Not So Standard Disclaimer: I do not own Kigndom Hearts or the song "Breaking the Habit". Nope, not me. They belong to Square-Enix and LinkinPark respectively. I'm just a poor high school student...though I did find nine dollars in the washer today...

Rating: PG-13 for language, violence, gore, and...and...I won't say it! (Kazu: Future Romance... mwahahahahaha)

Genre: Action/Adventure/......(Kazu: -sigh- See above.)

Summary: Her planet was the first to go. And she was killed in the process. Now she must become a guardian to the only one who can save them to redeem herself. (My take on who the "All-knowing voice" is.)

AN: The old special was getting on my nerves...really it was.

.:Guardian of Keys:.

Special: Breaking the Habit

Memories consume

Like opening the wound

I'm picking me apart again

It's dark...

So dark...

How could this happen?

Where did I go wrong?

Should I've listened to...to...

I can't say her name anymore. Have I wronged her again? Is that why?

You all assume

I'm safe here in my room

(Unless I try to start again)

She thinks I'm safe and sound. That I'm in a place where harm could never come to me. Oh, how wrong you are. You can't be more wrong Onesan. I wish you were here. But now...

I don't want to be the one

The battles always choose

'Cause inside I realize

That I'm the one confused

Every...everyone's expecting me to do something great, to turn the battle around. Th...they're all trying to force me to join a side in this war. I try to be strong. No matter what they say, act like I know what I'm doing. But I'm so confused Onesan...so confused.

I don't know what's worth fighting for

Or why I have to scream

I don't know why I instigate

And say what I don't mean

I feel like screaming. All the pain and sorrow I've gone through has been building up inside me, I feel like I'm going to explode. I need help...

Gomen Onesan, gomen nasi! I didn't mean it. Don't be mad. I didn't mean all those terrible things I said to you! I didn't mean to hurt you! I don't even know why I even said those things! Onegai...I...I need you, DON'T LEAVE ME ALL ALONE!!

I don't know how I got this way

I know it's not all right

I don't know when it started. I had wanted to see you for so long. But... when I saw you... I couldn't bring myself to say "I forgive you". I tried Onesan. I really did.

So I'm breaking the habit

(I'm breaking the habit)

Tonight

I'll say it next time I see you. I promise. There is going to be a next time...isn't there? What am I saying, of course there is! As long as... as Riku doesn't give in.

Clutching my cure

I tightly lock the door

I try to catch my breath again

Onegai Riku, don't listen to them...they aren't telling the truth! The only want to use you...why won't you LISTEN to me?! Can't you hear me?! They won't help you bring Kairi back!

They've taken you away from back...onegai? Riku...I love you, Riku...don't leave me here...

I hurt much more

Than anytime before

I had no options left again

Kami-sama...I'm crying again. Why do I have to be so weak? It's not fair. Heh that makes me sound really strong doesn't it? Yeah right. But what else can I do, damnit? Nothing! Not while I'm still trapped here!

I don't want to be the one

The battles always choose

'Cause inside I realize

That I'm the one confused

I don't know what's worth fighting for

Or why I have to scream

I don't know why I instigate

And say what I don't mean

I don't know how I got this way

I'll never be all right

So I'm breaking the habit

(I'm breaking the habit)

Tonight

But I'll show them... I'll show them all. I will do something great. I will break free of these chains. And I will show them what happens when you cross a Jigoku!

I'll paint it on the walls

'Cause I'm the one at fault

I'll never fight again

And this is how it ends

It's my fault that all of us are in this mess, only I should take the blame. I won't run from it anymore. I'm tired of running. It's time I stopped trying to hide from this... this doom I've put us into and face it like the warrior I wanted to be.

I don't know what's worth fighting for

Or why I have to scream

But now I have some clarity

To show you what I mean

I don't know how I got this way

I'll never be all right

You just wait Onesan! I'll prove I can be a good soldier! I'll make it right with us... so we can be happy again. I swear I will!

So I'm breaking the habit

(I'm breaking the habit)

I'm breaking the habit

Ganbatte, Onesan. See you on the battlefield!

Tonight.

End Special.

Word Bank:

Onesan- elder sister

Gomen/Gomen nasi- "I'm sorry" and "I'm very sorry."

Onegai- please

Kami-sama- roughly translated to "Divine Lord", in other words "God"

Ganbatte- Good luck!

AN: Neh, I love it. X3 It's soooooo much better than my last special...YAY! The trailer thing just wasn't workin' out for me...so I came up with this. Please R/R.