I revamped this first part and included the lyrics to Bethany Joy Lenz's "Honestly" because I wasn't sure if everyone has heard the song and realized how well it worked with Naley. And it is pretty much what my story is based on so I thought it would be important! Also- part four is up now so keep reading! Thanks for all the feedback guys! -Kylie

Nathan: "What happens if she comes back?"

Taylor: "Well then, it'll be your decision."

Summary: Set after the season finale of season two. Haley has returned home to Nathan and now he has a difficult decision to make- let her back into his life or shut her out for good. Also- all of the chapters are titled after songs because I love how the show does that and it is such a powerful way to get my message across. The whole story is called Honestly- which is a Bethany Joy Lenz song!- that perfectly represents the Naley relationship throughout the show.

Disclaimer: I don't own any of the characters, or the song I used in this fic. It's called "Home" by Michale Buble and I thought it fit Naley perfectly- the bold parts especially!

Honestly, I didn't mean to cry so hard
but the heartache was pouring in like rain.
I didn't mean to show I cared.
Honestly, I didn't mean to laugh so loud
but it just sounds so absurd to say that you want me,
say that you need me
after everything you've done.
Really, truly, I didn't mean to hurt you.
I just thought that maybe now,
we'd have better luck the second time around.
It's always better the second time, I hear.

Find me in the evening when you're
ready to dance and I will
take to the places
where you never thought you'd have the chance to love.
Love...
Love is all we have.
I will run myself in circles here without you.

Please believe that I tried my best to forget you
but the memories keep flooding back like tears.
I didn't mean to fall in love.
But sitting here, just waiting for this is torture.
I'm so glad you'refar away.
Is that a terrible thing to say?
Well, I wonder if you're okay...

Find me in the evening when you're
ready to dance and I will
take to the places
where you never thought you'd have the chance to love.
Love...
Love is all we have.
I will run myself in circles here without you.
Oh, I would run myself in circles here without you.
Oh, I've tried and tried and I can't hide from your love.
Darlin', it's too late
to show me your intentions.
You know we've got to find a way to get past all the implications,
every situation,
every complication that we've come from.
Love is all we have
I will run myself in circles here without you.

Darlin', love...
Love...
Love is all we have.

I will run myself in circles here
without you.

"Honestly" by Bethany Joy Lenz

Chapter One- Home

"Hi."

Nathan saw her standing there, surrounded by all of her luggage, and his first instinct was to reach out to her and hold her in his arms. He pushed that thought away, knowing that it wasn't the right one. He couldn't allow everything to be okay just because she decided to come back. It didn't excuse the fact that she left in the first place.

"Well, can I come in and talk?"

Did she honestly think it would be that easy? "Haley, I don't think that would be such a good idea."

"I went by the apartment and it was all empty. You moved out?"

"Yeah, there was no reason for me to stay there anymore. Besides, I'm trying to work everything out with my parents now, at least for my mom's sake."

"Nathan, that was our home."

"Haley, it stopped being your home the moment you left. It just wasn't the same there anymore."

"Please, let me in so that we can talk."

Nathan didn't know what to do. He didn't want her to come in because he missed her so much and he was afraid he wouldn't have enough self control to stop something from happening. Then again, he didn't want to just leave her outside and he knew he'd never be able to slam a door in her face. Reluctantly, he moved aside so that she could step into the house.

Haley followed Nathan as he walked towards the den. Her luggage remained on the steps outside; it was the last of her worries right now. Nathan took a seat on the couch and watched as Haley chose to sit at the armchair next to him.

"Nathan, I just want to say that I'm so sorry."

"Haley, you shouldn't have to apologize to me for wanting to follow your dream. It shouldn't have to be like that. Remember when I called you after my accident and told you to stay? I did want you to stay because I wanted you to continue following your dream. I wanted you to be happy."

"But I wasn't happy. I kept telling myself that I was, that it was what I wanted, but I was just lying to myself. I wouldn't have been truly happy unless you were there experiencing it all with me."

"It doesn't matter anymore, Haley."

"Did you really mean what you said before I left?"

"That it would be over?"

"Yes."

"I was mad, Haley. I ran back to the apartment as fast as I could, but when I got there you had already left. I was devastated, Hales."

He had finally said it. She had been waiting for him to call her that since she was standing outside the door. That was one of the things she missed the most, him calling her Hales. She could tell that she was getting somewhere with him. "Why didn't you ever tell me that?"

"I guess it was mostly my pride. I was so angry everyday that you were gone, but mostly I was just upset. I acted like I was okay with you leaving, I basically acted like an ass for weeks. But I only did it to cover up how much I was hurting. And missing you. Then, I just started feeling sorry for myself for missing you so much but not having the courage to call you."

"Nathan…" she reached for his hand, but he pulled his away quickly.

"But then I did it, Haley. I surprised you, but you were too busy for me. Besides, I didn't feel like I belonged there anyway. That was when I realized I had lost you for good and how much I hated myself for not being more supported of you leaving. I just made it an easy choice for you."

"Nathan it was such a difficult choice for me!"

"But you did it anyway. Even though I said we were over if you left. I've never stopped thinking about that, how easy it was for you to throw it all away."

"I fought the urge to run home to you everyday! I stayed because I thought singing on stage and having a crowd scream my name would fill the hole in my heart. But it didn't, it just forced me to imagine your face in the crowd. It forced me to remember the time when I only sang for you and how happy it made me. I just got to this place where picturing your face wasn't enough and I actually had to see you in front of me. So here I am. I'm putting myself out there, just like you did for me. You can't imagine how miserable I was when I came back to my dressing room and you weren't there. I felt like such a horrible person for not getting on my knees and begging you to stay after everything I had put you through. And then something happened, Nathan, which suddenly made me understand exactly how you must have felt when I left to go on tour. The annulment papers were all of a sudden in front of me, all signed by you and ready for my signature. So I stayed because I figured you were tired of fighting, but now I just realize that it's my turn to fight for you."

"Haley, what are you talking about? I never signed any papers! I found them in Lucas' bag a few days ago and I was so heartbroken because I thought you had sent them with him for me to sign."

Before Haley could respond, the whole house was disrupted with the sounds of sobbing. All they could hear was Deb saying "Oh god, no…" over and over again. Nathan jumped up from the couch and sprinted upstairs, Haley just a few steps behind him. He ran into his parent's bedroom, where his mother was leaning against the wall for support, holding her cell phone in her hands.

"Mom, what is it? What's happened?"

"A fire… There's been a fire…"

"Mom, where? Mom, come on, talk to me!"

Deb lifted her head, but her gaze floated right past Nathan and right at Haley. "Haley, it's so nice to see you. I'm so glad you're home."

Nathan glanced back at Haley and she could see the fear on her face, so she did her best to stay calm. "Thanks, Mrs. Scott, it's nice to be home. Why don't we take a seat?" Haley walked past Nathan and took Deb's arm, leading her to sit on the edge of her bed. "Where's the fire that you're talking about? Do you remember?"

"The auto shop, they think that Dan was still there."

Haley turned to Nathan, beginning to get worried. Not only was his mother completely incoherent, but she was basically saying that there was a fire at Dan's work and they hadn't been able to rescue him.

"Mom," Nathan cut in, "if dad was in a fire at the shop, we should get over there right away, don't you think? I can drive you there."

"Yes, that would probably be a good idea. Let me just gather up a few of my things." With that, she rose from the bed and walked out of the room. She almost looked as if she were a zombie, completely unable to control her own movements.

"Haley…"

"Just go, Nathan, make sure your dad's okay. We can figure all this out later. I promise you, I'll be here when you get back. I'll wait for you."

Nathan nodded, his mind no longer functioning on a sane level. He wanted to know what happened with the annulment papers, but first of all he needed to know whether or not his dad was okay. It was a difficult choice, but right now his dad came first. There was nothing he could possibly say to Haley so he just turned and walked out of the room.

The only way he would stay in control was if he handled one thing at a time, which for the time being was getting to the shop. He would deal with Haley later, it wouldn't hurt to make her wait for him for a few hours. After all, he had waited for her for months.

But he couldn't help the voice in the back of his head that kept nagging him and bringing up a very important question. He hadn't signed those annulment papers, had never even considered it, so who the hell did?

Another summer day
Has come and gone away
In Paris and Rome
But I wanna go home
Mmmmmmmm

Maybe surrounded by
A million people I
Still feel all alone
I just wanna go home
Oh I miss you, you know

And I've been keeping all the letters that I wrote to you
Each one a line or two
"I'm fine baby, how are you?"
Well I would send them but I know that it's just not enough
My words were cold and flat
And you deserve more than that

Another aeroplane
Another sunny place
I'm lucky I know
But I wanna go home
Mmmm, I've got to go home

Let me go home
I'm just too far from where you are
I wanna come home

And I feel just like I'm living someone else's life
It's like I just stepped outside
When everything was going right
And I know just why you could not
Come along with me
But this was not your dream
But you always believe in me

Another winter day has come
And gone away
And even Paris and Rome
And I wanna go home
Let me go home

And I'm surrounded by
A million people I
Still feel alone
Oh, let me go home
Oh, I miss you, you know

Let me go home
I've had my run
Baby, I'm done
I gotta go home
Let me go home
It will all right
I'll be home tonight
I'm coming back home

-"Home" by Michael Buble

Hope you enjoyed! Please read and review and the second part will be posted soon! This was my first ever One Tree Hill fanfic so I hope I did a good job- I always do my best to stay in character.

Kylie