A/N: *AU* Takes place in season 5. The whole Alex getting shot NEVER happened in this. Infact, that case never happened. I had this idea and wanted to write it. It's depressing in the beginning but later it will be happy and family like. This is Olivia's point of view for now. Review and let me know what you think! (:
Xox
Alex Cabot was a difficult person. She was a quiet and extremely serious. When she was with me it was all different. She was outgoing and funny. She never hide anything from me. She was one of the only people I could trust and she was one of the only people that knew everything about me but still wanted to be in my life. I can admit that in the past few years that me and Alex had gotten close, I had fallen in love with her. She had no idea…I really had no idea until it had already happened. I found myself randomly looking at her and thinking about how gorgeous she was. In court I had always watched how she walked around like she was the queen. I loved how her hair perfectly fell in front of her face, still giving off her perfectly shaped jawline. I kind a thought it would go away. The feelings had only intensified.
Yup I was screwed…
I watched as Alex paced around my apartment and freaked out in the middle of the night about a case. I was too tired for this.
"Alex. Alex!" I yelled over her babbling.
"What?"
She turned around to face me and I just looked at her.
"I didn't have anything planned because I didn't know you'd stop talking. Well, this is awkward." I laughed.
I honestly didn't think she'd stop talking but it was nice to hear the silence. I loved her but she worried too much about cases. I wondered when she had the time to relax and sleep…or date.
"Liv now is not a time to joke with me. I am freaking out. You and Stabler barley gave me anything."
"Hey, we do everything we can Alex. Now, I am going to sleep. I will see you tomorrow." I sighed and stood.
She looked at me seriously and I knew I'd better sit my ass down before she argued about something. So I slowly sat back down and she smiled. She knew she had me wrapped around her little finger.
"Olivia, I just don't want to seem stupid in court. I've been suck in this situation more than once. You and Stabler sure know how to screw an ADA." She laughed and grabbed her coat from the back of the couch.
I laughed and handed her, her purse.
"I'll see you tomorrow, night Liv." She sat as she walked out.
I breathed out and walked back to my room. Hoping sleep would take over before I let my mind wonder.
…
It was a Saturday and I thankfully had off today. Even though I knew Alex would be over soon and force me to go out with her. I didn't mind, I just wanted to distance myself from her. It seemed easy. I wasn't sure how much linger I could go on watching her dating other men. Sometimes I thought maybe I should get in a relationship. I just couldn't find someone as perfect as Alex and I didn't want to hurt someone by being with them when I wanted Alex.
She would be the reason I died an old lonely cat lady.
I had suddenly remembered Alex was going to the beach with her mother and family! Ah, I could actually sleep in.
Throughout the last year of our friendship I'd grown so close to her family…not so much her father but her mother loved me more than life. Alex's mothers name was Alice Cabot and her father was the famous lawyer Richard Cabot. She had a younger brother that was 23, his name was Jeremey Cabot. He was super-hot and had the hots for me but I have the hots for his sister.
I felt my phone vibrate my bed and I searched for it. It was most likely Alex saying good morning or something.
I looked at my phone and seen a message from Alice.
'My dearest Olivia, meet us out front of your apartment in 10. Bring a swim suit! –A xox'
I was going to kill Alex for this. Ugh. I ripped myself from bed and rushed around. I ran down my apartment stairs and saw Alex's mothers SUV. Alex was smiling as she opened the car door for me. She sat beside me and put her hand on my leg.
"You didn't think I was going alone did you?" She said through her teeth.
I gave her the evil eye and looked down at the hand that remained on my thigh. God I loved her.
…
We had arrived at the beach and Alex and Jeremey had acted like kids and ran down to the water. I sat with Alice and tanned.
"Is there something going on with you and Alexandra?"
I didn't have any response for her. Nothing was but why would she even ask me that.
"Excuse me?"
"I see the way you look at her. You love her. It's sweet, really. I would always accept Alexandra. I love you like my own and you are a good person for her. I just wonder if there is anything going on."
I trusted Alice with my life. Which was weird because the only person I trusted with my life was Elliot but Alice was safe and good. She was the mother I had always wanted.
"Alice as much as I wished something was going on, there is nothing going on. She's dating that Scott guy and she's straight."
I watched as Alex ran over to us, her perfect body glistening in the sun. She smiled at me and grabbed a towel. She still watched me as she dried off, pretty much checking me out.
"I'm not so sure." Alice whispered.
Maybe Alice was right, maybe Alex wasn't straight…