I started another fanfic but it got messed up and it was stupid and so then I was like, "Ahhhh fuck it." So today I was feeling sad listening to MCR, Panic! At the disco, Ken Ashcorp ect. Anyways I thought since I have nothing better to do with my life. I won't hold you up any longer so yeah. Merp.

Bees.

No one really thinks about them. They're just kind of, there. Ya know? Pollinating flowers and making honey, not ever getting a please or thank you. Scientifically, they shouldn't even be buzzing around like they are. They're to fat and they're wings are too small. But. Hey, they don't give a fuck. That's how I can relate. I'm a mutant of nature, making things happen and never getting an, "Oh thanks!" or "You're the best!" But. Hey, I don't give a fuck.

Not until now.

Chapter 1 you're so sweet, honey.

I sat there in the rain bawling like a five year-old. Her name pulsed through my head.

Aradia.

I walked into-what used to be-our apartment and saw her fucking some guy. Screaming his name and saying 'I love you.' She has never once said that to me. I laughed. I laughed until it hurt. I laughed until the rain stopped and night fell like a blanket over the sky.

I laid down into the grass ruining my blue button down. I wanted to scream. I wanted to curl up into a ball and die, but I didn't. Instead, I stood up picked up my damp backpack and trudged through puddles on the way to my apartment.

I unlocked the door and shuffled into the surrounding darkness of my apartment. When I turned on the lights and threw my backpack on my vintage couch, I found an envelope with my name on it written in cursive. I knew who it was from and I needed to open it for my mental health. I took a deep breath and opened the letter, it said:

Dear Sollux,

I'm sorry. (No, you're not.)

I miss you. (No, you don't)

I moved out earlier today, I was going to say bye but you weren't there so I wrote this instead.

I'm going to be honest this is your fault. Sometimes you just drive me insane. That's why I slept with someone and he wasn't the first. Don't cry, this was going to happen. I knew it the first time I kissed you.

Goodbye Sollux.

By then I was out of the apartment again. All I had was a broken heart and a debit card. I went to some club and got drunk, real bad. I started a fight with some hipster guy. I won. Then, I fucked someone. I say someone because I'm not sure if that person was a boy or a girl. I woke up the next morning to the warm smell of coffee and a cold bed. I sat up and looked around everything was blurry because my glasses were off, but I still knew it wasn't my apartment. I threw on my shirt and pants then walked into the kitchen where someone was preparing eggs.

"Good morning I am Karkat eat your eggs, drink your coffee then get the fuck out of my life."

Charming.

"Nice to meet you I'm Sollux."

"Charmed." He said sarcastically.

"I don't want to be a disappointment but I must leave Karkat, I have a life."

"Fine. More eggs for me."

I walked out of the apartment realization hitting me like someone stabbing me with a fork in my eye.

I slept with a man. Welp, this obviously questions my sexuality. Fuck. Just what I need, another problem in my life of discolored eyes and bipolar disorder. Maybe it isn't surprising I might be bi…

GOD FUCKING DAMMIT.

YES. I got to fit Karkat in. This makes me happy. Okay if I get reviews I will respond to them at the end of my chapters. I will give you some quick info about me: I have a cat (girlie) and a dog (Loki). I do enjoy a good anime. That is all. If you have any suggestions I would be happy to hear them. Adios for know my peeps.