Warning: My first forray into Twilight fan fiction, so please be gentle....
Disclaimer: I do not own any of the characters of Twilight, I am merely borrowing them for a bit...
Empty.
Lost in the nothingness.
I can't bring myself to care. I feel nothing, which would be worrying normally because I feel so much sometimes. I don't anymore, though. Not this time. This time I crave the nothingness. I crave it because it's so much better than to have to feel what I can't bear to feel.
Edward is gone. My love. My world. Gone. Left because of some sense of duty he feels to protect me from everything, especially himself.
I think he thinks I'll be able to move, to leave him behind. He thinks I'm strong, that I'll be better off without him in my life because with him I'm in constant danger…
Doesn't he see that without him, life is not worth the pain?
Doesn't he know that I'm not strong enough to live without the love of my life?
My friends try to console me, but they can't see how bad I really feel…I don't let them see. I wish they would just let me be alone in my misery.
Jacob…
Jacob comes, and sometimes I can see a light at the end of the darkness I drift in…
Sometimes I feel so guilty, letting someone see my pain.
Jacob understands…Jacob seems to have secrets of his own…I see him sometimes, I feel like he wants to tell me but is afraid…
Somehow, Jacob makes me want to feel again, even though I know it means pain…sometimes Jacob makes me feel like it would be worth it.
I can't yet, though…
I can't pull myself out of the nothingness. Not yet. It all feels to raw right now…too new…too big to deal with…
Jacob is waiting though…
Maybe I can move on, let Edward have his way and let him go…
I don't know. I'm just still so empty…lost.
Who can I trust now to help me find my way?
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