitment. She backed away from him sobbing with fury burning behind her hot tears. "What about your promise huh?" she sighed heavily continuing. "What happened to I'll love you forever... I'll always be there for you damn it Nick!!! You're just giving up?!! I thought we were happy… I gave you my heart does that not matter to you?!! Were you lying to me all this time I thought you loved me!!!" Nick reached for her arm tears falling from his eyes. "Of course I love you- how can you think that! I would never lie to you, you mean everything to me….I just need time to think about us to know for sure."

"What's there to think about Nick!!! We love each other I don't care how old we are or if people think we are too naïve to be in love…why do you have to make something so simple so complicated!!!" she asked incredulously, she didn't understand his reasoning she was ticked off now. And suddenly she became the storm violent and loud and never ending tears she was…. Broken….

Narrator's POV

The memories were too much she shook her head trying to free herself from the painful thoughts. She didn't want to remember that horrible night, the night when her world fell apart. She was hurt and confused. To this day she doesn't understand why he left her. They used to be so happy so…madly in love like nothing could get in their way she thought they were invincible. Their love used to be so strong. They had built such a beautiful relationship together and he threw it all away. A part of her hated him for making her feel this way, but more of her heart would always love him. Even if her heart was broken she loved him with all the pieces.

She had to move on she had to be strong and continue living her life. Just then her little sister Noah came running into the bedroom. Miley watched her baby sister climb onto the bed trying to get her attention by shaking her arm violently. She felt numb and the life in her eyes had dwindled out.

"Come on Miley get your lazy butt out of bed" Miley heard the high pitched voice of Noah echoing through her ears. "

"Sorry baby girl I'll be up in a minute ok?" she spoke reassuring herself more than Noah.

"Okay but mommy wants to talk to you" she replied leaping off the mattress obviously in a hurry. Miley nodded in response while wondering at the same time what her mom wanted to speak with her about.

"Oh and she made chocolate chip pancakes this morning ya know… your favorite?"She added before darting out the door.

Her mom must have known what today is, she always tried make even the worst of days a little brighter with some of Miley's favorite comfort food. She didn't feel up to talking about the significance of today. She was hoping that everyone had forgotten even if she knew she never could.

Miley's POV

I pushed myself off my bed and headed down stairs,preparing myself for an interrogation. When I reached the kitchen i was greeted by blank staring faces observing my every motion. i cautiously took strides toward the old oak table. I wondered what they were thinking. there was silence in the room and it was driving me deeper into insanity with each passing second. I could hear the sizzling of bacon cooking on the stove and the clanking of a metal spatula on the surface. I peered around the room watching their movements switching roles. Every insignificant noise grew louder until finally I snapped. "Would someone please say something!"

My mother was the first to speak "sorry sweetheart we just didn't know what you felt up to this morning" she soothed with a southern twang in her voice. She placed the heaping pile of pancakes in the center of the table and sat down beside me. "I'm fine... really" my voice echoed the lie still ringing back to me. My mother poured me a glass of milk and passed the food around. When the plate reached me i shoved it away lightly. Braison looked up at me skeptically and he immediately commented. "What's wrong with you miles you love pancakes?" I replied weakly stating that i wasn't hungry. I felt a void and though what i said was a lie the void i felt could never be filled by anything edible. "You have to eat baby." my mother spoke while touching my shoulder gently. ' I don't feel like it not today." i excused myself from the table and ran out the door. I faintly heard the sound of my family calling out to me. I needed to be alone.

The past couple months I had made progress towards recovery. A broken heart is never easy to heal. Somehow I felt like I owed this to myself and to him. I felt like this day i should surrender to our memories and then tomorrow I would start the process of moving on. My feet hit the pavement at a steady beat. My bare feet were starting to ache. Once I reached a stopping point. I then realized where I was standing. I was facing "our hill" our getaway. It overlooked the city skyline. It was romantic at night with all the twinkling lights but in daylight it lost its sparkle. We would lay in the grass for hours talking, laughing and just holding each other stealing kisses every now and then. The way he used to make me feel was incredible. He always knew how to make me smile when I was at my lowest and I hoped I was that light for him.

After climbing the hill I settled into a sitting position facing the view we used to share. I ran my hands through the blades of grass each one bringing back a memory. This was the place where he first confessed his love for me. This is the very hill where I ran to find him after our first fight. This ground had soaked up many tears. I missed him so much. We hadn't spoken since that ill fated night, even though we had seen eachother at organized events. I leaned back onto the grass breathing in the scent of the fresh dew. I rolled on my side, my head being filled with memories by the reminder of my movement.

Flashback

"Miles slow down" he called after me. I had taken off down the street embracing the feel of the rain on my skin. i took a deep breath spinning around."I feel so free!"

I exclaimed throwing my arms in the air. He grabbed my arms bringing them down around his waist. I stared into his deep brown eyes completely losing myself in their intensity.

" You look so beautiful." he confessed moving a wet piece of hair that was clinging to my face. My cheeks burned a deep shade of red. The warmth being contradicted by the ice cold droplets falling from the sky. He edged closer to me bringing his soft lips toward my own. I felt my eyes involuntarily flutter closed. I could feel his sweet breath panting on my trembling lips. Our lips were touching for a second and i felt him smile. my eyes opened to see an amused nick staring back at me.

"that's not funny!" i spoke aggressively while playfully hitting his stomach. He laughed for a moment and before i knew it he was darting down the street up and over a hill. I stood there frozen in place giggling at his playful behavior. I raced to where i last saw him standing. I looked around surveying the area. Where did he go? I thought to my self. I suddenly felt two familiar strong arms wrap around my waist lifting me off the ground. I yelped in surprise.

"Put me down Nick! i squealed. He spun me around fast and i became dizzy. He lost his balance and we tumbled to the ground rolling down the slope of the hill. Once we reached the bottom we were laying side by side laughing and clutching our stomachs. Eventually our laughter subsided and i rolled onto my side to face him taking his hand in mine. He pulled me on top of him smiling like an idiot in love. "I love you he breathed onto my lips. I cupped his face in my hand and stared into his eyes speaking with just as much ease. "I love you too." He pressed his lips to mine and gripped my back tighter. i snaked my arms around his neck deepening the kiss. The rain was pouring down over us soaking our clothes, but we didn't care all that mattered to me was nick and I sharing the reverie of a perfect kiss in the rain. I was living every girl's dream. One I never wanted to wake from.

End of Flashback

I felt a tear fall from my eyes knowing that that dream had died. I wiped it off my cheek with the pad of my thumb just like he always did. Every little thing brought back a memory. How was I ever gonna let go if I could never ever forget?...