The inspiration for this entire story goes to "Thinking of You" by Katy Perry. I love that song :) Hope you liked the Prologue! Also, I completely screwed up on dates in the first story. Everything(except season 6 onwards) is set a year behind(I.e. Revelations happened in 2006 instead of 2007) sorry for any confusion!

January 1, 2013

(JJ's POV)

I loved Spencer Reid. I loved him with every inch of my soul. We tried to date. He gave me a kiss after our first date. I felt like the most special girl on earth. We dated in secret for a year. But we ended it in the beginning of 2006. We had a fight, and just called it off. I learned it was because of his drug addiction. I tried to make things right. He told me to move on. Stupidly, I did.

We got drunk and got together again for one night. We had sex and I left before he woke up the next morning. A few months later, I was pregnant.

The week before , Will was in town. The dates were so close, I had no idea who's baby I was pregnant with. Spence was dealing with so much at the time, I pretended the baby was Will's, but deep down I just had a feeling it was his baby.

As some type of way to make up with the fact this may be his child, I declared Spence his godfather. Like that would make up for what I had just done, ha. That only made things worse.

When Henry was born, he looked like Reid. He had his hair color, his eyes were exactly the same. Henry was developing faster than most children. Then he was diagnosed with Asperger's Syndrome.

Will left, not believing Henry was his son. Spence stepped in and we were dating again after 2 months. Henry started referring to him as Daddy and forgot about Will. That December, I told him I was pregnant.

We got married in February when Will came back. He took it to court and we learned Henry was Reid's son. We got into a fight and I went into labor. We forgave each other, but deep down, I knew Reid was still upset about missing out on his son's life.

I can't help but think of all those nights I went on without him. Whenever I kissed Will, I tasted Spence's mouth which tasted like sugary coffee. I looked into Will's eyes and saw Spence's. I was disgusted with myself whenever I was with Will. I could only think of Spence. He was perfect.

I wish I could take it all back, but what's done is done. I can only imagine how things would be different if I told him right away. Maybe, in another life, we worked out. Maybe Henry was born a Reid and never knew about Will. Maybe, just maybe...