Songs from the Heart Chapter 1: I Surrender, a twilight fanfic

AN: Hi everyone, this is my first fanfic so bear with me. This is a songfic to the song I surrender by Celine Dion. I heard this song, and thought about Bella and Jacob. How all Bella had to do was surrender to her love for Jacob. This song is so beautiful, I suggest that you go and look it up and listen to it. I hope you enjoy my story!

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I Surrender

I've been driving for hours now; I don't even know how much time has passed. All I had on my mind was the choice that I knew that I had to make soon, I knew I couldn't keep stringing both Edward and Jacob along, but I couldn't decide, I loved them both. After I kissed Jake, I knew that I loved him also, but could I really love him like I love Edward? As I realized that I should probably be focused on the road, I heard a song playing on my radio that really caught my attention. As I listened I felt my heart growing lighter and my choice become clearer and clearer.

There's so much life I've left to live
and this fires burning still

I did have so much life to live, if I chose Edward, I would have to give up my life. I could be with Edward forever, but is that really what I wanted still? I would have to give up my friends, Renee and Charlie, and Jake; I would have to give up Jake. He already told me that if I chose Edward, we couldn't be friends anymore; could I give all that up?

When I watch you look at me
I think I could find the will
to stand for every dream

I remember the vision I had as I kissed Jacob, the two little kids I saw running, I knew without a doubt that they were mine, mine and Jake's. I knew I had never wanted to be a mother, but in that moment everything felt so right. But was I ready for that future?

And forsake the solid ground
and give up this fear within
of what would happen if they ever knew
I'm in love with you

What would the Cullen's think if I chose Jacob? I had lost them all once, would I lose them again? Would they all leave me like they did before? I love them all like family, I don't know if I could give them up. But if I chose to be with Jacob, with a werewolf, they probably wouldn't have anything to do me. I would be together with their mortal enemy.

'cause I'd surrender everything
to feel the chance to live again
I reach to you

When Edward left, I was so broken; I didn't think that I could ever feel alive. But then, when I starting spending more time with Jake; I felt so alive again. That hole that was left in my heart started to mend until it was gone. My Jacob, my sun, he fixed me, he made me whole again. Did I really want to go back to Edward, back to the one who had caused the hole to begin with?

I know you can feel it to
We'd make it through
A thousand dreams I still believe
I'd make you give them all to me
I'd hold you in my arms and never let go
I surrender

I've always know how Jake felt about me. I just didn't want to acknowledge it. If I was ignorant to the fact that he loved me, I could continue to pretend that we could be friends that we didn't need to be anything else.

I know I can't survive
another night away from you
you're the reason I go on

The thought of never seeing Jake again, it broke my heart. I needed him in my life; I couldn't survive if he wasn't there. He was the reason I went on after Edward left me. It was the thought that I was going to see Jake that got me out of bed in the morning. Hanging out in his garage and watching him as he worked on our motorcycles, or doing homework. Even just hanging out by the beach. I loved doing anything with Jacob.

And now I need to live the truth
Right now, there's no better time
from this fear I will break free

Is that what's holding me back, fear? Am I scared to love Jake? I never thought I was good enough for Edward. The fact that he chose to love me was amazing. I always felt that I needed to act a certain way when I'm with Edward. I never felt like I could be my normal clumsy self. But with Jake, it's so easy to be myself. I can do things that I love to do without wondering what Jake is thinking about me. He loved me for me, but what if that changed? What if Jake got tired of me like Edward got tired of me? I laughed at that thought as it came and went, this was Jake, I knew that he would never leave me.

And I'll live again with love
and no they can't take that away from me
and they will see...

I didn't think I could love again after Edward left me. When he left me, my heart had died. But between warm sodas and bonfires, I felt my heart coming back to life. I didn't think I could survive when Edward left, but looking back, I did live and I enjoyed it. I can live Edward, I've done it before, but I can't live without Jake.

'cause I'd surrender everything
To feel the chance to live again
I reach to you
I know you can feel it too
We'd make it through
A thousand dreams I still believe
I'd make you give them all to me
I'd hold you in my arms and never let go
I surrender

I didn't realize that while I had been listening to the song, I had been driving to La Push. My body and my heart knew where I needed to be, it was just my mind that was fighting me. My mind didn't want to be let go of Edward, it argued that Edward was my only love, but I knew that wasn't true, because I loved Jake too. I knew that my decision had already been made. I knew who I wanted. I pushed my truck, I had to get La Push, I had to get my Jacob.

Every night's getting longer
and this fire is getting stronger, babe
I'll swallow my pride and I'll be alive
Did you hear my call
I surrender all

I pulled into Jacob's driveway and saw him walking from the garage. I know he saw me, but he just walked passed and started heading towards the house. "Jacob wait!" I yelled to him as I stepped out of my truck into the pouring rain. He turned and looked back at me," What do you want Bells, why are you here? Go back to your leech, I'm sure he's missing you" "Please Jake" I begged, "I need to talk you".

I saw in his eyes, the struggle he was going through. He wanted to talk to me, but knew that I had made my decision and he didn't think it was him. I had to make him see that I chose him. I did the first thing that came to my mind; I ran full force to him and kissed him. I tried to pour all of my love and everything that I had into that kiss. I pulled away and looked up into eyes, "Jake, it's you, it's always been you. I'm sorry for hurting you and being stupid and denying my feelings for you and…." Before I could finish I felt his lips pressed back onto mine.

Right here, right now
I give my life to live again
I'll break free, take me
my everything I surrender all to you

"Bells, are you sure about this? I couldn't take it if you ran back him again, I wouldn't survive it" he asked as he looked at me again."Jake, I've never been more sure of something in my life. I thought I couldn't live without Edward, but I did, and it was because of you that I did, but I can't live without you. I need the sun in my life. I looked into eyes, and the love I saw was enough to make me cry, "I love you Jake, so much." "I love you to Bells" and with that he kissed me again. As we stood out there in the rain, I faintly heard the last few verses of the song coming from my truck

Right here, right now
I give my life to live again
I break free, take me
my everything I surrender all to you

It felt right to surrender to my love for Jacob. It felt right standing here with him. I knew there was no place I would rather be.

That's it! I hope you guys enjoyed it. Review and let me know how it was, I've read so many wonderful stories, but have never tried to write one, so I hope its okay!