Summary: Some pages from Clarisse's diary. Just her thoughts on certain events that occurred during the movies and also things that I think occurred during the five year gap. I'm making the rating M for future chapters but the first couple will be rated K+ and I will give warning if entry is M for those of you who do not like to read M. Also you will be able to read one entry and not the next and not be too terrible lost if you decide not to read the M stuff.

Author's Note: Some of you know that I have been on holiday and it has been killing me not to be able to send my personal Thank you's out so for those who have read and reviewed the past couple stories THANK YOU you are are the BEST!

This is not my typical fanfic but those of you who write know that you can't just stop thinking about your story because you are on holiday so since i didn't have a lot of time to write, I decided to write these small entries from Clarisse's private diary.

Clarisse Confesses

Dear Diary,

Today I met my granddaughter Amelia for the first time. Before her arrival I was a total wreck but Joseph assured me that she was probably just as nervous and that I needed to just be myself and that she would surely love me. Oh how I had hoped that he was right and at first things seemed to be going well, albeit they were a little awkward.

I noticed straightaway her appearance was not that of a princess but beneath her bushy hair and eyebrows was a rather lovely girl who reminds me so very much of Phillipe. She has his eyes and his ears; it almost hurts me to look into her eyes because they remind me so much of him. I miss him dearly every day.

I was surprised that she had put the locket I gave her on right away and I thought for a moment that everything was going to be fine, but then at tea when I told her that she was a princess and the next in line to rule Genovia she reacted in a way I wasn't prepared for. I thought every little girl wanted to be a princess but I guess I was wrong because after hearing the news she ran away and even though I called after her she continued to leave. Joseph of course had seen the entire thing unfold and again tried to offer his support although I know he wasn't thrilled when I asked him to be her babysitter and chauffer. The only reason I asked him was because he is the only one I trust to keep her safe, although it will be difficult not having him by my side every day. I know the others are capable of doing the job but there is something about Joseph that makes me feel safe.

How am I going to convince Amelia that she should accept the role? I think with my help she would make a fine ruler of Genovia but more than all that I really just want to know my granddaughter. I never really wanted to stay out of her life until she was eighteen but Phillipe had asked me to honor his and Helen's wishes and although it broke my heart not to be able to see her, I agreed. I was willing to give her a normal childhood for as long as possible because I never had that opportunity and I knew even back then, that once she became Queen she would look back and be thankful for that time in her life. However, now she needed to know the truth and she needs to make a decision that will not only affect her but also the fate of Genovia.

I really wish she had allowed me the time to explain things a little more over tea instead of running off. Perhaps we could have come to some sort of a compromise, it isn't like I expect her to rule tomorrow.

What will I do if she turns down the role? The thought never really entered in my mind until now I guess I thought that she would just be so happy after I told her she was a princess that she would accept on the spot but now I just don't know what she is going to do.

When Joseph stopped by my suite this evening to let me know that Mia had made it home safely, he tried to tell me that teenagers were unpredictable and that I just needed to give her time to adjust to the idea. Joseph always knows when something is bothering me and he always seem to say exactly what I need to hear. I could have almost kissed him when he suggested that perhaps Mia could take a few 'princess lessons' before she made her decision. That was a great idea because it would help Amelia and it would allow me time to get to know my granddaughter better. I'm hoping that she will at least agree to the lessons, I'm not sure what I will do if she rejects the idea.

~TBC~