Forever Broken

Summary: After everything they'd been through together Meredith and Derek thought they finally had it; their happily ever after. They had their careers, friends, and three kids and of course each other, but when one of the kids goes missing the rest of the family starts to fall apart. Can they hold on to each other and find her or will the family stay forever broken.

Sequel to Out of Control

I don't own Grey's Anatomy, because if I did Meredith would've jumped into Derek's arms and told him she saw a future for them.

What I've Always Dreamed of

Christmas. That one simple word meant so much; changed so much. Whenever somebody said it you could see little smiles crawl across everyone's faces and excited conversations about the holidays would break out. It was no different at Seattle Grace. Every inch of available wall space had been decorated with pictures of Santa Claus and reindeer, mistletoe hung in every doorway, surgeons wore red and green scrub caps and Christmas trees stood brightly in waiting rooms trying to cheer patient's families up.

A few years ago Meredith would've been shaking her head at all the people running around like idiots preparing for families and dinners and presents, she really didn't see what all the hype was about, that was until she met Derek and they had their children. When she was a kid Christmas to her meant just another day of being disappointed that her mother wasn't there, it meant waking up and finding the unwrapped gifts at the end of her bed because they had no time for putting up a tree. It meant eating Christmas dinner alone or with a friend's family instead of her own.

To Meredith now Christmas would still always be just another day and she would always remember her horrible childhood Christmas's. But now that she had Derek and they had three kids (her twins and Addison's daughter Christy) she was determined to not make the same mistake her mother had with her. So, after three Christmas's with a family she was getting used to it; what Christmas really meant.

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It was December the 22nd and the hospital was as incredibly busy as it usually was around the holidays. Meredith and Derek walked into the hospital hand in hand like they had for the past almost four years. The only difference from when they first started this was that for the past two and a half years they each had another little hand holding their own; their twin 2 and a half year olds Milo and Tori. This morning was the same as any other; they dropped them off at the daycare and took the elevator to the surgical floor.

"Okay, babe," Derek said as they got off the elevator, "I have a surgery at 9 and another at 3 so I should be done around 6."

"Me too," and she stood on tip toes to kiss him.

"I love you."

"Love you too," she said walking away but turned again quickly, "Derek…remember to invite Addison and Mark to Christmas dinner again." Over the years the two families had grown together; Mark and Derek were best friends again, Addison and Meredith got along; the two had a daughter, Marley who was only a few months younger than the twins and they played together really well. Plus it was always nice for Christy to get to see both of her parents getting along, even though they were divorced. She was 15 now and was still the sweet kid she was when Meredith met her over three years ago.

Meredith walked down the hall and into the Resident's locker room where Izzie and Alex were playfully arguing over what to make for Christmas Eve dinner. Alex and Izzie were not together but were now the only ones living in Meredith's old house, as her and Derek had built on Derek's land because they needed more room and George moved out a long time ago and bought a house with Callie and their two year old son, Ethan. "Hey, remember Christmas dinner at my house everyone," Meredith announced.

"We know Mer," Cristina replied, "you've been reminding us every day for a week." Cristina and Burke were married and living together, they didn't have any kids yet though, Cristina wasn't ready. "Now let's go boss some interns." Everyone laughed, Cristina was known as Nazi 2 by their interns for obvious reasons.

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Derek walked out of his OR hours later, tired but very satisfied. He had completed two successful surgeries that day and was ready to find his girlfriend and go home to his family. He pulled off his Christmas scrub cap that had replaced his usual ferryboat one in light of the holidays and washed his hands. He stepped into the hallway and almost ran into the tall figure of Mark Sloane. "Hey man, watch out I wouldn't want to hurt you," Mark teased.

"Hurt me? I seem to remember it was me who punched you and landed you flat on your ass," Derek replied.

"That was a cheap shot," they bickered like best buds all the way down the hall. Derek realised that there was no point in being mad at Mark and Addison anymore, they were all happier now than they were when they were married, so it was for the best. They entered Derek's office as they talked. When Burke had been given Chief of surgery he made sure Derek got a nice big office because he knew that Derek deserved Chief as much as he did.

Derek was about to leave when he remembered what Meredith had said that morning. "Hey Mark, Meredith told me to remind you about Christmas dinner at our house, come around 4 I guess."

"I'll tell Addison man, we'll be there." And he walked away down the hall while Derek went to find Meredith. He found her changing out of her scrubs in the locker room.

"Ready?" he asked.

"Yep, let's go get our babies," and they made there way down to the daycare hand in hand. When they walked in the door of the daycare Milo immediately came running over to his mother. He was a mama's boy and didn't like being away from her too long.

"Mommy!" Meredith picked him up and kissed his head. Milo looked a lot like Meredith, he had a small build, light brown hair and green eyes, however the dimples on his cheeks and his adorable smile had earned him the nickname McDreamy Junior from Izzie, Meredith and Cristina.

"How was your day bud?" Derek asked his son as he settled into Meredith's arms, never wanting to let go.

"Otay daddy," he replied in his cute little toddler talk.

"That's good. Now where is that sister of yours?"

"Um…she was pwayin wif Mason," Milo told him.

Derek looked around and saw his daughter's dark curly hair in a corner playing with building blocks with her little friend Mason, as Milo had said. He snuck up behind her and picked her up and spun her around causing her to scream.

"Daddy! That tickles," she squealed and squirmed as he began tickling her sides.

"It does, does it?" She continued to laugh and squeal "daddy!" "Alright, alright, how's my girl today?"

"Good, I pwayed wif Mason and Miwo and Efan all day," ever since she said her first word she had been much more talkative than Milo, who usually preferred just one word answers. Tori was also small, the same size as Milo, she had dark brown curly hair, blue eyes and dimples just like Derek, however she had Meredith's nose. In Derek's opinion she was the cutest little girl he had ever seen, next to Christy maybe.

They walked back over to where Meredith was signing them out with Milo still attached to her. "There's my girl," Meredith stated, "we ready to go home and see Christy?" she asked the both replied with excited yes's. They both adored their big sister very much.

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"Christy," Derek called when they walked in through the garage door of the house. They had built a large 2 story house on Derek's land, with a double garage, a fenced in area in the yard for the kids to play, a huge kitchen for Derek, and a big deck off of the back for barbecuing and eating outside if it wasn't raining.

"In my room," the fifteen year old called back. She was a high school sophomore now and was loving every minute of it. She was smart, funny, beautiful, athletic and popular. Too popular for her own good in Derek's opinion; she had boys falling all over but he admired the way she didn't take advantage of it. She was still dating her boyfriend Aaron that she started going out with in 7th grade. Sure she could be a little bit of a handful sometimes for various reasons but she was a great kid and Derek couldn't be more proud of her.

Derek carried his twins up the stairs and knocked on the door to Christy's room, he could hear music playing softly and he typing on her laptop that he had gotten her when she started high school. "Can we come in?"

"Of course," she said and opened the door.

"Cwisty!" Both twins reached out for her wanting to be picked up so she scooped up Milo and patted Tori on the top of the head.

"How was your day Sweetie?" Derek asked after laughing at the twins.

"Pretty good, glad it's finally the holidays," she replied, while sitting down on her bed and picking up Tori now.

"Ya, you deserve it," Derek said, kissing her on the head and pulling her into a one armed hug. Derek and Christy had always been close. She was a daddy's girl from the minute she was born and Derek loved how she still let him hug and kiss her at her age. "Can you watch them for a bit while we make dinner?"

"Of course, c'mon guys let's go play with your toys."

"Thanks Sweetie." She just smiled back, the very smile that had earned her the nickname McCutie when Izzie first met her.

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A half an hour later the family sat down to dinner together, something that they tried to do as often as they could, but it was hard when both of your parents were surgeons. They chatted softly about this and that and Derek found himself not really participating in the conversation, just listening and thinking.

"Dad you alright?" Christy asked, jerking him from his thoughts to see everyone staring at him.

"Ya I'm fine why?"

"You just look out of it."

"I'm great, I was just thinking," he replied and smiled his dreamy smile.

"About what hun?" Meredith asked.

"This right here," she said, gesturing to his family, "it's what I've always dreamed of, and now I finally have it," he finished making Christy and Meredith both smile.

That was my first chapter, hope you liked it. I just wanted to make this chapter for you to meet the new kids and the older Christy and just get a look at their happily ever after because it isn't going to last for long. Next chapter will be about the actual Christmas and will also be all fluffy like this one. After that we get into the real plot.