Okay I will get back to my other stories soon but I needed to write this. I was so angry with what they did to Janeway in the books. that I decided to write an answer to so many peoples pain..

Hopefully this helps you all.

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and ENJOY!!

The wind was blowing harder then normal in October, the leaves where starting to change color and fall. The air had a sharp coolness to it at night that warned you that winter was not far off.

"I think it's going to be raining again today. You should see how beautiful the grounds at the academy are, the leaves are so amazing with the different colors and Boothby's fall flowers are as beautiful as sunsets." Chakotay said standing on the hill in the memorial gardens

"Well I did it again I decided to leave Starfleet. I know I shouldn't have I should have stayed and worked through it. I'm not like you I can't stuff my feelings away and hope they never come back. I have to mourn and get angry and mourn some more."

He began to pace in front of the memorial pillar that was to represent a grave. "Damn it! Why the hell did you go onto that damn Borg ship? What the hell where you thinking?" Chakotay slapped the pillar with his hand, as tears pour down his face.

"I can't do this without you. I need your company, your stubborn attitude and your smile." Chakotay had turn and leaned his back against the pillar and started too slid to the ground still crying.

Tom had been walking past when he heard yelling from the memorial gardens so he walk to the entrance and saw Chakotay sitting on the ground leaning against the pillar crying and yelling up at the sky. He made his way up the hill and was kneeling in front of Chakotay.

"Chakotay come on let get you up off the cold ground, Admiral Janeway wouldn't want to see you get a cold."

"Go away Tom"

"I can't do that. You come here every day, you curse and yell, cry and talk to her but does she ever reply? No, you have to move on. We all have to move on. Hell I miss her too; she was the only person who was willing to give me a second chance. I would do and give up anything to have her back. It just won't happen." Tom pulled Chakotay up and walked with him down the hill and out of the memorial gardens.

"To you know you really are a pain in the ass." Chakotay said slapping Tom on the shoulder

"I know"

They walked to the night owl to get a cup of coffee and a cup of tea.

Harry was sitting on a bar stool at the real Sandrine's with Tom having a few beers. And looking miserable.

"It's not right" Harry said into his fourth beer

"What's not right?"

"Admiral Janeway being killed"

Tom sipped his beer and tried not to comment.

"Come on Tom it most be bugging you too"

"Harry look, I admit your right it isn't right but it's done, there is nothing we can do about it. Janeway would be the first person to say we need to mourn and move on."

"You know Tom I think you're lying to yourself. You try to be this hard person but your not, I can tell it's eating you up inside." Harry got up and walked to the doors "I'll see you around Tom" and out he went.

"Tommy why thy long face?" Sandrine asked

"My life saver died and now my best friend is disgusted with me. I guess I should go hoe to my wife and daughter" Tom stood up and walked out the doors without even saying goodbye.

"Phoebe where did I put the picture of Kathryn and you on the beach? You know the one she just promoted and was celebrating on the beach" Gretchen asked fro the living room

"It should be on the corner table near the couch" Phoebe yelled from her studio in the basement. Phoebe and thrown herself into her work after they were told about Kathryn's death on the Borg ship. It nearly killed her, she never cried so hard not even when they were told the first time and then found out she was alive in the Delta Quadrant. But this time it felt final. She loved her sister even though they fought. Phoebe looked at her reflection in the mirror on the wall to her right and could help but laugh, she had paint all over her face from trying to wipe away tears.

"Oh Kathryn if you saw me right now you would be laughing so hard mom would wonder what was going on down here."

"Did you say something Phoebe?" Gretchen called from the top of the stairs

"No mom it's okay. Did you find the picture?"

"Yes thank you"

Gretchen was now stirring a pot of home made soup and trying hard not to think of how bad a cook Kathryn was. But she started to laugh at a memory of when Kathryn tried to make pancakes on the morning she was leaving for Voyager. They were really badly burnt; Kathryn had flour on her face and was laughing at the look she was getting from Phoebe.

"Oh Kathryn cooking wasn't your thing but being a leader sure was. Your father would have been so proud when you were given command of Voyager." Gretchen began to cry and had to sit on a kitchen chair as she could no longer see she was crying so hard.

"You know you still annoy me"

"I know Kathy. Look at it this way you can go where ever you like if I drive you crazy."

"So I can go back to my life on Earth?"

"Except that."

Kathryn paced in front of Q "I don't get it. I died and know I have to spend eternity with you? Not a great deal"

"Well, we the other Q's decided that you did help save us and all the good things you have done that well you have made you a Q!" Q grabbed Kathryn and gave her a big hug.

"Hey Aunt Kathy look at it this way, now you can watch out for your friends"

"It's not the same junior, I want to be part of their lives, look at Chakotay, he's suffering and y mother look at her she looks like she is about to die. I have to go see them." Kathryn turned to look at Q "Please Q let me at least tell them I'm okay and I watching them."

"I'm sorry Kathy I can't and you can't the Q will stop you if you try and keep you stuck here for eternity and I know that would not be a pleasant thing for you."

Kathryn walked away from Q and towards the big country house that she snapped into the continuum.

"Don't give me that look junior, I can't do it, they are still angry with me for forcing them to make her a Q."

"Fine." And junior snapped his fingers and flashed away.

"Aunt Kathy"

"Don't you Aunt Kathy me, I don't want to hear that they just need time or they feel its in my best interest to forget about Earth. Just leave me be please" Kathryn closed the door to the house just before junior was on the front steps.

"Don't you go in Junior; this is her house, a place where she can be alone. She needs time to accept this" Q was standing beside his son "Come on lets go. And they flashed away