Author's Notes: It's been so long since my last update on anything. I flipped through some of my work, and is that deterioration I see in my writing instead of improvement? I found that truly pathetic. So I am going to write a pathetic not-well-though-out-at-all songfic just because it's the first bit of inspiration I've encountered in MONTHS. And even if the idea is crap (lol, WHAT idea?! This is just babbling…), I'm writing it. And that's that.
Anyhow, this complete randomness was inspired by Within Temptation. And even though the lyrics seem kinda irrelevant now that I read through them a second time... it's really all I've got.
Disclaimer: Do I look like I own Rozen Maiden? Lol, cause I don't. This work of fiction is unofficial.
If I tell you
Will
you listen?
Will you stay?
Will you be here forever?
Never
go away?
She never knew their absence would pain her so much. She never knew anything could hurt this much. She had her moments, but overall, she lived a good, cheerful life. And she had liked it like that. Things would happen, but she had never suffered such loss before.
And she didn't know what to do anymore.
Souseiseki had always handled the problems. She'd been reliable. You didn't have second thoughts entrusting tasks to her. But this time, it was her fault. She wasn't there. And her sister didn't know what to do, what she could do.
It wasn't fair. She
had tried to get Souseiseki to stay. She had tried enforcing her view
on her. But she had failed. As an older sister, and as a friend.
Never thought things would change
Hold me tight
Please don't say again
That you have to go
It was the biggest mistake of her life. She had thought everything was alright, that they'd get through it together, somehow. How naïve of her. She should have seen the signs; she shouldn't have been so surprised. A part of her wanted to condemn Souseiseki for her decision, but she couldn't. She was older, and yet it was Souseiseki who did all the comforting. And where was she when her sister was so internally conflicted?
The Gardener finally
understood what Shinku had felt about Suigintou. But even then, she
hadn't known. Why was she so useless? Why couldn't she tell when
someone she cared about was hurt? It wasn't until Jun had mentioned
something that she had realized. A bitter thought
I
had it all
But I just let it go
Hold your silence
It's so
violent
Since your gone
It did hurt to lose a sister. She regretted her attitude towards Hinaichigo. It was all in good fun, and her intentions had never been that bad, but sometimes she went too far. If they could have just a few more moments together, she'd apologize. The house was so incredibly quiet without her cheerfulness. It had been annoying, but... lively. And now she was in her box unmoving, and Laplace still had her Rosa Mystica, for all they knew.
Laplace. He'd always
kept them in the dark about everything. It was more than irritating.
Suiseiseki wasn't hateful, but she came close with Laplace. That
rabbit… All my thoughts are with you forever
Until
the day we'll be back together
I will be waiting for you
It wasn't directly Laplace's fault either. The mischievous rabbit had a hand in this, but...
Enju and Barasuishou had started the battle. They had been responsible for all the ensuring fights.
Suigintou had been the
one who had actually taken Souseiseki's Rosa Mystica, but it was
hard to hold a grudge against her. She had caused a lot of trouble
for them, but in the end she was just another victim of the Alice
Game. Souseiseki had explained it to her once. Explained what had
happened between her and Shinku. It was odd, but it somehow almost
justified Suigintou's actions... or at least made them
understandable. If I had told you
You would have
listened
You had stayed
You would be here forever
Never
went away
It would never have been the same
All our time
Would have been in vain
Cause you had to go
The Alice Game was cruel. The elder twin loved Rozen, she truly did, but just because she did didn't mean she had to approve of his ideas. Father wanted an Alice. They all understood that, but she couldn't hurt anyone for that to happen. They would be respecting Father's wishes, but what of themselves? She couldn't be being selfish by relinquishing the title of Alice, could she?
Father loved them. He longed for an Alice, but he loved them. They could feel it. After all, he had repaired them after the fight, hadn't he? She had entered that battle, fully prepared to meet the same fate as her sister, not caring anymore. But what was Rozen's reason for leaving Souseiseki and Hinaichigo's Rosa Mysticae with Laplace? Yet another thing that Suiseiseki couldn't bring herself agree with, just like the Alice Game.
Because they were fairly defeated in battle, by someone other than Barasuishou? It was hardly fair. But Father had his own way of thinking, and his perspective greatly differed from most.
The sweetest
thought
I had it all
Cause I did let you go
All our
moments
Keep me warm
When you're gone
If only he wasn't so hard to understand. If only she knew more about him. She felt his love, but if only she could really get to know him. Why did he have to be so distant?
He moved in mysterious ways, changing their lives. He had repaired Suigintou more than once though. He had given her another chance, for his own reasons.
Even Father couldn't
fully repair the soul. She was physically fine, but even now, a huge
part of her was missing. The watering can wasn't complete without
the shears. They were made to be used together, but that wasn't
possible now.
All my thoughts are
with you forever
Until the day we'll be back together
I will
be waiting for you
Her sisters were both in their boxes at the movement. Anyone who didn't know better would've thought they were just very-well made dolls. They would've never guessed that they had once been living, moving.
She looked over at them. It was still a curious feeling, a concept hard to grasp. That they were so close to her, yet so distant…
Suiseiseki had let both her younger sister and Hinaichigo go, watching powerlessly. Was she wrong to hope for Rozen to repair her mistakes?
Author's Notes: That… was… not exactly the best thing I've ever written. No organization, no coherency. Aw, man…
I'm going to go make an AMV. It ought to turn out better.