It has been two years since his death ;today marks the anniversary. Everyone was in mourning. I want to feel upset with him, because he left me so soon but I can't ;I miss him too dearly. I walk through the grief stricken halls of the Villa. Everywhere I look, not a single smile could be seen on any of the servants.
A sad aura that seemed to reflect everyone's feeling could be felt throughout the entire castle. His Majesty has since fallen ill, not able to cope with the loss of his only child.
His butler and dearest friend Alberto, is not taking the loss very well. I haven't seen a genuine smile on his face since that day. Rather, he spends most of his days with a shadow cast over his face. As soon as he finishes his work he often retires to his room early ;I can tell this has affected him deeply. Alberto viewed him like a little brother, they shared a close relationship...
Everyone in the Villa continually work together to try cheer one another up, but still, this sadness we all share... it will never truly fade. He was a part of what made this place feel so alive and bring a smile to everyone's face.
That was all lost with his passing... Some days I don't even try to smile, whats the point? Nothing will bring him back to me... No matter how long I wait, I will never again see him walk through the bedroom doors with his bright cheery smile ;happy to see me once more. I won't ever hear him call me beautiful or feel his lips upon mine ;neither will I ever feel his touch as he holds me close when I'm in pain.
Those are all but memories, that's all I have left of him now... My heart is broken, shattered... it was now incomplete... it was he who completed my heart...and me. That hole in my heart would never heal, the pain would just lessen over time. I try to be the pillar of strength for everyone in the Villa but they all know deep down, that I'm suffering the most.
Alberto has tried many times to show me his support but even he has trouble and often shows his weaknesses ;though only around me. Sometimes, I sneak into Albertos room to talk about the old days. We would share stories of the days the three us were together, all while tears streamed down our faces. I lay in my bed now all alone. It felt like just yesterday that he was beside me looking at me with his beautiful eyes, of course that to is now just a memory.
It often takes me hours to get to sleep. I feel so lonely without him besides me. Though when I do finally fall into a deep sleep, it's the only time I get to see him and feel like we are together once more. Though I have to face the harsh reality upon waking up each morning ;I treasure those precious nights I do see him.
Everynight before falling asleep I still tell him how much I love him and how greatly I miss him "Roberto... I love you. I wish you could still be here with me... I miss you so much. You will always be in my heart and mind I will never forget you as long as I live... sweet dreams my love."