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Elena,

It's not an easy task being an ordinary parent to an extra-ordinary child. I failed in that task. And because of my prejudices I failed you. I'm haunted by how things might have played differently if I'd be more willingly to hear your side of things. For me it's the end, for you it's just a chance to grow old and someday do better with your own child than I did with mine. It's for that child that I gave you my ring. I don't ask for your forgiveness nor for you to forget. I ask only that you believe this, whether now you are reading this as a human or as a vampire I love you all the same as a I always loved you and always will.

John.

Elena POV

I lurched up gasping for air. But it hurt to breath it felt like there was something sharp stuck in my lungs. I looked around and I saw Stefan right beside me holding my hand. I didn't even feel that. My head was pounding and every muscle in my body aches. Where the hell am I? I was sitting on a metal stretcher and the room was kind of dark, it looked like a morgue….but that smell..that smell reminded me of the hospital. The hospital? Was I in the hospital again? What happened? I looked at Stefan again to find him looking at me with so much sadness and pain in his eyes.

'What..? Where…?'. My voice cracked and my throat felt dry and soar.

'Elena, I'm so sorry'. He pled and there were unshed tears in his eyes. O. god who died? Is that the reason I was in a morgue? I felt my breath getting stuck in my lungs and the blood freezing in my veins. I tried to remember what happened. I remember I was earlier in the hospital because I collapsed but I was brought home by Caroline, Tyler and Matt. Matt? We were in his car…driving and…o my god! We had an accident, memories of Rebekah, the bridge, the lake, the water were floating in my head.

'Matt, where is Matt?'. Please, don't let me lose anyone anymore, please.

'He's fine, Elena I have saved him, but..'. I felt relieved. Yes, I remembered Stefan now, he wanted to save me but I insisted to save Matt instead. He first refused but eventually did it anyway and then..it went dark. I remember my lungs burned, desperately fighting for some air, I let it in. I couldn't fight anymore, it hurt a lot to give in but then a few seconds later I felt nothing, it went dark…I guess that's when Stefan came in and saved me after all.

'…I just was too late'. Stefan cried and was looking to the floor. What? I did not hear what he was talking about at all. Too late for what? My head felt like it was about to explode. I guess it's an aftermath of my fall when Klaus….wait a minute. Klaus! Wasn't Klaus dead? I remember the phone call with Damon, my heart aches but I also remember Caroline calling me telling me that Tyler died. I looked at Stefan, so how was it possible that he was still alive? Did Klaus lie about the line? Or did it just mean that it didn't happen yet? How much time was there between Finn and Saige? I couldn't remember and I felt the panic coming up. I looked around again, I only saw Stefan looking at me with pity, Damon wasn't here, did that mean he didn't make it back? Was he…? I gasped. I heard a door slam open and I turned to see who that was.

'Elena'. He sounded desperate and relieved at the same time.

'Damon'. I sighed, I felt relieved to see him again. But when I studied his face with bruises and scratches on it I saw despair and grieve.

'Damon, what's wrong?'. I was worried about him.

'I…'. his voice cracked and he was searching for words. I felt a knob in my stomach.

He turned away and said awfully cold: 'Really Stefan? You just had one task: keep your girl save and you've even failed in that one'.

Stefan was looking at the floor. What was Damon talking about? I'm fine.

'I…', started Stefan but he got interrupted by Damon.

'Shut up….just shut up!'. Damon was mumbling something I couldn't hear. He sure as hell was angry. My head was pounding, my eyes hurt, my throat was dry, I was hungry and even my gums hurt. I've probably catch a cold. Suddenly both Damon and Stefan froze and were listening to something. And then things happened so quick I couldn't even wink with my eyes.

'We need to leave now'. Damon paced tot the exit while Stefan grabbed me and carried me in bride style. We rushed through the back door to the parking lot and get in the car of Damon's. Damon started the car and drove away.

'What the hell…?', my head was really spinning now. What the hell was going on here?