Okay, a little Cara songfic. I got this idea while watching Return to Never Land, which is were this song is from. I forgote who sings it, but I don't sing it, or own it. Hope you like it:)
A young Sara Sidle curled up into the corner of the room
I am not a child now.
I can take care of myself.
'Grow up' they had told her, and she had, as fast as she could.
I mustn't let them down now-
Mustn't let them see me cry.
She held the tears that were flooding her eyes in. She knew that if they were seen, more pain would follow.
I'm fine.
I'm fine.
And tomorrow, at school, she would have to pretend that nothing had happened. She would have to pretend that her night hadn't been filled with pain.
I'm too tired to listen.
I'm too old to believe:
All these childish stories.
She had left all the childish beliefs behind, she knew it wasn't Santa who left the single present under the tree, or the Easter bunny who left raw eggs everywhere.
There is no such thing as faith,
And trust,
And pixie dust.
Nothing existed for her, no happiness, no freedom, and no miracles.
I try,
but it's too hard to believe.
I try,
She was never given the chance to have a normal childhood.
but I can't see what you see.
I try.
I try.
I try.
She was never given the chance to just be a child, to have to freedom of youth.
My whole world is changing;
I don't know where to turn.
Then it happened. She watched as the blade sunk into her dads' flesh, multiple times. Before she knew it, she was in a new house, with a new family.
I can't leave you baby,
But I cant stay and watch the sitting burn;
Watch it burn.
But she still couldn't believe, she was still grown up inside.
'Cause I try,
But its so hard to believe!
She tried, tried to believe it was an old elf who put her presents under the tree, not her foster mom, and the Easter Bunny who hid the decorated eggs in the hardest places, not her foster dad.
I try,
but I can't see where you see.
She still couldn't understand how children saw the world. She still didn't understand how they believed everything they heard.
I try.
I try.
But she tried, so hard.
I try and try,
To understand,
She tried to see through a child's eyes, even as she grew older.
The distance in between:
The love I feel,
The things I fear,
I dearly say good dream.
And when she met her, she finally saw it.
I can finally see it.
Now I have to believe:
All those precious stories.
As she gazed into those ocean blue eyes she understood why they believed what they believed, and why they saw the world the way they did.
All the world is made of faith,
And trust,
and pixie dust.
As she kissed those feather soft lips, she understood that there was good in the world, she had just been denied it.
So I'll try,
'Cause I finally believe!
And now, as she sat next to her love on the couch, she saw the way she should of as a child, she believed everything children believed.
I'll try,
'Cause I see where you see!
As her love leaned onto her, she finally understood all she had missed as a child.
I'll try.
I'll try!
I will try!
I'll try-
to fly.
And she loved every moment of it.
"What's wrong baby?" Catherine asked as she saw a tear roll down Saras' cheek.
"Nothing, I was just thinking" the brunette replied.
"About what?"
"About how much our relationship made me learn" Sara replied, and she leaned down, and gave Catherine a small kiss on the lips. When they parted, she put her arm around her waist, Catherine put her head on Saras' shoulders, and they watched the rest of the movie in the position.