I sat there thinking.

About what?

That was a stupid question. What did I always think about?

Him.

Of course, I knew that it was foolish. Nobodies can't -don't- feel emotions. And being the loyal member I am, I never show emotions.

Except for him.

He makes me feel all warm inside. I can't really explain it. He makes my heart pound every time I see him. Funny thing is, I don't have one. He…makes me feel like I do.

Of course the most obnoxious, idiotic Nobody I have ever met comes right then.

"Hey Saix!" Number IX greeted, coming over to the couch to sit with me. I never really understood why he follows me like this sometimes. Maybe he's stupid. Or doesn't value his life much. Either way, he always manages to get on my nerves after a while.

"Whatcha doin'?" he asked.

"Thinking," I gruffly replied. He had to come now?

"Oh." He paused for a minute. "About what?"

"Nothing," I snapped. "Leave me alone."

He just kept on going. "Hmm...is it about…Kingdom Hearts?"

"No." I hated that wretched moon. It always manages to capture his attention.

"…hearts in general?"

"No." Why won't he leave me alone!?

"The moon!" He said it like he got it right.

"No!" I said it a little more sharply, a little more than I probably should have.

"Oh." He thought for a minute. "…Xemnas?"

I paused. I wasn't a liar. I didn't lie. It wasn't in my nature to. But I didn't want him to know.

"Hah! I got it!" Demyx said cheerfully. "…you like him, don't you?"

I grunted and buried my head in my arms. Great. Did the whole castle know!?

"Hey…y'know, it's not that bad…" he poked my shoulder and I growled at him. Why did he insist on annoying me further!? "Leave me be, IX!" I snarled, using his number for emphasis. The Nocturne shrunk back, but not for long. "So tell me everything!"

I rolled my golden eyes. "Certainly not!"

"Aww, why not?" he whined.

"Because…" I paused, not having an answer. "Don't you have anything better to do?"

Demyx shifted more comfortably in the couch. "Nope. Now tell me."

I sighed. IX was not going to go away anytime soon. "What do you want to know?"

"Did you tell him?"

"Of course not!"

"Why not?"

"Why not!? Demyx, he is the Superior! By showing emotions, especially for him, is showing disloyalty to our cause and the Organization. He wouldn't hesitate to eliminate me." The words came spilling out of my mouth before I could control them. I had certainly thought about that a lot.

"But," Demyx argued. "You're his most loyal!"

"I know," I spoke softer. "I would never, never doubt him. But…he can sometimes be…"

"Stubborn?" Demyx guessed.

I sighed. But that was one of the things I fell in love with. "Yes."

Demyx folded his arms and leaned back in the couch. "Well…you're going to have to tell him sometime."

I panicked. "W-what? No, I can never-"

"He's going to figure out." I never knew IX could be so demanding, especially to a superior. But I had my own comeback.

"I'm good at concealing my emotions," I half-lied. I just wasn't good at concealing my emotions around him.

"Still…" Demyx thought for a minute. "You want him, right?"

"More than anything," I murmured without thinking.

"Then it's settled!" Nine clapped his hands together. "We're going to figure out a way you can tell him without him killing you!" And he said it so cheerfully. When I glanced back at him, he vanished in a portal. I was left confused and frustrated.

I am in way over my head.

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A/N: Wow, that sucked xD OOC Saix much? It gets better, I promise! …maybe

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(And yes this is my way of making up because I completely forgot it was XemSai day. Now I have to go to bed.)