One shot inspired by the song "Human Again" from Beauty and the Beast. All characters belong to Stephenie Meyer, I'm just borrowing them to play for a bit!
She's not sure why exactly Emmett wanted to see Beauty and the Beast. It was a cartoon (which admittedly, he did love his toons), but she figured it would have appealed to Alice more than Emmett, but here she sits with her monkey man as he stares, eyes transfixed on the big screen.
The movie is cute enough she can admit... She was always a little breathless and amazed at how much cinema has changed. Cartoons were never this big and bright when she was a child. As the movie progresses and Belle and her Beast are finding themselves slowly gaining respect for each other and falling love, she admits she is more amused by this than she anticipated. She's enjoying herself.
Suddenly, the castle's inhabitants are singing a song called "Human Again" and it hits her, so suddenly. The deep, immense sadness that threatens to envelope and engulf her in its sticky, smothering paws.
If she were human again? Oh the things she would want to do! There were all the usual things... eat cool ice cream on a hot day where the heat rises from the ground in waves, or enjoy a cup of coffee on a cool morning where the steam curls lazily out of the cup and spirals up to the ceiling in the chill of cool early morning air. See her first grey hair, her first wrinkle. (Although she's pretty certain that would be less fun in retrospect.) Laugh till she has to pee... she can laugh for hours as a vampire, but to watch humans laugh themselves stupid? (Something she rarely did when she was human, to her knowledge.) There is a certain appeal that makes her long for the ability to clutch her tummy and claim it aches from laughing or even having to run off, cursing her weak human bladder but finding the humour in even THAT. Crying. More than once Em has surprised her in the sweetest ways and to be able to shed tears seems like such a wonderful thing, even though she had appreciated it so little when she could cry.
But mostly?
Children.
To have a child... to create her own little perfect being with Emmett, to carry that child, watch herself swell and grow, watch her body change and nourish a tiny being that would be the best parts of her and her love. She longs for that so fiercely it makes her soul ache.
And she understands that sadly, that can never be. She once thought it was in the cards for her, but fate decided to deal her a different hand. And she curses that hand so damn much. It's a raw wound, with no hope of healing.
She dreams of the what if's... the unknowns. But always in the end it's the same; she can never be human again. She loves Emmett, she really does. But her humanity is one gift he can't give her, so she must "get over it", as it were. But in quiet little moments like these, she indulges in the wishing. And when the movie is done and Belle's Beast is a Prince again, and they all live happily ever after? Emmett throws his massive arm around her shoulder as they walk out into the night and almost as if he knew what sadness had been raging and coursing through her earlier, he suddenly whispers into her ear that they could use another honeymoon and she is suddenly swept up into his massive arms and kissed senseless.
She will never be human again, but she has HIM. And in the moments like this one? He is all she needs.