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Title-???

Characters-Remus, (mention of Sirius, James, Lily and possibly Harry)

Setting-Sirius' grave

(Remus does not know that Peter betrayed Lily and James)

SLASH

Thoughts

~Song lyrics~

Sirius, how could you do this? How could you betray James and Lily, kill little Peter and then just leave me here? Did you ever think of someone other than yourself? Why couldn't you have just killed me before you took your own life? Rather then leaving me here all by myself.

~What ravages of spirit conjured this temptuous rage created you a monster broken by the rule of love

and fate has lead you through it you do what you have to do, and fate has led you through it you do what you have to do...and I have the sense to recognize that I don't know how to let you go~

Sirius I miss you so much. Can't you come back and take my soul with you?

Remus picked opened up the bag he brought with him. He looked inside and pulled out a gun.

~every moment marked with apparitions of your soul I'm ever swiftly moving trying to escape this desire the yearning to be near you I do what I have to do the yearning to be near you~

Sirius I miss you so much, why did you lead me on? Why did you have to break my heart like that?

~I do what I have to do but I have the sense to recognize that I don't know how to let you go I don't know how to let you go ~

I don't know how to let you go Sirius. I don't know how.

Remus raised the gun he pulled out of the bag.

~A glowing ember burning hot burning slow deep within I'm shaken by the violence of existing for only you I know I can't be with you~ I do what I have to do I know I can't be with you I do what I have to do and I have sense to recognize but I don't know how to let you go I don't know how to let you go I don't know how to let you go~

Remus put the gun to side of his head.

I don't know how to let you go, but I'll soon join you.

~I do what I have to do I know I can't be with you I do what I have to do and I have sense to recognize but I don't know how to let you go I don't know how to let you go I don't know how to let you go~