Choice A
Life is full of choices and I chose to come here. No, I was chosen to come here. After the initial death of my parents I was left with little feeling at all, that is I didn't know how to feel. I can't remember my name anymore, which is the name my parents gave me. I chose to forget it. I chose to become A. I chose this life and I chose who I would be.
He went by L. He was only a little bit older than me but from miles away anyone could tell he was sent from God. L was different and gifted in everything he did. L was a prodigy. By his early teens he was directing Mister Wammy into his fortune. Then one day it happened. L became interested in unsolvable cases. L could do what seemed impossible. So I watched him in the papers and learned all I could about him, though I had never once met him.
My utter interest in L caused Mister Wammy to single me out with another child. I was first and foremost L's successor; second to that I was A. I would give up my body and consciousness so that I may carry on when L was no longer alive. B had the same purpose. B began to dress like L and sit like L and even speak almost exactly like the real L. He was almost a perfect replica, even so he was not L and he never would be.
We soon found that no matter what we did we would never surpass him. We could never be greater than L. We would never come close to even standing equal with L. B escaped from Wammy's House and disappeared. He couldn't take being L, more like he told me he wouldn't be L. Before he disappeared he told me that he wouldn't only surpass L but he would defeat him as well. I never heard from him again.
I would be sent cases from Wammy, the ones L didn't feel like solving. L had an ego and would only solve cases he was interested in. The others would fall to me as practice for when I would take on a new life as L. Some cases were simple, while others took a bit of time. Even so I managed to solve all the cases Wammy would present to me. As a reward L contacted me.
He told me that he was pleased with my progress and nothing more. I made progress but I wasn't happy. Who am I to become L? L was a Son of God, I was a son of fortune. Fortune looked upon me and told me that I could try to be L but I would never come close. It was an honor and by far my greatest achievement. My greatest achievement was something I didn't have control over. The greatest day from my life was when I was told that I would success L. I thought this day would only be matched the day I got to meet L.
But I never did meet L. I never did become L. I heard his voice through a speaker and I realized just how beautiful this person is. From his voice alone I was lifted and yet I fell. The fact is hearing his voice was so amazing that I would never live a day where it wouldn't whisper in my head. L was L. A was A. They were different.
L was superior. A was a test. In the end I never had a chance. In the end I never made a choice. Even so I can't regret it, I was able to have the chance to work for the greatest human in all of creation. In the end this is my only choice.
Thank you L for everything. I mean that. I type this as my farewell note. I'll never be L, No one can take his place. If I regret anything it would be that I couldn't live up to him and that I'm going to die not knowing my name, the name my parents chose for me. I can try to remember but I know I won't.
L, if you're reading this, did you know that I can hear the bells of Wammy's house even they are far away and it's impossible. I still hear the bells; they're very loud today.
-A.