Just a short look at Robin's thoughts during the season one finale and afterward. Disclaimer: I do not own Robin Hood. BBC does. (bummer) Anyway, please tell me what you think. I have never tried Robin's POV before. Oh, and there are a few spoilers all the way up until the season two finale.
Robin's Betrayal
Robin sat at the top of the hill and looked down at Locksley. His village. And yet he had given it all up when he defied the Sheriff and became an outlaw. Given up his house, his servants, his people, his comforts. And now it seemed that he was also going to have to give up the woman he loved. Marian. Robin knew that the King was coming to England right this very minute. He knew that Marian was marrying Guy of Gisborne right this very minute. He knew that Much and the rest of his gang were helping the King in Nottingham right this very minute. He knew that the Sheriff probably had some evil plan up his sleeve right this very minute. He knew that this very minute could be the most crucial moment since he had become an outlaw. And yet, at this very minute, Robin didn't really care. Why is it always me who has to fix the problems of England?he thought bitterly. Let someone else work at it for a while. I have done my part. And Robin, rightful Lord of Locksley, veteran of the King's Guard, personal friend of His Majesty King Richard, and savior of England, stood up and turned his back on the village of Locksley. His village. He turned his back on the woman he loved. Marian. And ultimately, he turned his back on the king he had been fighting for all this time. Robin gave up; or gave in to bitterness depending on how you look at it. Either way, Robin Hood as people knew him chose to fail, to let down people who were depending on him.
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Later, after Much had saved both Marian and the king, the gang sat at the camp, laughing and joking about the events of the day. Robin sat, distancing himself from the rest of them so that he could think. He tried to tell himself that he had done the right thing in the end; but he knew, even though no one else did, how close they had come to losing him all together. Even though things had all turned out right in the end (thanks to Much), Robin couldn't just dismiss the decision he had made earlier, when he thought he had lost Marian for good. The decision could not be repealed as easily as that, but things were compounded by the fact that no one knew. Robin decided to ignore 'the elephant in the room' and act as if none of it had ever happened. And so it happened that Robin of Locksley regained the position that no one even knew he had lost. He was again Robin Hood. But forever after, the knowledge that he had almost betrayed his king lurked in the back of his mind, waiting to pounce when he was weak. Much later, it tormented him that he was not that different from Allan, the traitor. It was the reason he banished him so easily. It was like he was banishing the side of himself that would have given up and abandoned the king. And Robin thought he had forgiven himself, dealt with his own treachery. But he didn't realize just how much that long ago betrayal was still affecting him today. And how much it was affecting the gang, albeit indirectly. Robin Hood was deliberately oblivious, not wanting to deal with it and the ramifications. If only he could confess to someone!But there was no one. Or so he thought. And that is how Allan A Dale, the traitor, was sent away with no hope of redemption. And that is how the entire Gang suffered the loss of a member. And that is how the Gang was broken, so broken that Will and Djaq were able to stay in the Holy Land even after the Gang had been repaired. Because of one choice Robin had made, and couldn't forgive himself for. Everything we do is a choice.