She is the eye of the storm
You go through all this crap
All this destruction
And there she is
Open arms, ready to hold you
Tell you everything is going to be alright
and everything was alright
For the most part
Your relationship was perfect
Was
You ruined it all.
You ruined everything.
You have fought with her before, but she still loved you
"You're an idiot"
"I'm insane"
"You're arrogant."
"I'm stupid."
"You're crazy."
"I'm awful."
"But i love you."
"And I love you, too."
She did love you. And she forgave you.
She was only gone for so long.
You weren't even that drunk
The other girl wasn't even that pretty
Not compared to her.
You were aware of the heart break
Of the distaste she would have for you
Yet you did it anyway
Fully aware of the consequences.
She tried to forgive you
But this time she didn't.
You said you love her.
If you really loved her, why did you do it. Why did you ruin everything.
"I loved you."
"I love you."
"If you love me then why did you break my heart? You're an idiot."
"I'm insane."
"You're arrogant."
"I'm stupid."
"You're crazy."
"I'm awful."
"I don't love you anymore."
She never lied. And she never saw you again.
Because
You're an idiot
You're insane
You're arrogant
You're stupid
You're crazy
You're awful
And you deserve everything that came to you
All the stares
All the threat from her friends and family who used to be your friends and family
All the disrespect
The girl you saw at the bar never shared a second glance.
You never got her name
now when someone hears your name
They remember how awful, how disgusting you truly are.
She never needed you.
The relationship was selfish on your part
You needed her
She needed space
And she got space
Because you got too selfish
You went into depression
Your life felt like it was crumbling apart
Because it was
Because
You
Are
A bulldozer
Tearing apart everything and everyone in your path
But no one ever got close enough to you again
You never got married
You never had kids
You never experienced life the way you're supposed to.
Because you are
An idiot
Insane
Arrogant
Stupid
Crazy
Awful
And no one loved you again.
When you died
Everyone forgot you
Because you ruined everything.
You ruined everything.