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Leah POV;

I hated being the girl wolf. The odd one out. The freak among freaks. Sometimes I just wanted to run away. I would if I could, but I couldn't. I couldn't, because my mother and brother, Seth, depended on me, considering the recent death of our father—and husband.

Well, not exactly recent, more like a few months ago. His abrupt departure left my family devastated. Of course I was devastated too, I just did a better job hiding it.

Lately, I had become a pro at hiding my feelings. Sometimes the self loathing just proved to be too much, so I had to lift some of the burden off myself and shove it onto someone else. That was why I lashed out all the time, why I was always angry and cruel. I knew everyone thought I was a huge bitch, but I truly didn't care.

Nobody would ever really understand me, I knew that. Ever since Sam left me, I felt broken. He literally shattered my heart into a million tiny pieces. I was in so much pain, it was unbearable.

I knew I could never, ever forgive Sam for what he did to me. Or Emily, for that matter. Sam, my once true love, had imprinted on Emily, my cousin. They were meant for each other. They had an unbreakable bond between them.

But that didn't change the way I felt about it. Emily and Sam both had tried to talk to me about the situation, but I hadn't complied. I just walked away whenever they came near me. To be completely honest, it made my chest hurt just being near them.

It felt like i was drowning whenever I was close to them. Like I was drowning in my one way love, love that Sam didn't return anymore. He only loved Emily now.

I wished I could just act normal, and keep my pain inside me, in my thoughts. I could just lay down at night, and cry myself to sleep. That actually sounded kind of nice, when I cried I could just let it all out.

But keeping your thoughts to yourself proved mostly impossible when you are in a pack of werewolves, like I was. The technical term for what we are is shape shifters. When we are in wolf form, we can hear each others thoughts—kind of like group thinking. We can only hear each other when in wolf form, though. Thank God.

I wouldn't know what to do if my pack—my brothers—could hear my thoughts 24/7. I wouldn't know what to do if Sam could hear my thoughts all the time. I would be so upset. It already happened in wolf form, everyone being able to hear your thoughts, see your mind. Everything you are ashamed of laid out for everyone to see. You just couldn't lie to your pack brothers, they knew everything.

"Leah," Seth said, nudging me, "Wake up, you fell asleep."

"What? Oh..." I said, looking around drowsily, rubbing sleep out of my eyes, wondering where I was. Then I remembered. I was at First Beach, the beach at La Push near my home on the reservation. We were sitting on driftwood benches with a driftwood fire burning in the middle. So I had been dreaming the whole time.

"So, Leah, we were thinking of catching a movie in Port Angeles. You game?" Embry asked me.

There were ten of us wolves—Sam included. The only ones here were Embry, Seth, Brady, Collin, and I. The rest were with their imprintees. It made me want to puke, but I couldn't help but be jealous.

"Nah, I think I'll just head home, I'm pretty tired. You guys go ahead."

"Tired?" Seth exclaimed, "You slept for like half an hour!"

"That long?" I asked incredulously.

They all just nodded.

"Aw, come on, Leah," Seth begged, "Come with us, it wont be the same without you."

"Yeah," Collin muttered, "There wont be anyone there muttering about how lame it is."

I knew he was just joking, but his comment still bothered me. Was I really that bad? I elbowed him in the ribs.

"Nah. I really am kinda tired, little brother. I'm just gonna go home."

"Your loss, we were gonna go see Face Punch." Brady grinned.

"See ya later, guys." I smiled back.

"See ya." They all said.

I turned around and started walking toward my house, my flip-flops slapping against my heels. I pulled the hood of my hoodie over my head—the winds were starting to get chilly—when a new direction of thought came to me.

I spun around, jogging to catch up to them, as they had gotten pretty far away.

"Hey guys, wait up!" I called. I knew that they would hear.

They all turned, grinning.

"Knew you'd change your mind, Lee." Embry said.

"Yeah, well. How could I ever pass up that much fun?" I joked. He rolled his eyes.

But I really did mean it. I deserved to have a little fun, didn't I? I wanted to live a little. I was probably just going to cry myself to sleep tonight anyway.

"Hey guys, if you don't mind my asking, how exactly were you planning to get there?" I asked.

"Well, we were gonna borrow Jake's rabbit," Embry grinned, "I'm sure he wouldn't mind."

I grinned back. This was sure going to be a crazy night. I could feel it.

A/N;

*So, what did you guys think? You might have noticed Leah is a little nicer, & people like her a little more. This is technically my first story so please Read & Review! Thanks guys. (: