Chaper 1: Evelyn and Rick
Evelyn O'Connell sat in her rocking chair and slowly teetered . It was quiet, the fire in the fireplace crackled and the wind wailed round the house. She was all alone, apart from her children nobody was there. Her brother Jonathan, who lived with them since three months now, had gone out with his new girlfriend.
And Rick.. well, she couldn't tell where he was. Probably he'd went to one of his favourite pubs to get plastered and some time in the first light of dawn he would return.
She sighed and stood up to look once again after her children before she wanted to go to sleep herself. She crept through the stairwell and carefully opened the door of the child's room. On tiptoe she went to the bed and bent over her sleeping daughter.
Her young seemed so peaceful but at the same time it showed care. Evy smiled melancholy, covered her with the blanket and kissed her forehead softly. „Good night Sweetie", she whispered and left the room as quickly as possible because she didn't want to wake her up.
Then she entered the room next door which belonged to her son. When she saw the empty bed, she let her eye travel until she noticed that he was at his desk. He'd fallen asleep on top of his books and his head rested on a pile of magazines. Smiling she went up to him and stroke his cheek gently.
He woke up with a start and rubbed his eyes sleepily and then he noticed his mother. „Mom"? He asked surprised.
She sighed. „You fell asleep Alex. Come on,. Go to bed, it's late", she said and he nodded. Then he looked out of the window and tried to catch a view of the garage to see if it was still empty.
„Is Dad already back Mom? He promised me to come to my lecture which I'm giving tomorrow at school. He'll come, won't he", he asked and looked at her entreating and she shallowed the tears that began to fill her eyes. In this moment she hated her husband for she knew he wouldn't fullfill his promise and he would hurt his son again.
„I'm sure he will Alex. Your father wouldn't want to miss your lecture about egypt, not for anything in the world", she lied althought she knew she was giving him false hope. But maybe Rick would come.. maybe just once.
Alex smiled and stood up. He took the book, his father had given him at his 12th birthday and pressed it to his chest. „I read it through over and over again and there is every worth knowing fact about egypt in it. It's gonna be great to tell my class of it", he said and beamed.
„I'm sure. But now get some rest, you need to be slept off, alright"? He nodded and she kissed his forehead. „Good night Alex. Sleep well".
Then she shut the door behind herself and leaned against it gasping. This was hell, this was unable to bear. Her family was breaking apart and she wasn't able to to anything against it. She knew Rick wouldn't come and she knew it would break Alex's heart. He loved his father idolatrous and althought Rick'd disappointed him many times before, he was always hoping that this time his Dad wouldn't turn him down. A loud sob escaped her mouth and she quickly covered it with her hand. Then she stormed up the stairs and threw herself on her bed. She cried out loud and pressed her face into her pillow.
She couldn't understand any of this. Her life was a disaster. And she had to figure out why it had become this way. But she already knew the answer and it hurt to realize that after all it was as much her fault as it was Rick's. She shook her head. Thinking about it pained her, she didn't want to think about it again. Once she would start, these thoughts would chase her for the rest of the week.
When she heard footsteps coming up the stairs, she whipped away the tears. Quickly she jumped up and opened the door and... faced Rick. He looked at her with tired eyes and she stumpled back, making space so he could get in. He entered the room and let himself fall on the bed. She watched him carefully because she knew that when he was drunk he easily got violent-tempered and irritated.
"Tomorrow is Alex's lecture about egypt, ya know that right? He told me you promised him to come", she said quietly.
Rick starred at her and nodded and she realized that he wasn't drunken today. "I know but I'm not going to be able to come", he replied.
"What? What do you mean? Rick, please I beg you. You promised him and he's so exciting about you coming to hear him", she pleaded.
He sighed and rubbed his chin. "I know Evy, I know. But I've got something to do. It's not my fault I can't come".
"You've got something to do? What? Damn he's your son Rick and it's gonna break his heart. Again. You can't do that", she yelled upset about his impudence. It made her furious that he didn't want to understand.
But he starred at her with this big, painfilled eyes and then he suddenly jumped up and grabbed her arm. "Damn Evy! You really think I don't know that? Fuck.. it's not my fault, okay? Stop blaming me for it!"
She struggled. "You Liar! What do you have to do? Get drunk, have fun with some other woman"? She asked quietly, spitting the words in his face.
And regretted it as soon as she saw his hurt expression. His eyes filled with bitter tears and he shook her hard. "Is that what you think? You really think I'm cheating on you while my little boy is having his big day? Do you really believe I'm such a asshole. Talk.. speak with me", he screamed.
She flinched back. "Let me go Rick! You're hurting me.. you are hurting me Rick", she yelled. He stared at her and when he let her go he saw her arm turning blue. Terrified he stumpled back. He had hurt her. To that it had come yet. He was hurting the only woman he truly loved. Sick of himself he stormed to the door and ran out of the room and when he raced to the garage he almost bumped in his son who stepped out of his way quickly. Then he jumped in his car, turned the key and drove away as fast as he could.
Alex watched him and his eyes filled with heavy tears. "Dad"? He quietly whispered and all of sudden his sister appeared by his side. Her face was pale and full of fear. He whipped away his tears and knelt in front of her. "Hey Sarah! What are you doing here? Why aren't you asleep"?
"Mom and Dad were screaming so loudly that I awoke", she said and grabbed his hand. "Where did Daddy go? He's going to be back, isn't he Alex"?
Alex shallowed and looked down. To be honest he didn't know the answer to that question and he feared it as well. His parents were fighting a lot since.. well since the death of.. .it. He wanted to think about it as a netrum, as a thing. Because all he felt for it was pure hate, it had destroyed his family.
There was time when he'd loved it as much as his parents but that was before it had died and before his parents started hating and fighting each other.But nevertheless the fights were never this bad that one of them left the house like this. And that scared the shit out of him.
Suddenly Evy appeared behind them and Alex saw that she'd been crying. Her face was red, swollen and wet. He jerked a bit because he knew his mother didn't cry often only when something really bad happened. "Your father is going to be back", she started and Sarah sighed relieved.
"But we won't be here anymore when he does", she ended her sentence. Alex stared at her confused. "What do you mean?" She sniffed and whipped away a single tear that rolled down her cheek. She wouldn't start a discussion about that right now, she'd made her decision.
When Rick'd stormed out of their room she'd realized that this drama went way too far and that she had to stop it immendiately. Even if that meant that she had to leave the only man she loved and that she had to take their children away from him.
"Go in your room and pack your bag. Clothes and your school books. If there's enough space you can also take a few toys with you", she answered and took Sarah's hand.
"Come on Sarah, let's pack your bag, okay"? Her daughter nodded, she understood her mother wasn't in the mood for explanations.
But Alex didn't want to give up too soon. He didn't want to go, he wanted to wait for his Dad to sort everything out. "But.. Mom! I can't .. my lecture", he stuttered and hoped that this would change her mind.
She sighed and looked at him lovely. "I'm sorry Alex but you won't be able to give your lecture tomorrow but I'm sure you can do that a few days later, alright? We'll talk about that later", she said. She knew she had to stay tough now, even if her son would hate her for it.
Sarah looked at her with wide open eyes. Now her brother had made the start she wanted to ask a few questions too. "Where are we going Mom,? And why can't Dad come with us?" She couldn't, didn't want to understand this.
"We're going to visit Aunt Kate and stay with her a few days. And then we'll see what will happen. But no matter what happens after that I promise you that it's going to alright Sweetie", she said quietly.
But Alex shook his head. "It's not.. nothing is going to be alright! You want to take us away from Dad and we'll never see him again. But I don't want to leave him. I.. I don't want to", he yelled and the tears streamed down his cheeks now.
"I want him back Mom. I want my old Dad back..", he cried. "I want to see him laugh again.. I want to hear his jokes and his stories about his adventures. I want him to kiss you, to yell at me, to throw Sarah in the air. I want him to love me again, why did he stop loving me Mom"? He sobbed.
She let her daughter go and ran up to his son, wrapping her arms around him. She buried her face in his shoulder and stroke his back. "Oh Alex. My dear little Alex. Your father loves you. He loves you more than everything in the world and he never stopped loving you. Never! But your fathers has great problems with himself and God and me and he has to figure it out before we can be together again", she cried and pulled Sarah closer as well.
"But I promise you that it's going to be okay. We're going to be a happy family again", she said. "But you have to trust me. I'll figure out how to help your Dad, okay"?
Her children nodded quickly. She smiled faintly. "Okay. And now let's pack our things". Alex took a deep breath, knowing that today wasn't the time for fighting with his mother about leaving. He took his sister's hand in his. "Come on Sarah. I'm gonna help you", he said and together they went back into the house, leaving Evy alone.
Evy whipped away her tears and took a deep breath. And she prayed, she prayed to God that she would be able to fullfill the promise she'd just given her children. She had made the start and now it was Rick's turn to change something. He had to get over the tradegy that happened in their past, he had to get control over his feelings of guilt and his problem with alcohol. And maybe.. maybe if he would be able to solve his problems then maybe he would start loving her again just like she loved him. And maybe she would get the happy-end she needed so badly.
A/N: Okay, this is my first Mummy fic, I hope you like it. And sorry about my many mistakes I'm german and my english isn't that well. Please review!!
Evelyn O'Connell sat in her rocking chair and slowly teetered . It was quiet, the fire in the fireplace crackled and the wind wailed round the house. She was all alone, apart from her children nobody was there. Her brother Jonathan, who lived with them since three months now, had gone out with his new girlfriend.
And Rick.. well, she couldn't tell where he was. Probably he'd went to one of his favourite pubs to get plastered and some time in the first light of dawn he would return.
She sighed and stood up to look once again after her children before she wanted to go to sleep herself. She crept through the stairwell and carefully opened the door of the child's room. On tiptoe she went to the bed and bent over her sleeping daughter.
Her young seemed so peaceful but at the same time it showed care. Evy smiled melancholy, covered her with the blanket and kissed her forehead softly. „Good night Sweetie", she whispered and left the room as quickly as possible because she didn't want to wake her up.
Then she entered the room next door which belonged to her son. When she saw the empty bed, she let her eye travel until she noticed that he was at his desk. He'd fallen asleep on top of his books and his head rested on a pile of magazines. Smiling she went up to him and stroke his cheek gently.
He woke up with a start and rubbed his eyes sleepily and then he noticed his mother. „Mom"? He asked surprised.
She sighed. „You fell asleep Alex. Come on,. Go to bed, it's late", she said and he nodded. Then he looked out of the window and tried to catch a view of the garage to see if it was still empty.
„Is Dad already back Mom? He promised me to come to my lecture which I'm giving tomorrow at school. He'll come, won't he", he asked and looked at her entreating and she shallowed the tears that began to fill her eyes. In this moment she hated her husband for she knew he wouldn't fullfill his promise and he would hurt his son again.
„I'm sure he will Alex. Your father wouldn't want to miss your lecture about egypt, not for anything in the world", she lied althought she knew she was giving him false hope. But maybe Rick would come.. maybe just once.
Alex smiled and stood up. He took the book, his father had given him at his 12th birthday and pressed it to his chest. „I read it through over and over again and there is every worth knowing fact about egypt in it. It's gonna be great to tell my class of it", he said and beamed.
„I'm sure. But now get some rest, you need to be slept off, alright"? He nodded and she kissed his forehead. „Good night Alex. Sleep well".
Then she shut the door behind herself and leaned against it gasping. This was hell, this was unable to bear. Her family was breaking apart and she wasn't able to to anything against it. She knew Rick wouldn't come and she knew it would break Alex's heart. He loved his father idolatrous and althought Rick'd disappointed him many times before, he was always hoping that this time his Dad wouldn't turn him down. A loud sob escaped her mouth and she quickly covered it with her hand. Then she stormed up the stairs and threw herself on her bed. She cried out loud and pressed her face into her pillow.
She couldn't understand any of this. Her life was a disaster. And she had to figure out why it had become this way. But she already knew the answer and it hurt to realize that after all it was as much her fault as it was Rick's. She shook her head. Thinking about it pained her, she didn't want to think about it again. Once she would start, these thoughts would chase her for the rest of the week.
When she heard footsteps coming up the stairs, she whipped away the tears. Quickly she jumped up and opened the door and... faced Rick. He looked at her with tired eyes and she stumpled back, making space so he could get in. He entered the room and let himself fall on the bed. She watched him carefully because she knew that when he was drunk he easily got violent-tempered and irritated.
"Tomorrow is Alex's lecture about egypt, ya know that right? He told me you promised him to come", she said quietly.
Rick starred at her and nodded and she realized that he wasn't drunken today. "I know but I'm not going to be able to come", he replied.
"What? What do you mean? Rick, please I beg you. You promised him and he's so exciting about you coming to hear him", she pleaded.
He sighed and rubbed his chin. "I know Evy, I know. But I've got something to do. It's not my fault I can't come".
"You've got something to do? What? Damn he's your son Rick and it's gonna break his heart. Again. You can't do that", she yelled upset about his impudence. It made her furious that he didn't want to understand.
But he starred at her with this big, painfilled eyes and then he suddenly jumped up and grabbed her arm. "Damn Evy! You really think I don't know that? Fuck.. it's not my fault, okay? Stop blaming me for it!"
She struggled. "You Liar! What do you have to do? Get drunk, have fun with some other woman"? She asked quietly, spitting the words in his face.
And regretted it as soon as she saw his hurt expression. His eyes filled with bitter tears and he shook her hard. "Is that what you think? You really think I'm cheating on you while my little boy is having his big day? Do you really believe I'm such a asshole. Talk.. speak with me", he screamed.
She flinched back. "Let me go Rick! You're hurting me.. you are hurting me Rick", she yelled. He stared at her and when he let her go he saw her arm turning blue. Terrified he stumpled back. He had hurt her. To that it had come yet. He was hurting the only woman he truly loved. Sick of himself he stormed to the door and ran out of the room and when he raced to the garage he almost bumped in his son who stepped out of his way quickly. Then he jumped in his car, turned the key and drove away as fast as he could.
Alex watched him and his eyes filled with heavy tears. "Dad"? He quietly whispered and all of sudden his sister appeared by his side. Her face was pale and full of fear. He whipped away his tears and knelt in front of her. "Hey Sarah! What are you doing here? Why aren't you asleep"?
"Mom and Dad were screaming so loudly that I awoke", she said and grabbed his hand. "Where did Daddy go? He's going to be back, isn't he Alex"?
Alex shallowed and looked down. To be honest he didn't know the answer to that question and he feared it as well. His parents were fighting a lot since.. well since the death of.. .it. He wanted to think about it as a netrum, as a thing. Because all he felt for it was pure hate, it had destroyed his family.
There was time when he'd loved it as much as his parents but that was before it had died and before his parents started hating and fighting each other.But nevertheless the fights were never this bad that one of them left the house like this. And that scared the shit out of him.
Suddenly Evy appeared behind them and Alex saw that she'd been crying. Her face was red, swollen and wet. He jerked a bit because he knew his mother didn't cry often only when something really bad happened. "Your father is going to be back", she started and Sarah sighed relieved.
"But we won't be here anymore when he does", she ended her sentence. Alex stared at her confused. "What do you mean?" She sniffed and whipped away a single tear that rolled down her cheek. She wouldn't start a discussion about that right now, she'd made her decision.
When Rick'd stormed out of their room she'd realized that this drama went way too far and that she had to stop it immendiately. Even if that meant that she had to leave the only man she loved and that she had to take their children away from him.
"Go in your room and pack your bag. Clothes and your school books. If there's enough space you can also take a few toys with you", she answered and took Sarah's hand.
"Come on Sarah, let's pack your bag, okay"? Her daughter nodded, she understood her mother wasn't in the mood for explanations.
But Alex didn't want to give up too soon. He didn't want to go, he wanted to wait for his Dad to sort everything out. "But.. Mom! I can't .. my lecture", he stuttered and hoped that this would change her mind.
She sighed and looked at him lovely. "I'm sorry Alex but you won't be able to give your lecture tomorrow but I'm sure you can do that a few days later, alright? We'll talk about that later", she said. She knew she had to stay tough now, even if her son would hate her for it.
Sarah looked at her with wide open eyes. Now her brother had made the start she wanted to ask a few questions too. "Where are we going Mom,? And why can't Dad come with us?" She couldn't, didn't want to understand this.
"We're going to visit Aunt Kate and stay with her a few days. And then we'll see what will happen. But no matter what happens after that I promise you that it's going to alright Sweetie", she said quietly.
But Alex shook his head. "It's not.. nothing is going to be alright! You want to take us away from Dad and we'll never see him again. But I don't want to leave him. I.. I don't want to", he yelled and the tears streamed down his cheeks now.
"I want him back Mom. I want my old Dad back..", he cried. "I want to see him laugh again.. I want to hear his jokes and his stories about his adventures. I want him to kiss you, to yell at me, to throw Sarah in the air. I want him to love me again, why did he stop loving me Mom"? He sobbed.
She let her daughter go and ran up to his son, wrapping her arms around him. She buried her face in his shoulder and stroke his back. "Oh Alex. My dear little Alex. Your father loves you. He loves you more than everything in the world and he never stopped loving you. Never! But your fathers has great problems with himself and God and me and he has to figure it out before we can be together again", she cried and pulled Sarah closer as well.
"But I promise you that it's going to be okay. We're going to be a happy family again", she said. "But you have to trust me. I'll figure out how to help your Dad, okay"?
Her children nodded quickly. She smiled faintly. "Okay. And now let's pack our things". Alex took a deep breath, knowing that today wasn't the time for fighting with his mother about leaving. He took his sister's hand in his. "Come on Sarah. I'm gonna help you", he said and together they went back into the house, leaving Evy alone.
Evy whipped away her tears and took a deep breath. And she prayed, she prayed to God that she would be able to fullfill the promise she'd just given her children. She had made the start and now it was Rick's turn to change something. He had to get over the tradegy that happened in their past, he had to get control over his feelings of guilt and his problem with alcohol. And maybe.. maybe if he would be able to solve his problems then maybe he would start loving her again just like she loved him. And maybe she would get the happy-end she needed so badly.
A/N: Okay, this is my first Mummy fic, I hope you like it. And sorry about my many mistakes I'm german and my english isn't that well. Please review!!