Hi everyone! So this is a short Loveless fic that I decided to write quickly. I'm trying hard to improve my writing and I don't know if I will continue with my other Loveless fic "1 + 1 =2" it's been months since I updated that and I'm not really happy with the way that I wrote it… only time will tell if I finish it or not.
Anyway, this "story" is more like a poem. There are several ways that I incorporated the number 15 into the fic. Try to guess all of them and I'll give you a cookie! :D
I chose 15 because… well, I'm 15! XD
So I hope you enjoy this strange little vignette. Please review, favorite, etc!
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I sat still
Clenching my fists
Gritting my teeth
Creasing my forehead
Glaring at him
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Marveling
Staring
Wanting
Despising
Needing…
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Why; how did it happen; what is this?
He's beautiful
He's painful
Off limits
Untouchable
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Ritsuka was fifteen now. Old enough to really perceive; old enough to decide…
He watched at a safe distance, not wanting to be seen. He was a predator stalking his prey. No, more like a parasite; small and unsuspecting, yet lethal. Amethyst eyes took in every detail of the precious quarry:
The man's hair gleamed gold in the sunlight, and stirred slightly in the small breeze. His thin lips parted and allowed a cloud of wispy smoke to escape. His loose, emerald sweater hung gracefully from his frame. He was searching. What a stupid, beautiful butterfly.
Ritsuka longed to gaze into those azure eyes, but they were concealed by the glint of daylight on Soubi's glasses.
Go Soubi… before it's too late!
Before I pin you down. You cannot allow me to hold you back.
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It hurts
More than anything
He won't listen
He's blind
Escape!
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Lingering
Caressing
Whispering
Deceiving
Transforming…
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I can run
Let go
Disappear
But it hurts
More than anything
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Soubi searched in desperation. Why was this happening? How could this be happening? Where had he gone to? Where was his little flower…?
He dropped the remnants of his cigarette onto the ground and suffocated the glowing ember with one foot. His eyes moved quickly; past the other high school students. Searching! His breath picked up. His heartbeat grew erratic.
He choked back the panic. The man reminded himself to breathe. His head was spinning.
It's happening!
Oh god… it's happening again.
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Attraction
These inevitable forces
Swirling around us
Fasten themselves
No escape
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Binding
Connecting
Deepening
Excruciating
Amazing…
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My soul
Screams in agony
Craving
Your touch
Your being
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Ritsuka crouched behind the wall. His muscles screamed at him to move. His eyes wide. His heart wild. His mouth open. He had never experienced happiness like this before. Soubi rushed towards him with a look of extreme relief on his face. The man swept him up into his arms. Their lips met. Ritsuka didn't know what to do. Why did Soubi do this to himself? Why didn't the man leave?
Why don't you save yourself!?!
What reason do you have for staying with me?
"I love you Ritsuka."